Ladies and gentlemen, The Moody Blues.
I've been in kind of a melancholy mood today. It didn't help that this morning at the archives I work at four days out of the week, all the old people there started talking about all the times they had been hospitalized. It was one of those, "It sucks to get old" types of conversations. It also kind of reminded me of all the times my late mother had ended up going to the hospital. I can say that I'm far more familiar with the atmosphere of a hospital waiting room than someone my age should be. It also didn't help that in the handwritten translation I had been typing into the computer, the person that had written the original letter had also started talking about how age had started to destroy her faculties. It was about then when I decided to call it a morning.
Another thing that's been eating me is that I seem to have lost a chunk of my confidence as a writer. Last night and this morning I had gotten some negative feedback on a couple of things that I've written. Now before anyone reading says anything, I know negative feedback is just one of those things we artists and writers get sometimes. And the comments I had gotten did make me realize that there were a couple of things I could've done better. So I'm going to try and keep it in mind for next time. One thing I also try to do when this sort of thing happens is keep in mind all of the positive feedback I've gotten on the things I've written and how it outweighs the bad. Doesn't always work though, and it certainly doesn't help that I'm very critical of my own work.
So as a result, I find that I know longer feel like writing some of the stories that I had planned to write. Part of it is because I don't really feel like I'd be able to write those stories properly. But I think the main reason is the subject matter itself. Maybe I just need a break or something, I don't know. The bottom line though is that the spark just isn't there. So that's what's going on with me at the moment. I hope everyone else is having a better day.
