What..Do I do....

Im so lost...
I mean....really lost now
what am I dreaming now....
I never dreamt this is a while....

Walking down some road and out of no where someone shoots me....
I die.... so many times...
I die...
and it always happen when I least expect it...
Why do I die?
To dream that you are shot or being shot at represents a form of self-punishment that you may be subconsciously imposing on yourself. You may have done something that you are ashamed of or are not proud of.

I always put myself down...always
I never gave myself any kind of nice thoughts
Good thoughts
Not that I know of
All I know is I am a good friends...
I care for the lives of others than my own...
I always put myself down.
So....the only thing that shames me....is me.....my life....the things I've done....

The other I was fighting a friend...a real close friend...and I told her screw our friendship screw you I don't give a fuck if you care for me or lied to me I always been lied to and betrayed by those I wanted to trust most in my life....I lost so much trust....I lost so much...but why her...please not her....but I told her my dream...and she said it used her to represent someone else... who? A friend I said I give my friendship a chance again with her...

To dream that you are in a fight indicates inner turmoil. Some aspect of yourself is in conflict with another aspect of yourself. Perhaps an unresolved or unacknowledged part is fighting for its right to be heard. It may also parallel a fight or struggle that you are going through in your waking life. If you are fighting to the death, then it refers to your refusal to acknowledge some waking conflict or inner turmoil. You are unwilling to change your old attitudes and habits.

Hmm...she lied to me...but I forgave her for that....but why still want to end it with her?

To see friends in your dream signify aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to incorporate and acknowledge. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Alternatively, dreaming of a friend indicates positive news

She helped me with finding out the meaning to these dreams but... I don't know what to do...
I don't know what to think...
Surrendering to these dreams is my only option...right??
this isn't the first time I had these kind of dreams....
No...this about my 25 time.....for both....my death...and the fighting....
ugh....idk what to think....I even had 2 dreams....about seeing the grim reaper....

To see the grim reaper in your dream signifies the negative, rejected aspects of your personality. It represents aspects of yourself that you have repressed. Alternatively, it symbolizes death. The dream may parallel an end to some situation, habit, or relationship in your waking life.

....not sure anymore....what to do....maybe...this time I am giving up on trying to fix things...change things.
I don't know what to do.
this is the weakest I have ever been...
I need help...or I may just end up ruining things I can't fix if I end it badly.
Ruin friendships...that I can't afford to lose....mostly because they are the ones that help me out but ...
I hide alot of things from them.
now...I don't know what to do.

To dream that your friend has turned into the grim reaper implies that your relationship with them is dead. Your friend has changed into someone that you literally do not recognize anymore. Something has changed in the relationship.
I seen that so much has changed with them...and me....
they are not the same...
I am not either
Who got worse
Me?
or them?
Im....not wanting to be weak...
they...are doing things that I do not find acceptable
am I changing for the better or the worst..
Maybe I do know what to do
And that....is to end some friendships..that I can not handle anymore..... It about time.... I realize that. It time.... I move on and do what I got to...what is it that I must do....
End things now.

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