The one thing that hurts me most...is to hurt those I care for...family and friends...
I can't stand to be in a bad situation with someone I care for...may it be someone who I hate or looks down on me....sure....I won't care if they and I are not in good terms....but still....those I care for I can't stay mad at them and I can't have them stay mad at me either....
I hate being blamed for things that I know I did wrong but I can actually fix it...but somehow those I care for I end up hurting them....
Me....I hurt them, when I say they are the one who I care for...they are also the main ones I end up hurting most unintentionally ... I can't stand that..I care for them, their lives are most important to me. My life comes second before them and those who put my life before their own....I think...their the ones...I should care for most...and want to protect the most... they are...my true friends even in the worst of time they are the ones who I can go to...and even cry to...they have and know the real....real me that I even tried to hide from me...
Others can bring the real me out...but from how I see it....4 people know the real me...and their the real close friends I have....they are...one....being someone I knew since 9th....one in junior and the two others...I met them this year.
Others know me...better than I know myself