I don't understand
I don't know what to tell you
I mean...
Your like that person I want to protect...
Your the one I can't afford to lose.
Your the one that I promised to help and protect since the one you trusted left and still in contact with you...
I mean...
what is wrong?
You brush it off and say nothing is wrong
when in your eyes you show nothing but pain and tears..
I ask if your ok
and you say yes just allergies
You're lying I can tell you are but why do you keep the pain??
Why not tell me whats wrong?
I am your friend?
Why lie?
I am the one who cares.
I am the one who hurts herself just to feel your pain.
I am the one who throws herself into the fire for you.
I am the one who kills herself day and night just to know what is wrong with you.
I know I am nothing but a human being who has done nothing more but hurt, fall and give up at time...but I know when to tell someone I need help...
I know when I can't go on...to ask for help...
To tell someone...
Why won't you do the same....why won't you trust me??
I am your friend..
your more to me...
Mean more than my life...
My life is nothing..
I have nothing...
I am nothing if I know I can't help one person...
Or at least give you a hand to say "I'm here for you"
Why won't you trust me?
I always been there for you...I knew nothing of you and now it feels I have gotten no where...Your quiet and yet I make you talk...and I am glad because it seems everyone has seen you change...your more social...more talkative..
But now...no one understand why you feel the way you feel...
I don't either.
I wanted nothing but to see a smile on you...and if your in pain to at least tell me...
Not to treat me like I am no friend...Like I am someone who doesn't care...I am not that type of person...
You told me...I never notice...but your wrong...You put up a fake smile...and you did it for a while....at times I thought...It was grades....like before...but then I realized...you feel like you don't belong...why is that.
I made you know everyone...I did all I can to get you to see how others care for you...why don't you believe me??
I feel that my care for you means nothing...
I break myself for others that includes you...
I hurt myself for others...that includes you...
I will die for others....THAT INCLUDES YOU....
why don't you believe me....
What can I do...to prove my care for you...
I care...I love...I use to hate now I don't.
But with what your doing...it makes me...want to do all I gave up...all over again....To start the cutting...to start the suicide all over...but...I can't...I can't...I use to think, that would get people to see how much I care for them...but no...I can't
I don't know how....
I don't know why...
But I won't give up on you...because I care for you
I won't stop being me...because the me now is better than the me before...
I will die for you,...even if you don't believe me...
I will hurt for you....even when you least expect it...
I won't leave you behind...you the one I need to help now.
I won't leave you alone...I will stand at your side...Now until the end.

*Barbra Streisand*