I'm more or less interested in anything dealing with Itachi but I get interested easily with any manga/anime
I'm not much to talk about an amateur artist trying to put up art for people to see as well as fan art. I hope you like this world I'm probably just do journal entries and compare things in life with some in anime/manga


random shit here. no its not important just something that came to mind in the past week... needed to write it

Sometimes I wonder why i even bother....
Somehow its getting worse to try and say your friends....
Your wanting to trust
Somehow... its hard to get any trust anymore
What do you do?
I think give em space.
But then... they might think other wise of it as ignoring...
Whats worse
You can't get their trust.
You can't get your own parents trust.
You know you done wrong before.
So when its been a while a long whiles since you did something to make em not trust you
You did all you can to get that trust again....
One gives it to you
The other just makes you want to rip something apart and throw away every little thing that says have trust have faith...
Whats the point then.
Might as well kill your thoughts and mind and let yourself be surrounded by the darkness you once let go of
the one that said to never have trust in anyone at all
Not friends
Not family.
Just you yourself...
And no one else.

Maybe its best to go back to those times.

Back into nothing
To the person people never saw
Never noticed
Never cared.
Again to the past
Not wanting to trust or be trusted.
Maybe... thats for the best.


we laugh... we cry.... we do what we can. Living happy and carefree with those around you. But that happiness begins to break. One person lies. Another betrays. And another shatters your dreams. Others break you. Those who would lift you up, now look down on you. So what do you say to those who speak to you when they need you. But turn away from you when you need them. How will you know who is who. Who is real. Who is false. Those would be the ones....who stand by you in the ups. And the downs. The easy times. And the hard times. Held you up and still keep you there. Many of those people still do exist. But some people seem to never notice them. Those who give you and others so much care... has probably hurt the most. Those who never get angry probably has once before and has controlled it. Those who gives you the biggest smiled probably hurt the most in the past. Those who has never turned their back on you even when they should....probably have been abandoned the most. Living...but complaining.... people have their problems... some get through them alone others with help. Give a hand... give a damn....some people need someone even if its just One person. People come. And they go. But those who stand by you through it all... will probably be there til the end.

Live to Die

can't be helped when your living day... after day things go wrong... and you do what you can to keep going. Tomorrow being another day. What if tomorrow doesn't come? Live life... to the extent of trying to make people smile.... friend happy..... and everyone around you know your there.... What does it mean to live.....a life where people turn against you. Leave you. Break you.....What does it mean? To live.... to only die inside. To live life happy from the start of it all but then it all falls. May you be young. Or Old. People tend to live....on the outside. And Die slowly on the inside. Have you felt that before? Know anyone who has felt that before? To say to live... to them... they probably have no reason to keep going anymore. Give a hand. But don't look down on them. Many try to live....to only die.


I finally get to hear from you.... after all the time it took from me to feel you were alright and think that nothing has happened to you...that you be ok even if it seemed you haven't given me a call back or the slightest hint that you were fine.... I remember... I would give a call when I didn't hear from you after a few days when you would usually call.... In the end.... you were going though things... Things I wish I could of helped you with. I heard of some of the things.... not all of it. But now... the night a night I never expected you finally speak.... I didn't care if I was suppose to be sleeping or not tired or not I just wanted to know if you were alright. You made me let out a sigh of relief to hear from you but then you tell me of the rest of whats been happening... anger and pain and other stuff.... what or how could i help... at all? Before I could give a word of advice but now.... I cant even give that. Somehow... I thought you wouldn't be thinking the things I would usually think.... those dark and miserable thoughts.... the ones that taunt me day and night but then again I didnt think most people or expect some people who have those thoughts either. But you are one I was not going to expect it from at all.... in all.... Im happy you had spoken.... and also happy to know your trying to give it your all.... To push forward even with things being bad for you.... And all I can do is hope that you will succeed in that my conscience who I loved and never forgot about even after you went silent on me and the rest..... just glad. Really glad.... thats all I wanted.... to hear from you.... I can give a smile here and there but you..... when you came to mind I could never really say I was happy knowing nothing of you but now.... I just want to try....to keep that connection still.... and not let you fall out of my reach again.... not again.... Not now.... I just got you back. I dont want to go thinking and wondering again ....

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