This poem is about new beginnings and the pains that came with it.:
As a near 365 days go by, I put myself into the minds of others and ask "What is this pain?"...It is the pain of a goodbye. A pain of farewell; Seeing a lovely face nomore, a friendly greeting to fall on deaf ears as life goes on...The tears shed to a violent tearing of a bond that can almost never be broken. When the final gathering of all is upon us, I seperate myself from those who seem to be elated at the ceremony...But I do so only because I look ahead towards the future hole that will be in the minds and hearts of them, only being able to revisit the times and faces through sheer memories. In the event something like this happens, grief, mourning, sorrow, regret, sometimes anger can emit from these crown jewels known as memories. That's why every memory without a Totem of Sentiment could be painful. Unless that Totem is hung up in the back of our minds or on our walls unable to accumilate dust for its memory never dies.
But the violent swing of emotions that came and went refined my emotions to stay solid, distant, and cold...I say I will not miss you, but every night my heart cries because it does not like to lie...I think, act, and appear as a personality with my mind...But the truth in my heart is buried with those painful memories...The pain and tears are unncessary, considering that my mind has been overpowered by the truth in a sudden avalanche of grief and mourning...If it can survive the violent storm, it will be solid and cold for a lifetime of future pain in the shell of those memories.
And as I finish raining my heart and soul into this work, I stand, the Winds of Life and Change dry my tears and freeze my heart oncemore...The glow of my heart's words dim unti next time the snow builds again and the avalanche of my heart is ready to fall again to the bittersweet goodbyes.
*sigh* I'm Very Good With Goodbyes