if i scream any louder
i fear the walls would collapse
then the world would see my shame
that i'm to weak
or stupid
to say what must be said
i scream, and cry, and beg for something
anything but what i know is coming
when it began i couldnt understand
just how deep it would hurt me
the marks, the signs will fade in time
but memories just grow brighter
i scream
louder and louder
the walls tremble, the ground shudders
be quiet!
the world will see my shame
that i'm to weak
and stupid
and pathetic
to do what must be done
to speak loud enough to be heard
although i'm loud enough to be hurt
again
and again
never a rest, never a break
just pauses between breathing and grunting
blenidng into one another as light fades
fading like me
i cant see
i cant speak
all there is, is the rythm between-
between...
between my head, pounding over and over
i scream for all i'm worth
soprano blending into baritone
agony into bliss
this measure repeats, five times five
baritone forcefully within soprano
soprano unwilliningly surrounding baritone
the walls shake, the ground trembles
shut up you stupid bitch!
the world will see
cant let them see my shame
what did i do
what have i done wrong
i've done the best i could
done all that was asked
every little task
just like a good girl
