I've worked hard and invested so much time in these words. They are me. The me I would never let anyone see. These words have helped me get through the darkest pits of Hell and come back with only the slightest remnant of injury.
With that said please enjoy what you find
Time
Time stands still
When you wish it would fade
It seems to speed up
When you wish it would stay
Such a fickle thing
Time
How many have sought to master it
This unseen force
To bend it to their will
Yet felt it slip by
A constant flow, a never-ending stream
Or perhaps a circle
No beginning, no end
A cycle?
No no that cannot be
Surely there must be and end
As there is with every beginning
But when
Soon as the morrow
Distant as millennia
Who can say
Many have fallen behind the greater flow
Their separate tributaries long dry
But we are still running
Will we see the end
Not likely
Our lives only measure
As separate ripples.
There must be an end
Though no where in sight
But what is an end
Loss of consciousness
Unaware of the world
Or is there something more
And what is life
Simple consciousness
Awareness of breathing and existing
An illusion
A prison
And time is jailer
And bar and chain and brick
And executioner.
Time is truly an insidious thing
Can you not see
It steals your happiness
Prolongs your grief
Tortures with its odd pace
And yet time is ignorant
Its greatest weapon
The set limit
Allotted to us all
Is a blessing
Only when our time is done
Are we free
It can’t understand
That death is not the worst.
And there is its fear
Death
The greatest end
A fear shared by all,
Or only those ignorant of its meaning
The uncertainty
The crushing nothingness
To not exist
Who said this is the way
Where is it written death is the end
We don’t know
We’ve never peered
Beyond the veil
And I will not fear to.
Time fears itself
Cannot understand
That though it has always been
It will not always be
For as we know when things begin
The always have an end
Time is no exception
Will you cry
When your time is up
Will you beg for mercy
An extension
Or will you greet death
As if an old friend?
How long has it been
Since I last saw your face?
It’s been so long I can’t
Picture it
Dorien When I come back again
Will you still be waiting there?
I wish sometimes I had
Never left
It’s been so long now
I’m all alone at night
I haven’t cried so hard since
God knows when
Lilith Where did you go?
Why did you ever leave?
I can’t hold on for long
I think I’ll die
I'm attempting kind of a duet thing here, not sure where to go from here but after posting things usually become much clearer. Well, not much to go on but tell me what you think regardless.
This world will never be
As I expected
Why am I not surprised
That you’re behind it
I will not leave behind
All that was once mine
To make you feel like
It wasn’t in vain
It was always in vain
No matter how I try
You just won’t die
I cry out why
And hear no reply
Now and again I’ll try
To save my life
Maybe I’ll take your life one day
‘Cause its not to late
Its never to late
No one will ever see
What you’ve committed
And what a shame it wasn’t needed
Are you proud inside
Your face seems to belie
Your having doubts now
Was it right
It had to be right
I tried and tried
But your still alive
I cry out why
And still no reply
Now and again I’ll try
To save my life
Maybe we’ll both die one day
‘Cause its not to late
Its never to late
The life you stole
Won’t come back
The loss we felt
Cant forget that
The home we had
Won’t be ours again
This world will never be
As I expected
And if I was wrong
I tried and tried
And your still alive
I don’t care why
There’s no more time
Now and again I’ll try
To take my life
Maybe we’ll both be dead one day
‘Cause its not to late
Its never to late (its never to late)
Its not to late
It’s never too late
Draft of new poem/song
Untitled
This world will never be
As i expect it
Why am i not surprised
That your behind it
I will no leave behind
All that was once mine
To make you feel like
It wasn't in vain.
It was always in vain.
No matter how i try
You just won't die
I cry out why
And hear no reply
No and again i'll try
To just scrape by
Maybe I'll take your life one day
Cause its not to late
It's never to late
No one will ever see
What you've commited
And what a shame
It wasn't needed
So are you proud inside
Your face seems to belie
Your doubting all now
Was it right?
It had to be right...
So here we go again
Forging another sin
Forgetting all but how it will end
I can’t remember when
I could hold my head up high
In this catastrophe
Dwelt my enemy
Playing havoc with my sanity
But I’m the one to blame
I’ve made a habit of fucking up my life
Still the fires wait
Fueled by rage and hate
Death blood and hell are in my fate
Can you comprehend.
What its like to burn before you’ve died
But in my vanity
I could not help but see
Just how far gone I could possibly be
Its time to end this thing
I’m ending this shit tonight
And in this razor blade
I found that I was saved
Baptized in blood that will never fade
It’s to late for me
I’ve already spilt my crimson wine
