since I wrote an actual 'heart-filled' journal entry.

It's not that I don't want to; it's just I don't care anymore. I don't take the time to 'think out' my feelings- that seems worthless to me- as of these current days. And when I look back and read old stuff, I can always find repeating themes (particularly when those journal entries are close in time period); and I usually find that annoying. ...So, I guess I'm just an ass; I guess I'm now a jerk. I used to be an 'angel', and now I couldn't give a f*ck.

But, ...Sometimes, you just gotta let things go- it's about time I made new memories to keep and collect in 'my past'. I'm a Senior now, and when I started to 'learn about myself, for myself' I was about to be a Sophomore- that sh*ts over now- I gotta try in the present.

Now, I'm not saying, "I'll never care again." I'm just saying, "I'm not that old PinkKitty1 anymore...", and I never will be, again.

R.K.~ PinkKitty1 12/2/08 (1:22 A.M.)

Life: 12/02/08 | Posted By: PinkKItty1 | 0 comments