Um, hello there!
My name is PinkKitty1, and, this is my little cornerstone of theotaku.com...
I'm not very talkative/social, I tend to seem sorta awkward at times, and I'm not 'famous'/popular on the internet. I just want those who enjoy anime/manga to come and have a good ol' time when venturing threw my stuffs. Feel free to leave critique' and comments to me about my art/manga/stories, but please, stay polite. ^^;
[I'll add something better here later... 3-11-08]
Stupid Escapades- Another Fallen Dead:
"If I told the world I hadn't any longer they'd think I'd die. The way things are, are the way things are suppose to be. Stale and concerned over stupid things. It really doesn't matter anymore; maybe I just want some damn attention- probably that pathetic. Even while having a good time, still feel an undertone of sad- sometimes disappointment too. Should get some help, or meds. But that's not going to happen; not that it ever was... Guilty for living, slight suffering commences when I lay awake at night. Sounds tiresome 'cause it is. Things barely change; and all I do is complain... but despite all that, there's still hope if anything else doesn't hold up; it'll be hope that does....... Okay dokey- grownin' old, still want to try and be the best person possible, with being screwed up in the head and all. Excuses barely pass as an logical explanation for immaturity. Got lots more years, and it ain't gonna be easy- people will lose touch- but that don't matter; suppose to grow outside and extend your horizons, and whatnot. People seem to keep dieing like leaves fallin' off a tree in the fall. Heaven's a magical place of wonderful, blissful, eternity- I bet I won't go there like this; or at all. Rotten, ungrateful, brat- don't mind me and my escapades. Emotions are stupid; and so am I."
R.K.~PinkKitty1
3/21/09
(7:43 P.M.)
since I wrote an actual 'heart-filled' journal entry.
It's not that I don't want to; it's just I don't care anymore. I don't take the time to 'think out' my feelings- that seems worthless to me- as of these current days. And when I look back and read old stuff, I can always find repeating themes (particularly when those journal entries are close in time period); and I usually find that annoying. ...So, I guess I'm just an ass; I guess I'm now a jerk. I used to be an 'angel', and now I couldn't give a f*ck.
But, ...Sometimes, you just gotta let things go- it's about time I made new memories to keep and collect in 'my past'. I'm a Senior now, and when I started to 'learn about myself, for myself' I was about to be a Sophomore- that sh*ts over now- I gotta try in the present.
Now, I'm not saying, "I'll never care again." I'm just saying, "I'm not that old PinkKitty1 anymore...", and I never will be, again.
R.K.~ PinkKitty1 12/2/08 (1:22 A.M.)
"Feeling my life and where I belong in it- it's never about me, it's about everybody. I dream on and on and on... Feels indifferent, realization everyone's looking for the same thing- themselves. Who am I, and what do I want? ...Bah, it's all the same; let's just love, or, leave each other- alone. It's okay child, I don't understand this mess myself......."
R.K.~5-3-08
(...Crudy one...)
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