Pakonitan's Dream

( Might make a picture thingy here later.)

Welcome to my world where I post my random thoughts or ideas. Sit back, relax, and enjoy the moment.

I also will post some videos I find interesting for the most part. :3

Omg, finally back!

Omg, after two days of not being able to go into my profile. Finally back!! Not that anyone cares or anything...

Share a Coke with Kairi.

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Dad got me this custom Coke online, and got it in the mail today. So simple and clean.

New York's transgender bathroom ad acceptance.

Wish my state had the same wits about it as New York does... oh well, I never really liked my state much anyways... someday I'll move away to a better place. It's funny, people actually say this ad isn't necessary despite all the stupid bathroom law issues going around... it's obvious New York is just reaffirming their stance on the issue so transgender people don't feel like everyone is out to get them. Sigh... I wonder if things will ever get better, my heart always tells me to look towards the future... that there's a light at the end of the tunnel, but I can't see it.

Saga of Tanya the evil.

New anime that caught my interest.

Kashimashi Girl Meets Girl.

Recently started watching this anime. I heard about it a long time ago, during the time I had started to have trouble with my transgender dysphoria. Back then I couldn't bring myself to watch it, as it pretty much shows a fictional world where people instantly accepted the main character's sex change from boy to girl. .. seeing that and knowing how it works in reality was too much for me to bare.

Nowadays, since I'm transitioning, I felt I should come back to it and watch it. Really interesting anime... wish people could be that accepting of transgender people, but I know that will never happen in my lifetime. Honestly, I wish an alien spaceship could land on me and kill me to then transport me into a female clone. XD But yeah, unlikely story... sometimes I just wish I could kill myself and be done with this world... it's still too painful knowing all the stuff I'll need to do just to transition and be myself in this world. I honestly don't know how I'm managing to hold on.