hello there
I'll be leaving theO and myO~
why?
1. I can't draw, therefore, not much to do on theO
2. myO died = (
I'll never forget all my memories here ^^
even if I haven't even been here for a year

take care~

Goodbye~

Farewell my dear friends~
I'll never forget you all ^^

Holding onto the memories

Holding on to the memories,
The ones I'd never forget,
The ones I cherish and think about,
Since the day we met.

I remember every moment,
That was spent with you,
All the times you said you loved me,
I smiled 'cause it was true.

You used to hold my hand,
When you knew I was scared,
It chased all of my fears away,
To know you truly cared.

I'm holding on to these memories,
I hope you will too,
I'd never ever forget them,
Because I'll always love you.

Each of these memories,
Are all things of the past,
I wish I could rewind time,
And make each moment last.
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Fweee~
Another random poem ^^
I can sort of relate to this one too....

Thank you very much to Cocomo(cocomo101) for helping me with the second last verse ^^

I submitted this to dA too ^^

It's the way

It's the way you make me smile,
It's the way when I cry,
You comfort me and hold me tight,
Until my tears are dry.

It's the way your eyes light up,
When I look your way,
The way your touch feels on my skin,
I long for it everyday.

It's the way you say you love me,
The way it sounds so true,
That's what always prooves to me,
That I'll always love you.
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This is just something I wrote while I was bored. Though it still means something to me because I can relate to it ^^
I also ended up submitting it to dA
Along with that story I wrote: One Sky

One Sky

How was I supposed to tell him? What was he going to say? Oh why oh why did this have to happen?

These were the thoughts running through my head as I walked to school that morning. I was worrying about how to tell him the news.

My father got a job on the other side of town, and we were all supposed to move there. It was a very promising job and he didn't want to turn it down.

I walked slowly, hoping to have enough time to figure out how to say it. After a while, I reached school. There he was waiting by the tree. Our tree. Everyday we would meet there at that same spot.

"Hey there," he smiled, oh how I loved that smile. But then he looked at my face and his face looked puzzled "What's wrong?"

"Hmm?" I smiled a fake smile "Oh, it's nothing"

Why didn't I tell him? Well I guess it's because telling him would mean I'm facing the awful truth. I'll never see him again. I won't have his warm smile to look forward to every morning or his kind words that never fail to make me smile. I'll miss him so much, I never want to leave. Why does my father have to be so selfish?

Suddenly, I felt my eyes watering up. Oh no, he can't see me crying, he'll ask why. But then again he's bound to find out anyway. What do I do? I know I need to tell him but I'm afraid of how he'll react. Will he be sad? Angry? Or would he not care at all? I guess I'm just afraid that last one is true.

I went through the day using fake smiles and laughs. Hiding the fact that deep inside, I'm tearing apart.

At the end of the day, me and him were walking home.

"So.." he said "Are you going to tell me why you were all upset today?"

"What are you talking about?" I said, trying to be convincing.

"Oh come on," he laughed "You may have fooled everyone else, but I know you well enough to know that your mind was somewhere else today."

I stayed silent. I felt the tears coming again. Before I realised I was even crying, he grabbed me and held me close to him. All I could do was stay there, trapped in his hug. Then he grabbed my face and looked into my eyes, I had no other choice but to look back.

"What's wrong?"

I sighed, I might as well tell him now. "My dad...got a new job. It's a really great opportunity. And he's looking forward to it."

He smiled "Well that's great!"

I tried to swallow the lump forming in my throat. I tried to smile. "The job is at the other side of town...and we sort of haveto move there..."

His smile faded, and he let go of me and looked at the floor. "Oh..."

I tried to fight back the tears. He looked so sad. I hated seeing him like this.

"When are you leaving?" He asked, still looking down.

"The day after tommorow, first thing in the morning." I replied in a shaky voice.

"Well..." He said "I-I have to go..."

And he turned around and walked away. Then, I was crying. I just sat there, in the middle of the sidewalk, and cried. Finally, it got dark. And I decided to go home.

That night I lay in bed thinking why did he just leave after I told him? Will he even miss me at all? Does he even really care? I mean, what if he's just acting sad so I don't get hurt?

The next day was a Saturday. I went downstairs to eat breakfast and there was a note from my mom on the kitchen counter saying that she and my dad were going be out of the house for the entire day. I sighed. I guess I'll be alone today.

Then the doorbell rang. I checked the window to see who it was. It was him, he looked troubled. As soon as I opened the door, he smiled. And attacked me with one of his bear hugs again. I couldn't help but smile.

"Since today is our last day together," he said "I'll be spending it all with you."

I smiled. He really did care.

We spent the whole day together, as he promised. We went to the amusement park and rode all my favourite rides. And it really meant a lot to me because he was usually afraid of rollercoasters. He said he didn't want to spend one second without me today. Then for lunch we went out for a pizza. He hated pizza, but he ate it with me anyway. After lunch we watched that new movie that I really wanted to see. It was one he really didn't want to see, but ofcourse, he sat through it with me.

Then later, we went to the park and watched the sunset. I couldn't help but smile at it's beauty, even if I still had to say goodbye to someone I really cared about. Today was almost perfect. The only down-side was knowing that this was the last time I'd have a day like this.

"Isn't it beautiful?" I said gazing at the pretty sunset.

"Definitely." he said. I turned to look at him, instead of the sunset, he was looking at me.

We stayed sitting there, holding hands, and talking until it got dark. We could see the stars and the moon. It was a full moon tonight. It got colder so I snuggled up against him and he held me close.

After a long silence I said "I'll miss you."

His hold on me got tighter as he whispered "I'll miss you too..."

I lay there in his arms, wishing that this moment would never end. I'll miss him so much. I started to cry.

"What's wrong?" he asked

"You know the answer..." I said "I don't want to be so far away from you."

"We won't be far apart at all." he said.

I was confused.

"Think about it this way," he continued "you see that?" and he pointed up at the sky "there is only one sky covering this entire world. So no matter where you are, we're all sort of under the same roof. So, in a way, we won't be that far apart. Look up at the sky surrounding you and know that somewhere out there, it's surrounding me too."

I smiled.
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That was a few years ago. I've moved on, and I've met some other really nice guys that I really like. But I'd never forget him. And everynight before I go to sleep, I open my window and stare up at that perfect sky, knowing that somewhere out there, he was staring at it too.

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So that was just some random thing I wrote ^^
The ending was kinda weird.... >.<
Wait, no the whole thing was weird T_T

oh well..

please try not to be too harsh on the comments.

I still love you~

My heart was beating fast,
Each time you walked by,
But then you looked right past me,
And then I learned just why.

You told me that you loved me,
That I was all it would take,
To make your life so complete,
But those sweet words were fake.

I'm tired of pretending,
Of crying myself to sleep,
You never really loved me,
You stupid little creep.

But now it is too late,
You can't apologise,
My heart shall be forever scarred,
The tears unwiped from my eyes.

Yet after all I've been through,
My heart still yearns for your touch,
I hate that I still love you,
Even if you hurt me so much.
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Another poem that I submitted to dA ^^
It's kinda dark like the other one :p
Nothing really inspired me for this one, it just kinda came to me.

Please tell me what you think ^^

In my opinion I like this one better than the other one, I'm not sure why.