Some of you may have wondered about my last post about why I seem to be feeling down.
Well...now I'll tell you. As honest as I'll ever be.
I really want out of my life.
I'm really hating it so much.
Especially from all the stress I'm dealing with right now...
I feel that my heart has become weak and fragile from the past incidents among family and friends.
That "stab in the heart" saying really does pack a huge punch on me now.
It feels like a major throb, then a stab, and it breaking apart.
Sometimes when I wake up in the morning, I wonder..."Why could I not die in my sleep? My heart feels extremely heavy. I refuse to accept this... Let me stay asleep, forever..."
(DON'T WORRY. My relationship with Ike-kun is still strong. He's the only one, along with few other, you can heal it.)
I know, I must sound like a spoiled brat, don't I?
Well, that's just one thing I hate about myself that I want out, too...
I don't mean to sound like a bit of a downer or anything but...
I've kinda come to learn that some of my artworks hardly have as much votes nor comments as they used to anymore.
Not to mention that I hardly get comments from some of the people I expect anymore...
Is it all because you're just too busy to see them
Your backroom list gets filled in too fast?
You're just busy with other stuff?
I just want to know... =/
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From my recent artwork above, I've come to realize that I've only just gotten 6 votes after three days...
Normally I'd have about 8 after I check day one with these type of artworks... O_o
I've really worked my butt off on this piece and I'm kinda disappointed that it's not getting much votes... Nor as much views.
I'm kinda starting to think that I don't reach the potential here on TheOtaku anymore.
On my DeviantArt, it's much better than this really... =/
Just let me know so that I won't feel down.
