Mood: Sleepy ahah;;
First off, thanks to the people who commented or even read my last post, I feel a lot more level-headed about things now. :^) I think I've mostly been frustrated because I've been home all day with like no activity going on besides my cats bothering me, haha;;; The internet's been like my main source of ~outside interaction~ for the past month, so everything's just felt so slooooowowowowow since I don't really have a ton of online friends that I keep in regular contact with;;;
BUT!!! I'm decent now, hopefully. I just started my part-time job, so that should take care of the feeling that I'm not doing anything, hahaha.
SO YEAH I think I mentioned elsewhere, but got a job! I'm working as an assistant/receptionist at an accounting firm and I'm mostly going to be in charge of scanning and helping with organization. Today was actually super slow, which is good because it's helped me kind of just let things sink in haha;;; Once tax season picks up, I'll be more busy. Everyone at the workplace seems really nice though (and plus there's only like 5 other people), so I'm hoping things will go well. I just need to get used to waking up at like 6 AM all over again, hahaaaaa..... I'M HAVING HIGH SCHOOL FLASHBACKS what the heckle. LUCKILY, I only work Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, so I should still have time to work on drawings! I really want to do that redraw challenge, hopefully I can get something done. >_<
IN OTHER NEWS, (?) I'm still waiting to hear back from anime cons. I'm mainly trying to get in contact with Anime Mid-Atlantic because I emailed them WAY BACK IN DECEMBER and still haven't heard from them.................................. I even sent them like 2 or 3 other emails during the last month. But alas, no luck...
I ended up making a twitter account to try to get in contact w/ them, bc that's where they're most active. You can also follow me on twitter if you want to!
You don't have to tho, idk if I'm even really going to use it. Idk how to use the site and i don't really have an understanding for the twitter culture/atmosphere (?) either. I'll probs just cross-post from tumblr when I do half-decent drawings. Feel free to link me your twitters tho so I can follow you! :^D
Anyway, that's what's going on over on my end. Hope you have a nice week! :D
Mood: pretty low
Hey friendos, I'm gonna post an annoying complain-y post about tumblr and fan art. Sorry about that. ;o;/
Idk if you've noticed but I've been trying to draw more fan art lately because that's usually the only stuff that I post to tumblr that gets any notes. :T To be honest, I generally don't enjoy drawing fan art. It's not that I don't like shows and stuff, but I find characters from shows/games/etc to be really difficult to draw because they're not my designs. I also get really paranoid that I draw them out of character since I don't understand characters from shows/etc the same way that I understand and connect with my OCs.
BUT MORE THAN THAT, I don't like drawing fan art because it IT STRESSES ME OUT...!!! I get so so anxious worrying about whether or not things will get likes and reblogs when I post fan art. ""orz LIKE, I'M NOT KIDDING.... I have trouble falling asleep at night after posting fan art (even if it's just a sketch or doodle) because I get really anxious about whether or not people will reblog it or even see it, and I feel like I wasted my time if it doesn't get any notes. I don't get the same kind of anxiety drawing original stuff because I know the only exposure it's going to get is to my followers. Plus it doesn't feel like a waste because HEY, MORE CONTENT OF MY OCS!!! nice. I love my OCs. But I don't love drawing fan art hghglshg
I'M TELLING YOU THIS BECAUSE... LATELY I HAVEN'T BEEN GETTING ANY NOTES AT ALL ON FAN ART and it's stressing me out so bad!!!!! TT_TT I don't know if it's just that everyone went back to school and abandoned their fandom side blogs or something, but I'm getting almost no notes at all on things that used to be able to get at least 30 notes.... I'm mostly talking about my Mob Psycho 100 fan art here. Back in October-ish when I started posting mp100 stuff, I used to be able to get like 100+ notes on even a small doodle. I guess it's because the anime had just finished airing in September at the time, so things were pretty active... and now that it's several months later things have slowed down...??? BUT EVEN THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE, some stuff I posted in late-December got a lot of notes and that wasn't even that long ago... it's just super bizarre to me that I went from getting a fair amount of notes to getting less than 10 notes even on things I actually put effort into. ""orz None of the popular side blogs that used to reblog my stuff are even liking my pictures anymore. I HATE THIS SYSTEM OF GATEKEEPING OR WHATEVER NONSENSE TERMINOLOGY PEOPLE USE FOR IT.
A similar thing happened w/ me posting Yuri!!! on Ice stuff, but I kind of expected not to get a lot of notes for YOI since the fandom's so big and the tag is so active. BUT I STILL GET SUPER DEPRESSED WHEN MY YOI STUFF DOESN'T GET NOTES why am I ridiculous!!!! I hate being this stressed about my fan art, but I seriously can't help it no matter how much I try to stop thinking about it. """"""""orz
THIS LACK-OF-NOTES-AND-REBLOGS THING IS ALSO JUST TERRIBLE TIMING AND I'M SO FRUSTRATED!!!! T_T I finally started trying to discretely advertise my shop and commissions on my fan art posts (I'd been neglecting to advertise because I didn't want to be obnoxious), but now my fan art is getting like zero exposure at all!!! IT SUCKS GHLGUGHALSGHAKG
but yeah, that's my blab about frustrating and annoying things. i'm so sad w/ fan art ughhgglhldhg. I'll probably try to only post fan art on the weekends so I can focus a little better. ;o;
btw you don't need to comment on this if you don't want to, I just really needed to vent somewhere about this. """"orz I hate venting and I almost never get to a point where I need to vent, but APPARENTLY!!! I just hate drawing fan art this much, hahaha;;; -u-;; but seriously, this is really frustrating me. orz This is also in addition to the fact that the con I was trying to apply for in the previous post is apparently super sketchy, so I won't be attending it anymore... BUGH I just want to table at some cons!!!! I NEED TO GET RID OF MERCH!!!!! PLEASE..........
Mood: desperate ghlsfjgh and also nervous
HEY GUYS, So.... I emailed the artist alley coordinator for Anime Fan Fest Baltimore a couple weeks ago and got a reply from him this past Saturday. He sent me the artist alley registration sheet to be signed, so I think I'm basically guaranteed in if I pay for a table. HOWEVER.......
The half-table (what I wanted to get, comes with 1 badge) costs $200; while the full-table (comes with 2 badges and is a bigger table) costs $250, only $50 more. I'm really hoping to find someone to split the table with because that would make the cost a lot easier on me, but I don't really have friends who regularly table at cons on the east coast and stuff. >_< SO... IF YOU'RE INTERESTED OR KNOW ANYONE WHO WOULD BE INTERESTED, PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!! And ask questions if you have any!
(tbh I'm not happy with the price for this table at all, but I just really need to get into some cons, sell merch, and get my name out there;;;)
In other news, I've been kind of annoyed lately w/ the fact that NO ONE'S REPLYING TO ME!!!!! And I don't mean my friends and stuff, I mean like official things. I emailed anime mid-atlantic about their artist alley a couple weeks ago (which is what their website says to do), but NO ONE HAS RESPONDED YET!!! Even Anime Fan Fest took like a week to get back to me...
I also tried to join the FB group Artist Alley Network International to meet more artist alley people, but they haven't responded to my request to join that I also sent a couple weeks ago.... I even FB messaged two of the admins (one on Saturday and one about a day and a half ago), and NEITHER OF THEM RESPONDED.... One of them even posted something to their FB after I had messaged them, so THEY MUST HAVE BEEN ONLINE... BUT FOR SOME REASON DIDN'T RESPOND TO MY MESSAGE???? ALSHGALG yeah.
It might just be that I'm impatient... Since I graduated and am basically home all day since I can't drive/don't have a car/don't have a job, the days feel suuuuper long. "orz I feel like January's been going on forever, but we're barely over the halfway point.
LUCKILY!!!! I might be getting a temporary part-time job!!! The interview is today at 2:00 PM over skype, so I'M GONNA DO MY BEST!!!! ;-;7 I've never had a job of any sort before (other than commissions and cons), so this is really big for me haha;;; even though the job only lasts till mid-April.
SO YEAH. That's the news with me... I'm still hoping to get into more cons this year. I've applied to Otakon and Anime NEXT, but those are big cons so it's pretty doubtful I'll get in. I'll apply to Anime USA and Nekocon later in the year and hopefully get into at least one of those;;; HOPE YOU GUYS HAVE A GOOD 2017!!! :)
Mood: cold hgugh
Heyo, I made a new icon for myself! Here's the original image:
I don't think I've ever had an icon of Gabe before, which kind of surprises me... anyway, here he is now. :^) I went with a kind of winter-y theme because it's COLD and snowed the other day. x0x/
Other than that,
I finally opened up my store!!! You can check it out here:
Everything's set to preorder right now because my shipping supplies haven't actually arrived yet... it's gonna arrive either this or next week. >:U NICE.
Anyway, I'm gonna work on making more products this year, too. I'm thinking of doing Yuri!!! On Ice, Fire Emblem: Fates, and Mob Psycho 100 merch. *-*/ SO YEAH, I guess... if you're interested, be on the look out for that haha. I'm gonna try to apply to some more cons, too. I emailed about Anime Mid Atlantic and Anime Fan Fest Baltimore, but I haven't gotten any replies yet. Dx HOPEFULLY SOON....
Also, I didn't get into the JET program. ;-;/ ALAS... I'll be looking for a part time job for the spring and summer instead, and then apply to grad school or something. Idk what the plan is. "orz TBH I'm not that disappointed bc going to Japan by myself seems really scary. SO! WHATEVZ.
But yeah, that's what's going on over here. We'll see how things go from here, haha;;; Thanks for reading and I hope you have a good day! >:o ♥
Hey guys, merry Christmas and happy first day of Hanukkah! I haven't given a life update in a while so here's what's been going on with me. ;o
First of all, I finished my undergrad degree! I don't actually graduate until May, but I'm done with classes. >:U In terms of prospective (?) jobs and stuff, I've applied to JET. I'll hear back in January, hopefully I get in;;; If I don't, I guess I'm taking a gap year before grad school. -u-/
Second, I've opened commissions up again!! You can find all my commission info here if you're interested. ;o I'm also working on opening up my online shop! I still need to take inventory and figure out shipping prices, but it'll be set up soon~ *u*/
Other than that, I'm considering applying to the Animore artist alley again... the only issues are money and the fact that the con is so small. IF ANYONE WOULD WANT TO BOOTH WITH ME.... PLS LET ME KNOW;;;; I'm thinking I probably won't sign up unless I can find someone to split the cost with me. Dx But idk, do you think I should sign up?? I could probably get some commissions in if I went... idk........
Also I'm thinking of applying to a zine...!!! This one to be exact. I'm kind of nervous about applying b/c even though I've sold prints and stuff before the quality of my finished art (especially BACKGROUNDS) isn't really as good as I'd like it to be;;; And coming up with compositions is just hard for me. PLUS I'VE NEVER PARTICIPATED IN A ZINE??? Idk what it's about.
BUT!!! I'M ACTUALLY REALLY FEELING LIKE I WANT TO APPLY... I like the pairing a fair amount and there's no harm in just applying, so I might go for it... idk what I'm doing haha;;;
ANYWAY... That's about it that's going on with me. Now that I'm not in school, I finally have more time to draw. Hopefully I get some stuff done and end up being more productive!! Maybe I'll even work on drawing comics... I'd love to actually do some oneshots and ongoing stuff with my characters. I mean I've had my OCs for years but never actually do comics with them;;; MAYBE SOMETIME SOON!!! ;U;/
But yeah, there's that. Hope you guys have a happy holiday season, and happy new year to y'all!! :,D