The voice inside

I want to be strong
But there’s a voice inside me
That holds me back
From what I want

Its eating away
At my soul
It only gets stronger
And I fight for myself

I want to tell people
Things I could never say
But that voice calls me back
To my black past

It won’t let me do
The things I want
It hides me away
Under a blanket of anxiety

I want to talk with people
And have friends
But the voice wants no one
To interfere with its plans

It says there is no room in my heart
It can only be us
But I want more
Than just myself

I want to be strong
And determined
I want to stand up
For my rights

But how can I do things
When I fight with myself
And I don’t know what to do
To stop it

I want to get rid of it
And through it away
But can someone
Please help

Because I don’t know
How to forget my bad past
Or how to make my ugly self
Disappear

End