Title, you are the weakest link. Goodbye.

Do you know what's absolutely wonderful? When you're having a really nice dream that you wake up from but return to when you fall asleep again :3~

What totally sucks, though, is being reminded it's only a dream when it's time to get up for real ;_;

Something that's actually funny is dreaming about Chigo and later in the day hear he might be making a return to AP xD

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So this isn't actually a post since I've got nothing to really say, except Allmorpho's reluctance towards internet contact bemuses me. Or maybe he's just allergic to my advances. Hm.

Completely separate from that thought is the fact that I have a treasure chest filled with beads and stuff, which I'm beginning to tinker with. Mom got a pair of earrings that were made with a template. While they turned out nice I was kinda irked by the fact that I hadn't tried to use my own imagination from the get-go but, hey, it's been ages since my ideas were last directed in anything arts and crafts related with the intention of making it look more than decent.

And thusly I set upon attacking my treasure trove upon returning home from work! The end result is a ... uhm ... hair piece-jewelry-thing. Here, lemme give you a visual:

Aaaaand you'd see it from another angle if I could figure out how to add a second image without making it repeat the first one -.-:

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I tried putting back my hair with it but it didn't quite fit around a full ponytail, but it'd totally work with half the set of hair and the rest free-falling across your shoulders. Or use it as plain 'ol decoration, much like you would an earring or a necklace ... Is it just me or am I starting to sound like an ad? >.>

Speaking of hair, mine needs color to wash away the blondness (no offense against the sexy fair-headed ones out there intended!). I've got the stuffs, just need mom to help me with it ^^

Oodles of Love to everyone!! :3

Engage

I live O.o

My grueling work schedule nearly broke me, though, as the following chart should indicate:

The 7-day stretch is what sealed the nail in the coffin, so to speak. After I nearly started crying for the fifth time on the Tuesday it seemed like a good idea to quit before a proper breakdown would ... break out :p

Lesson learned from this summer's 5 weeks of almost full time work? I'm not cut out for full time work xD At least not in an environment that constantly puts pressure on my panic-anxiety. It might be a different story were I stuck in an office with minimal social contact, who knows.

And part of me feels very proud of the fact that I pulled the train to a halt before it went over the famous cliff of mental doooooom. It actually physically shocked me to be that close and not jumping. Strange sensation, but a nice one compared to the alternative >.>

Being burned out is the reason you've not seen me around here lately but now that I'm rested there should be more activity from my corner :3

Tidbits :o

• I've misread soooo many things at work that it became quite dangerous. Mostly because words ended up immensely funny or disturbing. A sample of words that replaced very harmless ones include hentai, massacre, murderous cookies, blow job. Yeah....
• I worked until closing one day and the security guard who locks up after us asked which anime my ring tone was from O___O After ascertaining I hadn't imagined him using the word 'anime' I told him it was from Totoro. He grinned and said "The cat bus rocks"!!!! If it weren't for the fact that I had to be out of there and on my way home I so would've seized the opportunity to geek out, haha.

  The second time we crossed ways (again at closing time) he asked if his question had surprised me, which it certainly did, and we talked a little about anime while the other cashier put moneys away. I tried to include cashier guy to join us but he wasn't an otaku, sadly. Though he'd seen two Ghibli movies. Score! Security guard was currently watching "I think it's called Death Book" *giggle* and though it was popular among the ladies because "It's very Johnny Depp". That statement nearly had me doubled over.

• My eldest sister is working on vamping up her apartment so I helped out with painting the cupboard doors. When the time comes to slap paint on the walls I've enlisted my services to take some of the load off her back. She's not a practical person and it's only now that I've fully comprehended that ^^;
• With money in the bank and reduced price tag on the entire "Star Trek: Voyager" collection it shouldn't be too hard to figure out what I did. So far seasons 1, 2, 3 and 7 are in my possession and hopefully the others will arrive soon. It was a pleasant surprise to find that not only did my memory serve me right in regards to quality but it actually proved to be better than I remembered! :o (Because of a severe case of moron in the planning department of the scheduling responsible peeps at the channel which aired Voyager here in Sweden I missed most of season 6 and all of 7, so it'll be nice to see it to the end ;_;)

  As an added bonus the dvd-shop included a schway 3-d key chain with Voyager on it ^^.

• I have a treasure box filled with jewelery appliances, along with a bunch of other arts/crafts stuff that I'd like to get stuck into. I smell Tinkering Day :D

Lastly I'd like to send a huuuuuuge hug to Shimmy-Loo because he's a darling. Squeezes to Daggeroo and TC, too :3

And everyone gets smooches!

Nearly there

I haven't died just yet, but two others have (young person - brutally murdered / older person - died on the operating table). So. Yeah.

Work has taken up all my time. Will post how my schedule has and will look like ... whenever. Mom and dad has kept me alive by making dinner.

It's been way too hot lately. Working too much + too much heat = dying Mimmi. 30+ Celsius is not my cup of tea.

But dad bought me a ceiling fan.

Now I must eat ice-cream and crash.

Love.

Don't dream it's over

I steal TC's posting style!

• After giving it some thought, I'll hold off on posting the note. Not that it's much to steal but who knows if I'll grow possessive about it at some point in the future, haha.
• I went in to work today only to find out I'd misread the schedule xD; A co-worker suggested I finish off her hours but with how the next couple of weeks look like ... I'll need all my days off ._. It kinda threw my day around, though, so nothing much got done after I got home xD Amazing how fast the brain and body switches off when they're not needed....
• Also at work: earlier in the week an elderly couple walked past me as I was packing up stuff. The man stopped and the patted my forehead.
  Man: "What nice bangs you have"
  Me: "^_^;"
  Man: "And what nice breasts you've got, too"
  Me: "... -.-' *growl*"
  Man hastily adds: "But those I can't touch"
  "No~."

  Told a co-worker right after it happened and she got totally protective of me, asking if he was still in the store and for me to point him out ^^; After we found them another pal at work said the couple were regulars and the man only recently began going off his rocker, causing situations like mine. Poor wife.

• Yesterday I helped an elderly lady pack up her groceries and carry them out to her car. She gave me a tip to buy 'something sweet with' which I couldn't refuse because she was so incredibly sweet, thanking me profusely, and it would've felt insulting to turn her down :3
• I'm tempted to post what little there is of my story.

Working 9 to 5.... kinda ^^;

This week's schedule

Monday: 6.45am - 4pm
Tuesday: 6.45am - 3.10pm (overtime after 1.30pm)
Wednesday: Freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Thursday: 7am - 5pm
Friday: 11am - 6 pm (Misread the schedule ^^;)
Saturday: Freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D
Sunday: 4pm - 8pm :o

But why are you sharing your schedule with everyone?
1) Because I feel like reveling in it 2) so people can praise me for working 3) it gives an actual reason for why I am falling behind with my commenting >.>

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Montana it is! It's far from New York and has all the requirements for fitting into the story. Now I just need to decide whether to really go through with being more thorough by picking a town/a general area or just go with Montana. Decisions!

Alright then. Because I feel guilty about not having read the latest chapter in "The Imperial Guard" by Becky, I shall try to divulge how my writing process works. Prepare yourself for something non-spectacular and boring. Don't wanna raise your expectations unnecessarily, after all >.>

I will always be anywhere but at the computer when, pokeprodnudgeslap, a scene plays out in my mind. Both characters and sceneries are always very clear. First I take a moment to focus on it, sort of like fixing your eyes on a target so it doesn't vanish while you're reaching for your camera/weapon/sketch book. Then a mad scramble for paper and pen ensues.

Sometimes my notes are detailed, including past-present-future "status" of the characters, but they may just as well be bare boned and simply describe place and characters in the scene.

This time around it happened while being in the early stages of my horrible virus sickness, strangely enough! I saw a scene (setting, character, story progression from before that moment, incredibly brief conversation) and then immediately moved onto back-tracking (moviefied example: a grown man stares at a painting and the scene gradually/swiftly changes to him as a young boy, staring at the same painting)

Once that's done I'll move to the computer, since there's no way I could write with a pen/pencil. My thoughts/decisions are all over the story and half of it would fade away before I could think about jotting anything down ^^; Plus, it removes the frustrations of editing.

On the subject of editing, if you were to look over my shoulder while this initial process occurs you'd seriously wonder if there was actually a cohesive plot behind what appears on the screen. Short paragraphs covering a page, none of them connecting to each other, duplicates of a scene when I can't decide if the original was better or the improvement will work with the rest of the rough draft, a mix of heavy detailed/polished writing and random plot points (kind of comparing Mona Lisa to a "connect the dots" with half of the image missing).

I like to work from beginning to end, ie writing the story as it plays out instead of skipping the middle part to tinker with the ending. Probably because of my obsessive-compulsive editing and how the story will change as my initial notes become more polished. That's not to say there's no flexibility, though. If my inspiration decides it wants to focus on something further ahead then obviously I'm not gonna be able to stop it, haha.

That's pretty much it :o

(Care to witness my notes for the story I'm currently working on? ^^;) And I'm now too lazy/exhausted to proofread this post!