Are seriously the best.
Thank you for all of your encouragement and support<33 I can't describe in words how much I appreciate each and every one of you which I know sounds superficial and cliche but IT'S TRUE.
I'm so glad that I can always come back here if I'm really feeling down. Thank you for being by my side :)
I HAVE HOMEWORK TO DO but I just wanted to let you guys that I'm feeling way better! Of course things are still scary but I'll handle one problem at a time and try not to get overwhelmed :)
Thank you, everyone. You all are beautiful, beautiful people.
Trying not to cry like seriously. Are u serious. Right. Now.
Sorry it's just been awhile since I've felt like this WHICH IS GOOD but I just don't like this sad feeling. IT'S NOTHING AWFUL just gah I feel so shitty. It's just now hitting me that I'm moving away from my family for college and I'm just sad and I'm just brain barfing right now because that's what I need.
You're always gonna feel like you should've spent more time with your family or this person or that person or had gotten closure on shit or whatever or let someone know you cared about them and are thankful to them or whatever and shit.
Just damn like fucking coming of age and loss of innocence stories get to me and mess me up and I just feel like I like the way my life is. I like where it's at. I have my family here, if I really wanted to I'd could work for my college with a really good job, and I could just stay here in this small town where things are easy and nothing really scary or dangerous could happen.
But then like, here's the tragic backstory. Someone who really messed me up told me that I'm the kind of person that will stay here and not go out to do things. And it's just like, fuck you I'll show you ya asshat. And it scares me more and more when I see that people from my town always ALWAYS come back and live here. But the problem is, for the stuff I want to do I have no opportunity here. None. nada. But at the same time, do I need to have aome fancy job and prove to me and everyone else that I'm worth something? Or I can stay here and live a nice simple life in a place that I know. Is moving to a big city like Austin going to change me? For better or for worse? So many of my classmates who have already gone to a university have done things that just make me feel queasy because of that loss of innocence shit I talked about earlier. And whatever like do what you want be who you want it's none of my business. But it just GETS TO ME MAN I don't know but I just feel so uneasy and sick to my stomach.
But I don't know I'm getting all the feelings right now at once and it's just really really sucky at this moment. I'm worrying about my future all the qay until like 50 years from now and all my regrets are just all hitting me right now.
I'm just. Sad. Just really sad. I'll feel better later but just right now i'm so sad.
Thanks for reading I don't really know what I wrote.
Thank you so so much for all of the birthday wishes<33 You guys are the best :D
I haven't been very active because I've been hella busy, but hopefully I'll have some art up during spring break ;)
I love you all!!! I don't know what I'd do without you guys<33
The transition from Fall to Winter always messes with my hands yo. BUT I think it's a good reference to help people get a better idea of what Nodin's hands look like (though he would wash his hands a lot more than me). I just put lotion, but I need to remember to put it on more often. Also, having a ceramics class this semester didn't help much with my dry skin.
BUT YEAH UH LOVE YOU GUYS ALWAYS MOISTURIZE.
Here's my list for this year's Secret Santa! :) I'll also be using this wish list for the SS event on deviantART~
Thank you to whoever is doing my gift! These are in no particular order, so just choose the one you will have the most fun with. :)
RokuRei(Roxas from Kingdom Hearts paired with my KH OC Rei)
I always have to have me some RokuRei xD Well, their relationship is more like a super duper best friendship, but if you really want to spoil me, you can make it really romantic XD As for outfits, you can either use the KH2 outfit for Rei and Roxas's Twilight Town outfit, or you can just make up your outfits. :D As long as they fit their characters. Rei is a tomboy so skimpy skirts and spaghetti straps wouldn't really work xD ALSO HERE'S A ROKUREI MIX TAPE BECAUSE WHY NOT
Both: [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link]
Roxas: [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link]
Rei: SHE HAS A NEW DESIGN but it's still getting some tweaks, so you can draw her old outfit/put her in some street clothes if you want. :) Her casual clothes are just her shorts and her gray half sleeve shirt.
[link] [link] [link] [link] (This is an unfinished reference and a lot of changes have been made, but it may still help you personality wise)
Nodin from the Mythological Creatures Club
I don't have a lot on him, but if you're a part of the MCC or keep up with the stories you should be good. :D His hair gets longer because of time passage in MCC, but I'd like it if you draw him like he is in the updated sketches. :) His original design has him wearing a flu mask, but it would make more sense for him to be wearing a gas mask. However, I'm totally fine with either. :) Also, his body shape matches the one in the old sketches and his jacket is this thrift store jacket that kinda looks like this except it has a hood along with the fluffy collar thing. He's super sweet and loves cute things and kitties and I love himmmm<3
References: [link] [link] [link] (updated sketches)
Fan art: [link] [link] [link] [link]
MCC stories(contains spoilers): [link] [link] [link] [link]
Tatsuda Hachiro SHSL (Rogue) Taxidermist (My Danganronpa OC)
He's rotund and super sweet~ Thinking of changing his backstory because it's kinda corny, but here's his profile. HE WEARS LONG SOCKS WITH FLIP FLOPS AND HAS A FANNY PACK like literally the cutest amirite
[link] [link] [link]
LarsxSadie from Steven Universe
LIVING FOR THIS COUPLE. Like seriously there needs to more fan art of them. GIVE IT TO ME PLEASE CUTE AND SEXY IDC I JUST NEED MORE. I love the character development of both of them ;o;
The best Steven Universe episodes that cover their relationship is "Joking Victim" and "Island Adventure"
Both: [link] [link] [link] [link] [link]
Lars: [link] [link]
Sadie: [link] [link]
Thank you in advance! I hope you have fun! :D