Hey everyone!:D
Hm,it's been a while that I posted a journal...And I can predict that this is going to be a long journal too...So,uh,you don't have to read it all the way to the end. XD
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Well,Christmas was fun. :) I really enjoyed all the free time I have now. After a few days of much sleeping,I felt better,my mind was clear and I felt at peace.
Oh,anyone remember my rant about a friend of who I wasn't sure of if she really was a good friend? let's call her Gao,that's easier to remember,lol.
Well,she visited me a few times,was a lot of fun. Of all my friends I had from my other school,Gao's the only one that keeps visiting me. And then people trying to tell me she's not a good friend,hmph. Another friend I have,I only speak to her on msn,or I see her at a shop,working. But that's it. Nothing more.
Well,last time Gao came,she needed some advise and someone to talk to,that actually listens to her. She's having a very troublesome situation right now,and even I couldn't really say what I should do if I were her...I felt bad. Now I'm worried if she's going to be okay. I don't want to go in details about her situation,as she trusted me with her story and I won't just go around telling it. That would make me a very bad friend,right? Well,I got her phone number now,so I can message her (and visa versa).
For Christmas I bought my dad a nice sweater. :D I couldn't find something myself for him,so when he found something in a shop,I went and paid. He was like 'Oh,uh...Okay!:D' Lol,I think that sweater looks good on him too,and it wasn't that expensive,so I didn't mind. :D
My dad and I went to my 'steph' family for a few days. Well,we're not exactly family anymore,my dad and their mom are just friends now.
While I was there,I went to see an old friend of mine. Actually,he was my very first boyfriend,hehe. XD (well,that was really more like...Children Love...Not real love...I mean,we were like 11 - 12 years? O.O )
I was nervous when I finally stood in front of their door,because it has been like,3 - 4 years already since I've last seen and heard of him.
His mom opened the door and said 'Pauline!' I was like 'Eh...Whut? No...Eva!' and then she looked at me,stare,stare...And finally she recognized me,she kept repeating my name. XD
She was SO surprised. XD Then she called the person I came for downstairs and asked if he recognized me. He couldn't recognize me,though I looked SO familiar to him,hahahah. XD
He was SO surprised to hear it was me. So we talked,about school and friends and stuff. It was nice. :D
And he asked me my e-mail,because he lost my e-mail in those years,lol. So yeah,now we're e-mailing once in a while. And I'm kinda stunned that even he knows anime...And the boy of our so-called 'steph'family also knows anime...Heck,it's spreading like a virus! Now they all want me to teach them how to draw...Eh...Ooookay. O.O
ANIME:
I already finished To-Love-Ru now. I was fun to watch,only sometimes a bit too perverted things showing up in the anime. But I didn't really mind that. Right now I've started with Sailor Moon. I was planning to see Sailor Moon for a long time,but everytime I tried,I got distracted with something else. But now,I've got nothing else to watch,so Sailor Moon gets my attention. :D
MANGA:
I got Kamichama Karin complete! I loved to read it. I'm planning to get Kamichama Karin Chu as well,but I'll wait a little while before buying more.
Currently I'm reading Spiral Suiri no Kizuna online. I've also seen the anime adaption a few years ago. But,I tell you...Don't watch the anime...It's totally ruined...It's really bad,the animation was bad and it occasionally lost my attention,which is a bad sign. The manga,on the other hand,just grabs my attention any time and keeps surprising me. So,I might start collecting this manga someday.
GAMES:
I've been playing Final Fantasy XII for a while now. Heheh,it's a fun game. Larsa = :heart: Too bad he's not a main character...Well,he does join the party a lot. Like three times? Anyway,Larsa's cute. XD
FIGURES:
I got me a Figma Hatsune Miku!8D It came in today and I'm so happy! Though she's kinda small compared to my Rein figure and Suigintou figure. But I can move her,so it's fun! And I got it from Ebay for just 35 Euro's! Including the shipping costs. Is that cheap or is that cheap? When I look at her,I can see it has been made with a lot of care. So many mini detail painting,I'm surprised they can paint it perfectly. I'm planning to make some photo's of her,but my camera's batteries have run dry so that'll have to wait a little while. Grrr...
DRAWING:
Pillowsrock had finished the lineart of Golden Darkness for me!:D Thank you,Pillow-chan! But I didn't got the time yet to colour it,heheh. But that'll come soon enough.
SCHOOL: Ugh,only thinking of it will ruin my holidays...I've been so stressed out before the break started.
Alright,here starts a veeeerryyyy long story,so you don't have to read it if you don't have the time to read more text. XP
We had to redesign a website and make a game for the website,and we're in a team of 4. We decided that Kjelt and Atilla will be working on the game. Till now,only Atilla has done alot of work on the game,I don't know what Kjelt had been doing all this time. Caspar and I would be working on the website redesign. I started setting it up and all,but Caspar can't do a thing because his program is messed up on his computer. So I keep asking him,'Did you solve it already?' every single day. And all those times I hear a 'No,sorry...I couldn't solve it yet'.
On the day of the Go no Go (a presentation where the teacher will decide if the project's good enough to go or not,if not,the project will be stopped and that's bad,very bad) Atilla and Caspar were sent out of class because they were rude by talking while the other groups are doing a presentation. Kjelt and I thought they could come back in when it's our turn to presentate. Well,guess NOT. Suddenly Kjelt and I had to do the talk of Atilla and Caspar as well as our own talk. And that,while I was sick too. Can you guess it? It didn't went well at all.
When I got home I got an e-mail saying that we get a second Go no Go after the Christmas break. Great. That will not go well. Why? Well,can you expect that any of us can do anything when we're all celebrating Christmas and the New Year? And I refuse to push aside my family and friends for a stupid project of school.
Well,before the Go no Go,I did talk to two of the teachers about my group and it's teamwork. The English teacher,understood me perfectly. My homeroom teacher,thinks that I can't take critics. (because a few days earlier,she came talking only to ME,expecting ME to be the leader of the group and push them,while the other members of my group left class already. And I was already frustrated by the fact that I've been doing the stuff for the website on my own and then hearing that were on the list for a NO GO at the Go no Go. So I went out of class,crying and being pissed off. Really,she pisses me off...No one likes her,btw. I can't stand it when people expect too much of me)
Well,with the English teacher we made a deal that I should write down all I've done,and what the others have been doing up till now. So that I can get my points and they will not. But really,when I look at everything,it's just messed up. I hate it to realise that we'll just fail. Luckily,the teacher has already decided who's going to be kicked out of this education in Februari and who can stay. And,she told me that everyone can fail at least one period of the year. So if I stay on this education for the rest of the year and I happen to fail this period after all,I will have to work hard to not fail another period. (luckily there are only 4 projects in a year).
But still,I've been thinking a lot about this education. Do I really want this? Am I just keeping myself in an illusion by thinking that this education isn't so bad,while it keeps disappointing me a bit while time passes?
I'm really troubled by it. I mean,I can't seem to contact the rest of my group at all in this break. But we NEED to have contact to continue the project. And I WILL work some more on the website after New Year,but I can't do this alone. I fear for the worst scenario.
I didn't tell my dad about this yet. I don't really know why,but I think I won't like his reaction. He'll think I'm not doing my best and that I should do the website entirely on my own and all.
But that's not making any sense to me. I mean,why are we in a group then? I can't do what a whole team has to do on my own.
Well,actually...The only thing I'm still looking forward to on this education is that we're going to learn about 3D animation in the next semester. That's exactly what I wanted to learn more about. But if you think about it...Everything you learn at school,I can learn all that at home. I mean,the books of Adobe Photoshop,Illustrator,Dreamweaver,Flash and all the other stuff we might still get...I can study those books on my own at home,and it'll go faster than when doings those things at school,I can assure you of that.
Oh well...I guess I'll try to stay on this education till summer and then switch to the laboratory thing. I mean,we don't even have tests here. I'm used to pressure of studying,I get pressure of doing nothing here. And that's because the time we get to do these things are too long. We don't really need 2 months to do these things at all. These things can be done in max. 1 month. But because of all this time we have,people get bored and won't be motivated to do anything,which is exactly the case in my group. We all don't have the feeling we learn something. But most of my classmates don't know what other education they could do if they stop this education. I find that a bit weird. I mean,there are a lot of educations to choose from. Okay,I ended up with 2 educations that had most of my attention at that moment. But still...Ugh,I stop talking about this,it's depressing! D8
So,what do you guys think about all this of school?
ENDING
Well,I hope everyone had a fun Christmas and that you're all going to have a fun New Year. :D
ENJOY THE FREEDOM WHILE IT LASTS!D8
~Kitsy~
