- Created By Wakusei Aoshi
So'p (new word, just brings about the feels of right now...so+welp, and welp isn't a word either soooo...so'p)
I haven been on here in FOREVER!
I feel so bad, just when I was complaining about nobody being on here...;m;
My excuse is just school...
And also that I like to look at all the stuff in my feed and also commenting on it if I can, but I subscribe to too many people to be able to do that..;orz Eventually it becomes overwhelming, especially with homework.
So I have been ignoring theO once that stuff started piling up and I had so much homework...
I opened up Chromium today to find that all my tabs were closed...sooooooo...By reflex I just logged on here again and I feel so bad that it even got that bad! ;m;
Not only that but I was reading multiple let's plays and now I don't know where I am in the let's plays! ;m; NUUUU
I think I will just go over a few things in my feed...Sorry if I don't get to anything you probably actually care about and missed a lot of stuff or something...I blame school...
Also I still haven't finished the first chapter of that manga I be talking about. 'cause I am sooo freaking lazy..blah...I keep moving the deadline. Also homework. It's not really my priority right now 'cause homework....and when I was trying to work on homework, comics, and dance it got really stressful so I had to no be so strict. I have half of it done, and I realized the action scenes are really bad so I have been researching and studying actions scenes from manga to figure out how to make it better.
Biggest problem I am facing is that my art style keeps changing for each page...;m; STAHP IT MEEE...;M;
Right now I am sick....with something....My friend had mono, and I hope I don't have mono either...but ya never know. I don't share food or water with anyone so it's very unlikely...
Welp, I'll go get on that looking through my feed thing...but I will probably have terrible comments 'cause I have a terrible headache and feel all loopy and dizzy...Had a presentation today that I have been worrying about for weaks and just did something then. Dunno if I even spoke in English...
Also wanna play some vidya games....>3>
Oh and Psycho Pass recently has been INSANE! ;M;
I think I got too used to the hectic-ocity of last week that I finished my homework way too early. I used today and bits of yesterday to just WASTE TIME LISTENING TO MUSIC, DRAWING, AND LOOKING ART.
So all of these are from this morning and last night...;orz
After 3 hours of figure drawing I was still in the drawing mood so I drew a female Ash Crimson and various other drawings of Ashy-kins. To be honest, though, the female Ash was actually supposed to be B.B. Hood but I messed up on her outfit and overall proportions...;orz
I redrew some old pics of mine. One on far left is of Klan, middle is of Andrea Cavalcanti (kinda wanna draw more 'o le charactes from Count of Monte Cristo now), on the right is my Vocaloid OC Ran, in the middle is Tim and Rick~ (<333) workin' on dem poses.....And then a redraw of a really old pic with my OC Yasei and what's-her-face I forgot her name. And then a dead Hinata at the bottom that I am surprised fit in the picture! XD
MORE GABE AND STEFAN AND NOLAND AND MOONLIT DREAM'S CHARACTERS 'CAUSE I BE LAZY...And also her characters are soooo unlike mine that I feel like it a work out on my brain trying to draw them. I honestly need much more manlier characters...-3-
I also drew some Poe...trying to draw more full body sketches than just sketches of faces...But...clothes just freak me out. If I could draw everyone naked it'd be great! :D Also I am terrible with coming up with poses...;orz
You also gots me otha characters typical of meh sketchy book like the unnamed prince and fairy peeps and then a dash of Klan 'cause EVERY PAGE MUST HAVE KLAN. Also there is a rare bit of Reese on the page. Dunno what urged me to draw him...I think I was drawing somebody else and it just came out as Reese.
Dito from Drakengard 3~ I really love Dito for some reason...even though he is a terrible character...but OHMAIGAHHH SHOOOTTTAAAA~! <333 Can't get enough of shouta characterssss...Plus his rendering is so BOOTIFUL (and by bootiful I mean beautiful, not full of booty...not too big a fan of le butts)
Just look at dat face. (that's actually the pic I was drawing) He's got a LONG EARRING. I mean, that's like 100 points for Griffindor I mean I just can't. But he's a terrible character, I mean as annoying as a butt (them butts and me just can't get along).
Also a terrible pic of Ana nude...somehow I gave her the body type of a skinny boy and then I realized this looked so wrong and just kept scribbling. Stuff in the corner are me trying to replicate the styles of me fave artists: Yoshiyuki Sadamoto, Kinu Nishimura, and Tatsuyuki Tanaka. My pen was being stupid and just being supah inky so I shaded the crap outta the Tatsuyuki Tanaka styled one and just ruined it 'cause it did look quite fab before then.
It is as the top of the pic says. I played: draw character from member. So leik...yeah...read le names....Judge me. PLEASE JUDGE ME! Santa makes me sad...I can never draw him....And Ash was totes easy 'cause lotsa pages of Ash. When it doubt draw Ash or Klan. These are mah rules. Oh and Sasuke or Griffith.
Actually the characters I draw the most are probably:
Prince and Fairy
Killua, Hisoka, and Illumi! I drew Killua in different styles and then tried a more me-ish style on the left and it was just all over fail. Can't work. Gotta make a different style. I test my styles by drawing different characters. If I can't draw each type of character then I fail and must find a new style.
Yup dat's all for tonight~ It's good that I keep drawing but...this needs ta stahp...I need to do my actual homework. I feel like I have tons more homework to do...
Politics homework for Friday, Religion homework for Friday, Studying for Religion test, Art homework (sketches from book), Art homework (drawing from life/human statue), writing/finishing statement of interest for internship, writing a paragraph for dance class about dance video/watching dance videos, japanese homework, japanese studying, japanese research? (I dunno if I am supposed to be working on a semester long paper or nottt???)...
Actually this isn't so much. I feel like I can tackle in my free time over the weekend since I am used to doing all the homework from last weeeeeekkkk....:D
Sorry I be rambling so much....;orz
Here's a sketchdump like I said I would do~
Tamamori Yuta in the middle~ A poorly drawn Guts in the top right hand corner. He looks like a girrrlll! ;m; Also I did not draw him with his eye closed which is oh so wrong. I need to work on manly men characters...meh
Trying to figure out how to draw Ikuya...I knew how to for a moment and then I forgot! ;m;
This is the page with the successful Ikuya drawings~ :D Ikuya is the guy with long hair drawn. This is how I imagine him to look but have never been able to draw himmm...
Then I tried drawing Hisoka and I think I am satisfied with his look. Big lips, big eyebrows, big eyes, small nose = supah kawaiiness.
Main character of Bloodlust whom I've just realized has no name! Oh wellz, I get to that later. I was designing his outfit. I feel like I got it down a bit more...but...he's probably gonna have a lot of different outfits..;orz GUHH! Maybe I should choose a more easier setting...'cause I can totes do that, but le significance of le meanings...bawww...
I wanted him to have golden hair, but now I am debating if I should make him completely black. We were talking about Krishna in religion class and I completely forgot that Krishna was supposed to be all black. I kinda want to make a completely black character who is also beautiful like Krishna. This is when I realized that my main character is...very much like Krishna anyway....Like he feels really godlike in a way....I am wondering if I could use that somehow?
Drawing Ana because I drew Ikuya and Hisoka before. In conclusion, Ana is so much easier to draw. I can draw billions of her! But what style should I choose? I want a kind of rounder version of Yoshiyuki Sadamoto's style...'cause why not?
GRIFFITHHHH!!! And Kento Nakajima~ I then tried drawing a pretty girl but she looks like an alien. Hence meh comment of 'I can't draw pretty girls' Since Kento Nakajima was totes so easy.
I have fluctuating times in which I can draw pretty boys and pretty girls.
I don't remember why I was doing this. I think I finished my homework early or somethingggg??? I wish I could finish my homework early nowww...THIS WEEK IS TOO BUSY FOR ME HOMEWORK-WISE! Internship applications, papers (short papers, but still), art homework (takes up time), roommate's birthday (tomorrow...with no plansss...UGHHH!! TT^TT), family weekend, and many more things which I am forgetting BAAAAHHHH
This pic has a lot going on! XD
We have a pic of Ash Crimson at the top right in Kentaro Miura's style of drawing Griffith. Ash Crimson drawn in random style at the bottom right. I drew Dio Eraclea from Last Exile and Ghirahim in Kentaro Miura's Griffith style as well 'cause...white hair characters...:3 Then we gots a poorly drawn Griffith in the top right corner....And then A mad Griffith in the middle with his Behelit (of course). And then in Griffith's eye we have a small image of Guts 'cause canon
Dats it bros!
And the title is a lie 'cause no rants are 'itty bitty'
I decided to re-do Idolling. I also told my friend who has an awesome idea for a manga to write out her story so I can draw it into a manga...And then that Bloodlust manga and then mah webcomic and the I Hate You thing...sooo....BASICALLY I am just digging meself a grave in work. Actually my plan for all these different projects isn't for me to do all of them at once or try and get them all done at once, but more like plant them and let them grow into better ideas. Ideas that are in the back of my head at all times that I can work on whenever I feel like so I am never bored~
I was re-reading Idolling and I was very disappointed in how I introduced the characters. Ana is a hot headed and stubborn jerk of a character, Hisoka likes Ana out of the blue, and Sachie is just really really weird. Not to mention the fact that none of the members of Sw33t actually have any personalities, that you can see. This is not good in my book. I think characters should be introduced a little bit at a time, or maybe all at once, but not with equal amount of introduction because then that makes things confusing.
So I went back and tried to focus the story some more and I ended up with more than a romance~ It turns out that Hisoka, Ana, Momone, Ikuya, and some other characters all represent a different idea of what it means to be successful in the world. My original idea for Idolling was Ana's explorations of different career choices with a background of the idol industry and that failed, but with this new look at Idolling I can totally do that now~ :D
You see, there are the dreams of being idols which are not only unrealistic but most people think that idols are pretty pointless an being an idol isn't something you exclaim and then have people be all like 'This person deserves so much of my respect'.
Then there are the jobs like doctors etc. that the majority of people look at as successful jobs.
Those are based in reputation. But then don't you also get success from making a lot of money? Or is it success that you are happy at your job? Or is it success that you explore the human condition? What is success? This is the main question of Idolling hence the name IDOLling. Because you idol one position over the other and seek it out as your goal.
'kay so basically Idolling has fermented into a new story with the same characters and same original theme but more clear and with a different flow. I just need to figure out how events will flow and what sort of fun scenes I wanna put in~ Also it's difficult for me to write romances right now for some reason.
Last year I was so excited about romance, and although I do still love romance mangas and dramas I don't get excited about real life romance anymore. I don't have any crushes or fantasies about anybody anymore...it's kinda sad...so it's difficult to write Idolling as a romance as I originally intended because then I feel like their romance is futile. Like why would Ana end up with that person and not the other person?
'nyway...that seemed like the rant part, didn't it? Well it's not!
It's actually a good segue into my rant.
In my japanese class we were learning comparisons and one of the questions in our workbook was: Do you like good looking or intelligent persons?
I feel like this is a common question. What do you look for in a guy? Appearances or brains?
I usually go for the brains because that seems like a better answer. How shallow of you to say appearances. You should past the appearance to the real person.
That is what pretty much EVERYONE says. This is important stuff to know so you don't become some heartless jerk or whatever.
I mean, yeah, you shouldn't base your opinions of people on appearance. But if this is based in romance then I will have to choose appearance.
I look for attractiveness in guys because I feel like that is a nicer thing to say than intelligence.
From my perspective everyone is intelligent. And I will now explain why I believe this.
If you were in a difficult math class and there is that one kid who always gets good grades or just knows what is going on in the math more than anyone else you admire him (or hate him depending on le feels at the time) for his intelligence. Then you get to know him and you learn that he parties every night and makes bad life decisions. But he is a genius as math. Is this an intelligent person?
Or if you know somebody outside of class and they study diligently and make great life decisions. Are always helping people and never think of themselves selfishly. But academically they are weak and they have a hard time dealing with money then is this person intelligent?
Maybe this person who is bad at school is extremely clever and witty and can always articulate his feelings perfectly. Is this person intelligent?
I believe both of them are intelligent. Declaring another person intelligent or not intelligent is just as shallow as saying somebody is or is not good looking. This is all based on preferences of what intelligence or beauty means.
This also may be based on my own feelings of intelligence and beauty. If somebody told me I was ugly I would be a bit saddened but it wouldn't rock my world because I know I still have intelligence. If somebody told me I was stupid then I would be in a panic mode. It hurts more to be called an idiot than to be called ugly.
So for me to choose a guy based on his appearance versus intelligence is something kind. I don't care about your intelligence, everyone is intelligent to me.
Also psychologically, you are going to judge people based on appearance so the question is worthless anyway. Your idea of that person's intelligence is also based on the image they show to you.
Another thing, I must have a different idea of good looks to everyone else. I go by the mere exposure effect in deciding if somebody is good looking, as I think most people do. Mere exposure effect is the effect of slowly becoming more attracted to a person the more you see them.
For that reason the person might become more stupid, but also more beautiful.
In conclusion, I think it is nicer to answer the question by choosing 'appearance' over 'intelligence' because psychology.
DONE WIT MAH RANNNTTTT YUSSS!!
I have been drawing a lot, but I am in my bed right now (I sleep on the top bunk) and it is difficult climbing up and down with stuff in my hand and putting my laptop down and blah so I have not put the pictures from my camera on my computer yet nor have I taken pictures of my new sketches so no sketchdump for today! ;3; BAWW
Also in other news...lately I have been less social. I just don't feel like talking to anybody anymore...I just want to do homework and write manga and watch dramas. I feel happier when I am not talking to anyone...I feel like this is both good and bad. It's good 'cause I get more work done, but it's bad because humans need to socialize so I can't just cut out socializing...but it's so boring for some reason....hrmmm...
Welp I'ma go read a manga that my friend recommended me~ TATA~
Before I got to sleep~ I have this impulse to do whatever memes I see people I subscribe to do....;orz This time I am stealing from moonlitdream. Go check her's out, it's much funnier than mine. Mine is just sad.
Would You Rather
Pierce your nose or your tongue? Nose 'cause tongue piercings are not only nasty, but people with them talk so weirdly it's funny! XD I think in theory tongue piercings are cool, but with the people talk they sound so nerdy.
Drink whole or skimmed milk? Whole. Skim scares me 'cause I once had hot chocolate with the skim on top that looked like plastic and now I am afraid of things with the word skim in it 'cause that was a terrible experience.
Die in a fire or drowning? Drowned by a shark. I have always wanted to be one of those people who is eaten just like in Jaws, which is extremely rare, but that just makes mah death more special~! :3
Spend time with your parents or enemies? I don't have any enemies, and why would I want to spend time with them if I did have them? So parents by default.
Simple or complicated? Yes.
Straight, gay, bisexual, other? Straight.
Tall or short? Short SAYS LIKE EVERYONE I EVER MEET. 'You are so cute and tiny' plus your typical short-person puns and jokes...-3-
Right handed or left handed? Right handed. But I can draw a bit with my left hand. Left hand I shall not forget you~ ;3;
A lover of music or a lover of books? Manga~ But I prefer music because I like to imagine choreography to songs or maybe a scene that it provokes or somethinggg...
Do You Prefer
Flowers or sweets? Sweets~ The packaging is shoo kyoot
Grey or black? Errrr....blackk...but both are main components of my wardrobe~ By accident 'cause I like both a lot. Grey can be so silky or soft and black is SHOCKING
Color photos or black-and-white photos? Depends. If it's a really ugly coloured photo then please be in black and white, but then some coloured pics are quite lovely...Depends on the photography~
Sunrise or sunset? Sunrise...sunset...sunrise....sunset...Picture yourself on a cliff at sunset....Sorry meditation....ingrained in my head. I have been liking sunset more and more. Though I dislike twilight. It's my least favourite time of the day. I don't like it when everything becomes black and all you can see is the sky, I like to see the reflection of the sky on buildings. Maybe a lone railroad track in the middle of the city at sunset or a rocky beach~ *3*
M&Ms or Skittles? Can I say neither? Neither. Skittles get stuck in my teeth and M&Ms make me throw up...dunno why this is, but it has happened.
Staying up late or waking up early? Staying up late 'cause artificial light is more beautiful than natural light to me~ :D
Sun or moon? How could you compare the sun to the moon? The sun is massive and hugely important and the moon is only somewhat important to the earth. Not only that but WHAT MOON? There are numerous moons for different planets. Gosh, questionnaire, be more specific...>3>
Winter or Autumn? The both have their perks and problems. I would say Winter because I remember it more than Autumn. Also it's a good time for hot chocolate and warm foods~! X3
10 acquaintances or 2 best friends? Either way I would probably in some sort of panic mode. 2 friends requires full attention to both. 10 acquaintances is just too much. Now if the situation were me teaching something or explaining something then 10 acquaintances please.
Rainy or sunny? Depends on how many days it has been sunny or rainy in a row. I prefer sunny just 'cause my umbrellas keep breaking in the rain, but I like it when it rains and I am inside.
Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? If I ever eat ice cream it is either chocolate, green tea, pumpkin, or coffee.
Vodka or Jack? Who is Jack? What is Jack? Vodka is made out of potatoes...and I like potatoes....though I dislike alcohol...hrmm...Vodka.
What time is it? 9:34 PM NOT MAH BEDTIME YETT
Name? Ermm...What is name?
Nicknames? Chibi-chan, Sugardaddy, Ibu-chan (is this a nickname or an incorrect pronunciation of my name?) Wakuwaku, Waku, Wakusei
When is your birthday? January 26th
What do you want? All the Shin Megami Tensei games and Persona games, Drakengard games, Nier, Chrono Cross, Xenoblade, Xenogears games, the new SSB, new Zelda game, Ocarina of Time 3D, new Phoenix Wright game, and for Chrono Trigger to work past the freaking time travel place...which can be done. So I have a long list of video games I want/want to play right now....annnddd...yeppp...
How many kids do you want? None, unless they are adopted.
What would you name a girl? I always though Sumire was pretty. I also like Lynn, or Leilaeh, but I feel like the girl'd be teased with a name like Leilaeh...>3>
What would you name a boy? DARIEN! No. That just came to mind right now when I thought of 'a name for a boy'. I liked the name Damien for some time...Kenta or Eita are wonderful names. Amon is nice too....Shevaya...hrmm...There are a lot of male names I like.
You want to get married? NEVAR! Though I had a dream last night that I married Takahiro Nishijima, except he wasn't a popstar and just some rich kid and that I had to make babies with him or else I'd be shunned from the family unless I could earn more than his grandma who was the richest member of the family...SUCH STRESS! TT^TT I blame this on my japanese class for repeatedly practicing 'kekkonshiteimasu'
What kind of music do you like? Bossa nova, electronic, video game music ,classical, jpop, jrock, funk...either something I can dance to or something that does not sound like traditional music like kikuo's music or the ost for Drakengard.
Nervous habits: Looking at the ground, hunching my back, averting gaze, rubbing nose, scratching back of neck, covering mouth or face
Are you double-jointed? I think my brother is, but I am not. ('cause you needed to know that my brother was. He can clap with one hand~)
Can you roll your tongue? Which kind of rolling we talkin' 'bout? Dis question always confuzzles me. I guess so...?
Can you raise one eyebrow? Yes, but it takes effort and I can't do the eyebrow wave thing like all my friends seem to be able to do...;m;
Which shoe goes on first? Right? No left! AAAGGGHHH!!
Ever thrown something at someone? I threw a controller at my brother and he cried and I was shocked 'cause he always does that to me and I don't cry...>3>
On average, how much money do you carry with you? $20? Nah just kiddin'. Nothing~ :D My mom wants me to carry $20 but...bank...so far...mehh
What jewelry do you wear? Anything depending on the day and the outfit. It's gotta match!
Do you twirl or cut spaghetti? Cutting spaghetti? What kind of--?? I twirl it....to the point where it doesn't fit in my mouth. In conclusion eating spaghetti is a struggle.
Have you ever eaten Spam? SPAM!! no.
Favorite ice cream? Green tea? I dun really like ice creammm...
How many kinds of cereal are in your cupboard? GRANOLA! ALWAYS! If I need ta take some pills since I be constantly dehydrated (due to lack of liquid consumption) I can't figure out how to take them properly so I eat the powder inside with granola instead of sugar 'cause sugar melts in the heat but granola is always there! ;3; GRANOLA YOU ARE THE BEST BUDDY IN THE WORLD. Helping me through the hard times...;m;
Car ride? Going to walmart to buy toppings for crepes. It was a partial success. spent $45 for stuff that I only used for one moment of time.
Song played? Symphonic Poem "Forbidden Poem" I am addicted to it. I think it's mainly just the first minute and a half. IT'S SO GORGEOUSLY DEPRESSING~ UWAHH~
Person you saw? My roommate...who is in the same room as me...
Time you cried? I think the last-ish episode of HunterxHunter's Chimera Ant Arc...or maybe that one time I was totes frustrated about my research paper...but I don't think I cried as much as I did at the Chimera Ant Arc ending. SOOO SADDD! An experience unlike any other anime.
Fight? Battle with Adel. I won...but I keep getting a game over. Is this normal?! I think it is...the text at the end was different...but, alas, japanese. Wait! You mean a real fight? Like argument? With a person who I thought was my friend but apparently I am just an acquaintance...O.o; But that's okay, none of his friends actually like him and have had similar arguments or bad experiences with him that are worse than mine. Makes meh feel bettah.
Okiedoke~ Back to le Chrono Cross LP I be reading. Which is hilarious. By the wayyy....
Chrono Cross looks JUST like a majority of the dreams I've had.
I mean this was definitely in one of my dreams:
Often in my imagination:
Tried drawing a pic like this one time but it didn't work out:
It even has a white tower thing that is a common occurrence in my dreams:
But it's not in the middle of water and the tower in my dreams is more open and hollow, where even from a distance you can see through it into the statues that decorate it's halls.
And I've totes seen a house like this in El Paso except that instead of water it's sand/dirt or just a really huge pool.
Makes me wanna buy the game. I like games with colourful creative backgrounds it makes it feel more adventurous. I dislike dark coloured realism.
Oh! The LPer made a joke about the colorfulness of the game. It made his eyes bleed and then he remembered back to before the 2003 color standardization act which made all colours illegal except for browns and greys. So true. WHAT HAPPENED TO COLORFUL VIDEO GAMES THAT AREN'T MADE BY NINTENDO OR ARE RHYTHM GAMES?! TT^TT I miss le colourrrss...;m; Says the person who only plays moderately colourful games...Nothing really matches the colorfulness of Chrono Cross in today's games...>3>