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Portraits~ :D

I am...procrastinating so hard on things that I actually want to do...So I did potraits~ :D

I keep drawing moonlitdream's characters when I'm bored....

I think I am getting the hang of Gabe and I think I always draw Stefan looking super yaoi manga glasses guy-esque! XD I think I've drawn Nolan once before but he's just so hard to draw because I don't really know what I am trying to draw...O.o; Like when I think of Gabe I think 'just draw him manly' when I draw Stefan I think 'pointy and suave' but when I don't think of anything when I draw Nolan. Also I am bad at drawing Dare! Every time I draw him he looks like a girl. I don't know why this is...O.o; I think 'cause he has round eyes and hair that I would normally draw for a girl.

I also drew my character Tadao 'cause I wanted to draw a rounded face. Also my new OC Orihiko who is actually really old but I just now named him. Orihiko sounds like a girl's name now that I think about it....It's funny 'cause he wasn't going to be in my story at all but I needed another character for this one scene and then he ended up being a major character. Woops~

I also draw Ametsu the Ninja's Kippon! I couldn't tell if he was wearing a hat or that was his hair though...so I just drew him like she did! XD

Yupppp....

I need to work on my comics...guhh...but...I just have this inferiority complex about it...Like every time I start I'm like 'that looks hideous' but I don't know how I will get better unless I just draw something...blehh

*goes to read other mango for inspiration*

I've been reading like 10 mangos at a time and it's not a good idea. I got so into Homunculus that I'm having a hard time reading other stuff....;orz I want more Homunculus! TT^TT

Okiedokie~ Bye-bye! Gonna actually go read some mangos (probs some shounen I've been ignoring)

ADIOS

Gaiz.....internet...ughh...

I keep getting lost in the internet....;orz

Actually mainly I keep giving myself more and more tasks to do. Stuff for practicing dance, studying Japanese, studying anatomy, practicing inking, practicing coloring, practicing making manga thumbnails....just..guhh...

So mainly that's why I have been ignoring various sites that I go on. I don't mean to, but it's either socializing or studying/practicing stuff and I just don't know what to choose...;orz I know humans are supposed to interact with each other, and how could I be a successful artist without it? But it's just...not as fun as studying or practicing stuff...;orz

No offense. I love joo gaiz.

This isn't some post about how I am ditching this website or anything. Naw, dat'd be silleh.

But mainly I'm just offering an excuse from my ridiculous absence.

I want to talk on here more and also hang out with my friends more, but I also want to practice and study some more too...guh...

However in other newss...

THANK GOD FOR THE EXISTENCE OF COMIC ZENON! ;m;

I might have the chance to actually talk to an editor about my manga while I am in Japan. So I plan on calling the company once I get there and get my schedule and it's killing me how close to just touching my dream is!

That means I should get to it and actually write all this stuff I've been reluctant to write because I don't have the skills. I just need somebody who's job it is to critique my stuff to slap me in the face and tell me what I need to work on. That'd it be the best thing ever.

I have been using my brother for help on plot, I am in the stages of needing to do the thumbnails/names for my first chapter. I technically wrote my first chapter before, but after re-reading it...there are so many problems and also it's pretty much like a lot of manga...so I wanted to go a different more simple route.

I think that has strengthened my manga even more because I have simplified my plot and characters some more so that I know how they would react to situations. I can also make them more complex by contradicting certain situations and showing them in different lights.

However my biggest problem is just the thumbnails...I don't know how to start them at all. I keep starting with the same panel and I...ughh...it's just SO FREAKING DIFFICULT. It IS of course supposed to be the hardest part and it's just so...so hard...;m;

Which is why I am practicing with that. I want a good action manga so I have copying pages from manga that I find have very good action scenes in them:

Also, I have been working on making video essays about anime and manga in order to increase the level of discussions about anime and manga to a deeper level of analysis rather than the crap I've been seeing on youtube where the people are just like 'Well, Gon where's this green suit and has spikey hair and then he is kinda stupid but we've seen different sides of him that show that he's a super complex and original character' ...naw...naw that's not how ya do it bruh.

I mainly want to do it because I like talking about anime and manga and analyzing them, but also because I want to work on my speaking skills. I am trying to make simple animations and the overall look of the videos to be like a visual novel character talking to you about anime and manga. I have already drawn stuff for it I just need to practice some video masking techniques and figuring out the best course of action for tackling something like this...

So far I am working on a review of Tokyo Ghoul manga and anime (unfortunately I don't have very nice things to say about it so I need to work on finding nice things to say as well, 'cause a review/critique is worthless without something constructive to say about it).

I am also very close to finishing the script for one about writing a good first chapter to a shounen manga which is mainly analyzing Naruto's first chapter. I have been reading and analyzing the first chapters to several popular shounen series to help me with my own manga, and I was surprised by how well written Naruto's was. I think it's a fine example how one should go about writing a shounen manga if you want to keep cliches in it (Hunter x Hunter was also good with this, but I thought it was clearer and more worth talking about Naruto since it is more popular in the US and has a lot of mixed reviews)

However, just because I think the first chapter of Naruto is good doesn't mean I think it is a great series. Which is why I am also working on another video which critiques Naruto's portrayal of villain characters as I have ranted about a few posts ago. It will be a comparison of Hunter x Hunter and Naruto (again, as I did in the previous post).

Actually I should just list my ideas for videos (although the ones I said above are in the process of being created so they will definitely happen the others may or may not happen and are just suggestions to myself):
Hunter x Hunter vs Yu Yu Hakushou
How anime fails as an art medium (Oh yeah! This one is pretty much already written since I wrote a paper on this for my summer workshop! XD Sorry, this isn't really attacking anime it's more of a discussion about how to improve anime)
Tokyo Ghoul review: a growing trend in new anime (Oh yeah...mainly talking about Tokyo Ghoul to talk about the growing trend of the taste for more and more violence in anime....I dunno if I will be able to review both the anime and manga and connect it to today's anime and manga popularity, though...)
How to write a shounen manga (uhh...big topic...)
How to write a shoujo manga (same...big topic...;orz)
Why was Naruto so popular?
Why was Attack on Titan so popular? (relating to Tokyo Ghoul. Probably not a long video...and I'd probably combine it with the conversation about Tokyo Ghoul)

If you have any suggestions please let me know, although it'd probably be better for me to finish a video and then ask for suggestions! XD

Sorry this is so long!

Oh! But maybe you are wondering what the plot is of the manga I was talking about above was all about!

Well, luckily I have progressed enough in the creation of this (I mean like figuring out what I'm actually writing about) that I can tell you think time without having several paragraphs explaining what I was trying to say!

A very empathetic boy who is, unfortunately, quite sickly and has no friends enters into a new type of game created by players' imaginations where he finds he has the ability to eat people's thoughts leading him down a spiral of questions whose answers give him the twisted origin of the game and his own powers.

YAP! I accidentally came across some manga similar to this and it pissed me off a bit, I'll admit. However I've done some tweaking here and there and I'm hoping my perspective will be unique enough to make the story more original. I mainly want to explore the interaction between people and technology as well as growing children and mass consumerism.

Seiichi and Klan are teh mainines plus some Tadao, Yukiko, Poe, and other characters I haven't introduced to you but have existed for some time! :D I finally found a plot that I can pretty much fit almost all my characters into! XD

Yappp...

I think this post is long enough!

BYE-BYE~

(Happy 4th for those in the states even though it's my least favourite holiday~ :D)

Super Stuck

(Haven't been on in forever. I will come back soon with more attention but for right now since I have been doing a drawing challenge everyday + studying + practicing dance + work I've only had time to read some manga and not really sit down and talk to people online...so yeah...once this month is over I will come back in greater amounts...but for right now I need your help! ;m; )

I am super stuck trying to write the manga/webcomic I have been going on and on about and I realized recently that my plot isn’t solid enough for me to write anything past chapter 3, which is lame. So I am rehashing it a bit. However, I still don’t know what the plot is and I don’t know who to ask so I will ask people on multiple sites!

My biggest problem is that I want to write an action manga and all the plots I come up with have to do with a pyschological drama story with no action…;orz I also wanted to deconstruct a lot of shounen tropes, but it’s difficult.

Basically the story takes place in a world where people are so in touch with technology and its advanced enough where people can use their thoughts to enter world that is like an MMORPG. Different businesses compete to promote this kind of game such has holding tournaments and showcasing their own top characters.

The main character is (copy and paste description): sickly, but optimistic boy who has no friends and is ignored by everyone except for his parents.

He just so happens to be really good at video games and tries to use the above game to find himself and finally be noticed as a fellow human being.

Is that too cliche? I didn’t want to do the MMORPG thing ‘cause I dislike manga/anime like that but I can’t think of any other way to make a fighting story. I want to focus on the relationship between media, consumerism, and introversion.

JAPAN

I have been getting loads of homework recently because my school doesn't believe in breaks (unless breaks mean breaks from tests? But it doesn't mean breaks from presentations or papers).

I am on my break the week after next and yeahh...way too much homework...so I gots no free time.

But tonight I ditched socializing to watch some dramas and I just realized I should probably post about this one here since this something I've probably been going on about for years that I've always wanted to go to Japan, of course.

THE TIME HAS COME!

Next year I get to study abroad in JAPAN~ :D I get to see mah friends again and go shoppin' and buy some real clothes~ (Not kids clothes...for that is what I wear...;orz). I also plan on cutting my hair the style that I want it that American hairstylist people just don't understand for some reason. When I say cut my hair like the picture I would like my hair cut like the picture, that doens't mean give me a trim....O.o; What the heck America??? (Or just cheap hair cutting places and the few salons I've been to)

I am trying my best not to get too excited, but it's not really working since it's already invaded my dreams. It makes it difficult to concentrate on the now...AKA homework.

Yep...but as you can see my brain is not currently working right now and only wants to consume romantic dramas right now...sooo...yeah...can't say much right now. Definitely dead after a week of really hard exams in classes that I can't understand (Economics does not work in my brain).

Oh! There's something to talk about! I just need to get stuff off my chest right now and rant 'n stuff...

I think it's just because I stressed because of my classes but I've been hating people a lot recently. I feel like everyone thinks I'm an idiot because I don't understand Chemistry or Economics (economics especially since this is a first level class) like they do. I am also an Art Major, and that doesn't seem to mean much to anyone.

I've been getting especially annoyed by my friends quoting 'art majors' to argue with me. Excuse me? Am I not an art major as well? Does my opinion not matter but some random 'art major' you met does matter? Also for some reason my friends have been majorly criticizing my doodles for no reason...O.o; I don't understand...it's like they are trying their best to say that I am an idiot and not a real art major or something. Like they were asking who my favourite artists were and then judging me about that...O.o; I like most artists, why do I have to have a specific and obscure favourite. I just gave them Leyendecker, I guess he is slightly obscure, but there are too many artists that I like I really can't just show off my 'art major' status with names of some French guys...

They were asking of the masters...and like....seriously...anybody who knows about the masters know they are MASTERS. They are amazing artists each with their own styles and major skills. Leonardo had his own anatomy style different than Michelangelo's and I like them both a lot, but I don't feel like I could really compare because their styles are so different to me.

Also I often recommend movies and anime to people and nobody ever watches what I recommend them (except for a few of my friends who don't really influence the group). I like having inside jokes about anime or movies that I like. I do that with my brother and my roommate, since we usually watch the same movies and anime. Then recently one of my friends got everyone to watch a movie that he liked and then everyone declared him the movie person since all the movies he's recommended were good. What? You never watched the movies I recommended? What the heck?! And then somebody else was the anime person. She got my friends to read yaoi and watch yaoi shows...Why is she the anime person???? I write research papers about anime and manga and I have written some manga myself and taken classes on it and I am not the anime/manga person?? Nobody cares about my opinions about things I care about...

It really pisses me off...

Maybe I am just feeling insecure about not being able to understand Economics at all...since everyone else in my class seems to understand it pretty well and lots of my friends are Economics majors and apparently it is the easiest class at my school. But I think the teacher I chose was harder on the students than the other teachers, thus the reputation of it being easy...But no...my brain does not want to understand Economics....;m;

They've also been talking to me a lot like I am their pet or some sort of weirdo...O.o; I guess my interests are slightly eccentric...but I dunno...I don't know if I want to be friends with people who look down on my interests...I have become a joke to them and I am unable to have any deep conversations. This may just be because they usually just want to relax and joke and hang out.

I also really hate hanging out. It makes me feel so stressed out. I enjoy talking, but not hanging out. I could be dancing, drawing, practicing Japanese, writing manga, anything but no, they want me to 'hang out'.

Also I just learned about one of my 'friends' using 'negging' on me...O.o; Or that's what my other friends called it. I had a slightly open hearted conversation about being stressed and stuff and how I want to have deeper conversations with people, but they just want to make jokes and then he said 'See, you aren't an idiot.'

When did I ever say I was an idiot?

I am very sensitive about being thought of as an idiot. I think most people probably are. I like my image of an intelligent person, but I break it down and be silly with friends because we have different areas of expertise and I am not perfect and have not memorized all the terms in the world.

I try my best to not really talk about anything because somebody always tells me I am wrong or say I am saying something really far-fetched and ughh... Maybe I just have communication problems I don't know...but people...I don't want to talk to them anymore...it's too stressful...

Also my only friends in my chemistry class think I am the biggest idiot ever when it comes to chemistry. Every time I work with them in a group they keep telling me I am wrong and that the oldest girl has the right answer and then I ask the professor and it turns out I was right all along and then they apologize to me. This happens every time.

Another time, by the advice of my professor, I asked my friends if we could meet and discuss the chapters in order to study because you really know your stuff if you can have a conversation about it or explain it to somebody else, so I thought it would be helpful for everyone if we explained what we thought some of the concepts were and to say it in our own words.

But INSTEAD they thought that I needed HELP on it.

No, that was not the original plan.

As they saw I did know the content and the 'help' seemed pretty pointless. Yes, it was pointless. I wasn't asking for 'help'. Why did they think I needed help if they didn't think I was an idiot?

I have been thinking really hard recently about what friends are and I don't know what they are anymore.

I don't think I enjoy having friends that I know that well because then I depend on them for things that they end up never doing like inviting me to play table top rpgs or just talking with me for more than 30 minutes even though I cut out a lot opportunities to talk to famous artists in order to hang out with them longer and I just sit alone in my apartment, or eating dinner with me on my birthday, or even just y'know including me in that fact that you are eating out somewhere else on my birthday and won't be able to eat dinner with me, or letting me borrow your umbrella so that my laptop doesn't drown in the rain...just things I thought friends would do...

I guess nobody is perfect...

I DO know I have a habit of getting really upset at people the more I hang out with them. I think it's mainly just that I am tired to seeing them every day and I am at my limit of socializing with those particular friends...

BLAH

Sorry for the long rant...I think I am done now...

Recently I have been writing down random ideas I get at random times! Hopefully I will get into the habit of writing these in manga form since most of them are short story ideas. I want to be able to show short concise scenes with a lot of emotion so that if I make the story longer then each chapter will be powerful and I can put meaning into each page so that the story won't be so flat.

I'll just give you my ideas for the heck of it! Maybe they will inspire you as well (I have a lot more written down in notecards and napkins in my pocket but I haven't organized anything so these are the only ones I could find so far):

Reverse Harem #1
Girl who is a like a play boy getting all the boys and flaunting them in front of friends.

Reverse Harem #2
Girl who isn't interested in romance is raided by typical romantic characters types. Tries to put them off on other girls instead of herself.

Guy who is outside of the harem

*Girl who can see success and help guys to their success that she likes. She always pushes them to a place she can't reach so that they can reach their dreams. She does this for many guys, but there is only one guy who doesn't want to be separated from her.

*Person/robot who acts as an average of all the feelings or decisions of the people in a room.

*the smallest particle is the largest space. The world is like a loop ever shrinking and growing. There is not a biggest or smallest (This one makes sense to me! XD It probably makes no sense to anyone else though...XD)

Wellpppp....

I'll end this with a nice song:

BAI BAIIII

THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU GAIZ!!

*tears*

I totally forgot about theO around the time of my birthday! SO SOWWYYY!! TT^TT

Also this term was quite busy...I was surprised. All I did was read manga, watch anime, and read about manga and anime. But it was surprisingly a lot of work...leik I had to rad all 7 volumes of Nausicaa in two days. Technically 1 day, but I knew that was impossible so I read before it was assigned.

Well...now it's one of my favourite mangas of all time. Holy crap. I didn't like the anime that much because I wanted more, and I got more, and it's basically all my favourite Hayao Miyazaki movies combined except for the pretteh pretteh imagery of Castle in the Sky.

I also understand Miyazaki and Kon Satoshi more as artists and what their films are saying. Also I know how to properly analyze anime~ YAAAY! I would like to do this some time in the future~ ;D Something I be talkin' lots about...

Although I have pretteh low expectations when it comes to scholarly writing about anime and manga so I keep wanting to make videos or something that would entertain and spread the word of treating anime and manga as art forms....*shrugs*

Sorry, went off on a tangent.

I have been on break for a while now and haven't been on because I was pretty much dead. Before my birthday I went out to eat with a ton of friends, then I worked all day the next day on manga for my class, and then on my actual birthday I went to a master class for dance with the Paul Taylor Dance Company...and by the way I suck at dancing...so I thought this was a good idea, which it was, just it was EXTREMELY HARD. Especially since I haven't practiced dancing since fall semester...;orz So the next day....actually all last week my body hurt like hell and I could barely move my legs...had ta walk like a robot for days...;3;

And I was so exhausted for that period of time I didn't want to do anything so I just watched random videos on youtube, tried reading some Jojo, played some video games here and there, and hung out with one of my friends.

Now I am here!

AND I AM SO HONORED BY ALL YOUR BIRTHDAY WISHES YOU GAIZ! TT^TT I LOVE YOU GAIZ! YOU MAKE MY LIFE GREAT!

I totally forgot about you guys on my birthday 'cause my birthday (actual day) since it was celebrated on a different day, really sucked...I think next year I have to tell my friends that although I enjoy having my birthday celebrated, I would rather celebrate it on my birthday even if it might be hard or extremely small just because birthdays are the days when I am most sensitive....O.o;

Basically my friends, I guess they thought since they celebrated already, they didn't need to celebrate that day, so they all went out to eat and didn't tell me. Luckily I have more friends than them and got to eat dinner with those guys, but still...it really hurt my feelings and I felt like nobody cared.

But seeing all of these comments and gifts and stuff now, even though I didn't do it on my actual birthday, it still makes me feel extremely happy that you guys cared enough to do all that stuff! TT^TT

Okay, enough thanking and stuff...

Just an update on what I've been doing besides school. I have a manga that I did for my class which is 8 pages on done traditionally...which means the scanner messed it up to crapville...;orz And then the first chapter of my webcomic which needs to be cleaned up and translated...

Because of my experience with traditional manga I hath fallen in love! Although I can't tell if this is because I have been doing digital all this time and can see all the problems with digital mangoes or what, but it just feel SO MUCH EASIER! TT^TT And because my digital mangoing skills I can clean up any mistakes on the computer~ ;D So I can still combine digital and traditional~

I also have a G-pen and guys...this pen is AMAZING! Plus the ink is....JUST...SO...BLAAACCCKKK! *3* I love it~

I want to do more traditional mangoes~ I also have lots more paper so that can happen~

The paper I got is deleter manga paper A4 (I think...this is the size I usually use on the computer...sooo...I think I tried to get something that matched). It erases like the gods and is oh so smooottthhhh~ X3

I can do manga on other paper, but that stuff is the best. I will probably do manga on different paper in the end, though! XD

I think I need more different kinds of tools for mangoing....but that'll be then...when I get to the point when I want different tools.

It's like with makeup...you use the same stuff every day and then that time that you run out you decide to buy different stuff and maybe something else?

Also...this is actually pretty stupid...but I have the habit of typing up new ideas on a writing program then saving it as 'story idea' or something random but not clear in the slightest so I decided to just make them all one document and this has been a life saver because now I am able to put random ideas in it whenever I feel like it~ :D

Uhh...yeah...question here is why I never thought to do that earlier since that's just common sense...but now I can see I have tons of different ideas~ Maybe I will start being able to organize them some more by genre or something (though the idea of most of these ideas is to flip the genre around or something)....

Since I want to make this post super long for no reason...let's go onto random topics about vidya games since that's what I be doing~

So.....

THIS GAME

I played this minigame with my friend for leik 4 HOURS when she came to my house. We couldn't find Smash Bros Brawl so we just played Pokemon Stadium and HOLY CRAP is this game addicting. Why is it addicting? Because you have to use strategy in order to win the game...'cause CPUs...;3;

You are supposed to get the most expensive meal by eating whatever they bring out. There is a hierarchy of expensive foods and some food give you food poisoning or are too hot to eat, so you have to be careful. Also the other CPUs plus players always want the most expensive foods.

The trick here is that you also get combos from eating the same foods in a row so if you eat the same food the entire time you might end up with thousands. But other players might see this strategy so you can move them out of the way...and GAIZ IT IS JUST SO FREAKING ADDICTING! TT^TT

Next we have...

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THIS GAME

Which is Genji: Dawn of the Samurai. I bought it a long time ago, played it for like 10 minutes, stopped, played some other game. But I decided it looked pretty so I would play it again...

AND IT LOOKS SO PRETTY ASODNIDNGIUDFNGBIUDHFISNGDGDF

Like...like...wut...wut is this...why is it so pretty? But I stopped playing because I died...and also I read that I am pretty much at the middle and I've only been playing for an hour...;3;

But lemme tell you why I love it:

-bootiful (already established)

-the gameplay is simple, but can be difficult enough and still fun. Unlike some hack and slash type games that are poorly made (there are some out there..or just some that aren't supposed to be but are hella boring anyway) it feels like I am in total control of my character. I can attack to the front. Somebody behind me? Back flip and hit them. It is just so smooothhh...*3*

-You can hit arrows from bowmen back and kill them. WOOAHH! I didn't realize that I could do that. So all this time it was turning black and white was 'cause I was hitting the enemy before they could hit me....*3* I feel like they told you this at the beginning, but now I have more appreciation for this game.

-When you change armor or weapon IT. ACTUALLY. CHANGES. I think this is something that should ALWAYS happen in EVERY game. I say it's a fail on the gamer maker's part if they do not do this. I am usually only interested in the aesthetics of games, so this tickles me fancy when I see it actually happening.

-Last thing, this game was made in 2005 and it is 2015 and it is still amazing to me.

'course this is coming from a person who normally plays n64, nes, snes, gamecube , gamebody, gamebody advanced, and ps2 games normally...and who's most recent game in possession is a ps2 game...But seriously...I like graphics to as much as the console or developer wants to go, I am okay with really polygon-y graphics, as long as there is a good color choice.

But I don't solely play games for the graphics, I also love to play them for the ACTUAL GAME. Story is okay, usually pretteh bad, but the gameplay is why I play 'em and Genji's got some bootiful gameplay and some bootiful graphics.

It made me think that I'd love to play a game that is mixture of strategy and hack and slash.

In my head I see two modes you can play in, but at different times to do different things. Say you play the commander of some army, so you start off battling as solo in a hack and slash thing, then as you get a bigger army you do more strategy moves, then you can go in and kill the commander through some sort of adventure hack and slash thing. And all the while you can still run around through the battlefield to collect stuff...

herm....collecting things...

Okay so you'll be like a demon god and your minions collect the dead bodies and any extra armor or stuff they find??? :D

I also got another idea for vidyagames! Have some game like the lickitung thing or just really fun, but also really easy at the very beginning or in some area where you are supposed to feel stuck or as if you are in heaven...just some kind of heaven for gamers at least...and then be all like 'Now ya gotta leave' at some random point so then it actually feels like you are leaving heaven.

Do stuff like that with gamers. I never could connect with characters who enter some situation that is comfortable and then they're all like 'No, we gotta leave' and understand how huge that choice is...because it is.

Or maybe it's an area where you can play lots of other different games, and then suddenly the game is all like 'You have to leave'

But in order to be nice to the gamer, after they beat the game, or by some sort of difficult side-quest, you can play those games outside the actual game.

Yep, I think that's a good idea in meh opinion.

I also really like japanese fantasy games. I love medieval fantasy games, but the setting doesn't really make feel excited....

I still like my Tengu adventure idea...I need to figure out how to make games on Linux (not what it's for) and then maybe I can live out this dream! *3* (Because it was really a dream to begin with, and now I want to do it in real life~)

Okay, I think this post is long enough! XD

Here's some good moozix fo ya troubles: