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I just got a new laptop because my other laptop's screen turned red and blue...O.o;

It has been almost 5 years since I have had windows on a laptop...oh my god...

I wouldn't say it is particularly wonderful though. It does have its charms. Mainly that I can download programs I want now. It is a lot slower than linux and it isn't as customizable which is a shammmmeee...;3;

But I can type in Japanese now because the keyboard actually works on this one (not that it doesn't work for linux, it was just that my laptop was so beat up certain important connections failed...). It is really funnn

Only thing is I think I set my entire computer to Japanese...oh well, more learning~

In other news....

I seriously need to rant for a moment...

I bought clip studio paint/comic studio/manga studio.............



I literally cried and had a melt down for 3 hours while I was going through the features...

Like I don't know if anybody understands how much this means to me....

I always drew analog or with programs not made for making comics, or super duper crashing with little features free programs.

When I worked on Idolling I used a combination of photoshop elements, paint tool sai, and photoshop 7.0. When I worked on Blind Prototype I used Krita and GIMP. My most recent manga has been with SAI and GIMP. The manga I took to Shueisha I did all by hand.

So the problems that come with this are:
-have to buy or make my own screen tones (expensive or time consuming)
-I have to try so many different brushes to figure out what I need
-I have to draw all my persective lines by hand, all effects by hand
-The main problem is speed lines...drawn by hand...even digitally...
-Drawing individual backgrounds with no short hand
-Doing cross hatching by hand
-Doing panels by hand (meaning crooked lines and lots of clean up)

Literally the only thing that has set me back from drawing comics more often are these tedious things. I draw the characters, thumbnails, etc are all fine, then I get to the phase of needing to make tones, backgrounds, line effects, etc. and I just give up inside.

Clip studio paint allows you to do all of that stuff in just a few clicks...;m;

I cried when I used the cross hatching tool and the speed lines rulers...TT^TT

Shounen Jump is having a manga contest on pixiv from now until january so I am going to try my best and participate in it~

Also with the previous idea for a webcomic I have decided against because I can't really think of any plot past chapter 3..

Instead I have a more interesting idea in store~ But it'll be a secret~

And my third goal is to write a colored webcomic to publish on comico, which my friend kindly introduced me to.

All this stuff...and I still have finals to study for...

I will draw something on clip studio paint soon, but I gotta finish writing my papers and preparing for several finals.

Also my final project for ceramics blew up in the kiln so I am not sure what to do about that...and I was planning on finishing my papers today, but I got sidetracked by wonderful things so yeah...

I look forward to the future~ I haven't been this happy and full of inspiration in so long~

Manga Recommendation!

I have missed so many posts on here! I feel so bad! ;m;

I didn't realize my fall break would be so short last time...I wasn't able to even finish all my homework I had planned...and immediately when I came back from the break my ceramics professor thought it was a good idea to assign us to make 10 7" cylinders, 5 bowls, 5 mugs to make on the wheel in one week. I don't even know how to center my clay...;m;

So that ended being my main stress since fall break and I got free-ish time now~ :D

I have been doing inktober every day. I should post them on here, and I would normally have done that but I usually finished them right before going to bed so I only had time to type little snippets of stuff about them. I like to leave long comments for theO so I will probably post them all when it's over in November or something on here and on DA, but I will talk more on theO! XD

I have two things to say~ First a manga recommendation and second something that I find to be really interesting that I have recently learned about yesterday and today

I recommennddddd...

By Sakisaka Io

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You might recognize the art style if you have read Strobe Edge or Ao Haru Ride. Both by same mangaka.

I had read Strobe Edge which I ended up reading all of and it was fairly well written panel-wise with some interesting fresh kyun moments. She is really good with the kyun moments. However I felt there was so much put into the guy that the girl did not end up with than the actual main protagonists. I didn't understand the feelings of the main character or the guy and although I enjoyed the flow, it didn't make much sense.

Ao Haru Ride was a bit better about this. The characters were more fleshed out, but neither were super likable. They had so many faults that, although they seemed more human, made them harder to support and understand. Thus the manga created a lot of frustrations for me and even though that one had some of the best kyun moments I have ever seen, they story, again was lacking, even though the character development improved.

Thus is makes me incredibly happy to see how much she has improved on fixing the faults in her previous manga. She just keeps getting better and better with story writing~

Omoi Omoware Furi Furare is a story of two couples who complicated feelings. The main character likes somebody who likes somebody else, her best friend likes another person who may or may not like her. It's not really an easily describable romance, so it can't be advertised as a love triangle or anything.

Each character is relatable and fully fleshed out. You can understand the motives and feelings of all characters. I found myself relating to closely to the main character with her responses to similar situations that I have been in being exactly the same.

However compared to her previous works there are not as many kyun moments, but a lot more character development.

I think this is a beauty of a shoujo manga because she sometimes delves into a bit more of the psychology of the characters than normal shoujo do. Dealing with rejection, dealing with a forbidden love, dealing with unrealistic love, etc. Trying to understand the feelings of another person. The love of friendship.

I highly recommend it~ :3


Okay so now onto the interesting that happened.

So I posted a while ago about how I was rejected by the person I really liked. The majority of the year I had been struggling with my feelings about this person because we still maintained contact. I really like him as a friend and I know he appreciates our friendship so I did not want to stop talking to him. It's these sorts of feelings that I really understood in Omoi Omoware Furi Furare. The main character went through the same experience and thought and reacted the exact same way I did! (Definitely an excellent manga).

The best friend of the person I like is currently at my school as an exchange student (and basically my only friend on campus) so we hang out very often and eventually he learned about how I like his best friend and I was rejected (although he apparently already knew about this, being his best friend and all). He had been supporting me a bunch and recommended me to try to talk to him less and try my best to forget about him except for as a friend. Which is incredibly hard. He understands because he has been rejected before.

A few days ago the person I liked asked if he could skype me (this isn't unusual, we mutually ask eachother to skype the other, I never stopped doing this) and the first day I couldn't because of the stupid homework above, so the next day I let him know that I had free time for a little while, and he made me help him with his homework. But then we ended up chatted for a bit about how he wanted to come to America to visit his best friend and other students he knew on campus since it's been a while. He also checked the prices for the flight and realized he could actually do this. But he always says this so I don't believe him at all that he will actually come here.

I told this to his best friend and he agreed that he is definitely just making stuff up. However I told his best friend that I had just skyped with the person I like and realized that the person I like posted about my on his twitter. He said he was wondering who he was talking about. On his twitter he said "I am going to quickly go to America, go see the girl who says 'eh, ah, un' and then come back.' Which that girl is definitely me cause I always say that...also when he skyped me I kept saying that 'cause he asked me to explain to him what a Nation State is in Japanese (way too hard for my Japanese level).

So then that means he actually wants to come to America to see me. O.O SHOCK! So his best friend was suspicious of him because it seemed like he might actually be interested in me, and so he called him to ask why he rejected me. Apparently he didn't know what he was talking about and said 'I never rejected her' and that at the time I thought he rejected me he just wasn't sure what to say.

I reviewed the chat and I realized that I was the one who said nevermind let's not talk about it anymore...;orz That's why it was never brought up again..

Then today his best friend told me more about that phone conversation. Apparently he also asked that if I went to meet him in Japan, would I have any chance and he said 'un, betsuni ii kedo'...which is hard for me to translate into English...But if you watch anime in Japanese you have probably heard this line from tsundere characters a lot. Basically it's like 'yeah, it's wouldn't be a problem or anything'...or 'yeah, sure, maybe'...A 'yes' but avoiding the question.


So much SHOCK

Also according to his best friend he is a major tsundere. I didn't believe they existed so much....or just never liked a tsundere before so I didn't know...O.O

I also talked to the person I like about people who aren't nice and he said that he also isn't very nice because when I was in Japan he kept telling me to go back to America. He apologized for saying that and said he didn't really mean it. Which was confusing for me because I thought that he was actually trying to comfort me. Because he said it at a time when I actually had to go back to America and that was nothing I could do about it. It was like saying 'you belong in America, you should return there for now' sort of thing, not like anything mean.

So I asked his best friend and he said that he was trying to say that he was really sad that I was leaving and didn't want me to leave.


I spent the majority of this year trying to forget about him and avoiding looking at any pictures of him or thinking about it him besides thoughts that a friend should have and odgkmdfgjdnfjkdfn it's all changed now. Now his best friend told me I should not worry and message him every day as much as I can...which now I am too shy to do so...I dunnno what to talk about...too much pressure...;m;

It's probably really juvenile but it makes me very happy, even small things like these like realizations that I wasn't rejected and he might actually like me or at least definitely has interest...;3;

Guhhh...this is so unbelievable turn of events...;orz I dunno how I feel beyond being happy...and I really feel a lot more free because a lot of my favourite things were his favourite things so I tried to ignore them because they reminded me of him and looking at pictures of him and that stuff...ugh..I don't have to be as self conscious...;w;

Still shocked...

Okay I am done with my story! XD

Sorry for posting petty things instead of art related things...>3> Maybe one day I will get much more freetime...;orz

Sorry for inactivity, but here's a meme

Sorry I have been so still have a lot more but I will have fall break soon so I will definitely go back and check on the things I missed...

But as a study breaker...

I saw this meme on tumblr and I wanted to do it real bad...;3;

Maybe I should do it on tumblr, but I have never posted something like this on tumblr and I usually do it on here soooo...whatevs...doin it here

🐰 what is one secret that you’ve never told anyone? I can't think of anything...

💗 if you could hug anyone, who would it be? My friend who comforted me when I was sad...;3;

🐹 what are some of your favourite Pokémon and why? Nymphia/Sylveon because pink, fairy-type Eevee = love; Yamirami/Sableye because its soooo cuuuute; Rayquaza because dragons are cool, especially green ones; Male Gardevoir because super powerful, elegant, and I like to think of the male ones as crossdressers and I like crossdressers

🌠 if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like? Probably apocalyptic and chaotic with sadness and suffering. Similar to today but no first world countries, everything is like medieval era. Why? Because I think my laws would be too strict and I'd work hard to enforce them until everyone is unhappy.

👀 what was the most recent vivid dream that you had? I had one recently but I can't remember it right now...;3; But a few weeks ago I had a dream that my friends all tried to kill my best friend friend and I couldn't do anything about it. So when I woke up I messaged her just to make sure she was alive! XD

☀️ what do you like the most about your best friend? I have many best friends, but for the previous friend it just how aggressively kind she is. She says she is very shy but she makes me a more outgoing person somehow! XD

😘 talk about your crush or partner No thank you...;;

💁 if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back? Nah, I just straight up tell them they are being rude.

🌟 what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!) Ambitious, tries to think out of the box, genuine

🐾 what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it? Bugs. Withholding the screams???

🎁 what never fails to make you happy? New manga chapter. Or when people compliment me by saying that my art looks like my favourite artist (This is the best compliment I have ever received...;w;)

💙 what annoys you about some people? When people are inconsiderate of others

😤 do you get angry easily? Not really, I get more disappointed easily...Like I easily shun others, not so much that I am angry.

🐇 what do you always daydream about? Various manga stories in my head and also how to go about drawing certain pictures.

🌻 if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change? Make the world's most popular religion on which is concerned with the purity of water, make borders and thoughts of nationalism non-existent, make it so that things decay at a slower rate

🍓 send me 4 names: kiss, befriend, kill or marry?

✈️ what is your dream city and why? A city with lots of game centres that is also very safe, clean, and bright with lots of benches.

☕️ talk about your ideal day Being product in writing manga, eating something yummy for dinner and eating something yummy for dessert, then watching either an anime, dorama, or movie and then going to sleep for 12 hours.

🌸 are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert? I'd like to say ambivert, but I have never been able to relate to ambivert traits and only to introvert traits so...introvert.

💧 when was the last time you cried? Last saturday because I told my friend a secret I didn't want to say (so take that first question, only thing I hadn't said as a secret I just told my friend last saturday)

🎵 name 5 songs you love at the moment Juice=Juice-Dream Road ~Kokoro ga odoridashite~; Angerme - Umaku ienai; Susumu Hirasawa - Forces 2016; Alice Nine - Shining; Kidori Kidori - Outsider

⚡️ if you had any superpower, what would it be and why? A book like Chrollo where I can just copy other people's superpowers~ :3 'cause I enjoy studying and I can't make up my mind on one specific superpower.

💛 if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say? You can be a manga artist so practice and learn how to write like one. Ignore what people tell you about how to write webcomics or American comics because that doesn't help, it just confuses you.

💚 who are you jealous of and why? People who live in Japan who want to be manga artists. Do they not realize how easy they have it?? ;m;

💎 which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why? Intelligence. Can never get enough.

🙊 what are you ashamed of? Liking somebody...just because it makes me distracted from my goals...

🌺 which languages do you know? which do you want to learn? English, Japanese, a little bit of Chinese and Spanish. I'd like to learn Chinese more and also Korean. I want to be able to have conversations with all my friends and artists that I like

🍀 if you could be any fictional character’s best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be? Chihaya from Harvest Moon

☁️ talk about your dream universe. A world that is like shoujo manga where everything is innocent

💜 which acts of kindness are you going to do today? The day is over in like an hour so...

🐬 if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why? Baku, definitely. I love these creatures the most because I like dreams and nightmares.

🍄 talk about someone/something you really dislike This one guy at my school recently. I thought he was a good guy but guhh...not true at all, he just disgusts me.

😣 talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately The above. My friend is dating the above guy despite him being an obvious pervert and I just lost faith in can you be so stupid. Like I understand people can be different but right now he is a depressed alcoholic. Don't date him until he has things together especially if he is your first boyfriend and you are a foreigner...ughh...drama...>3>

🍪 what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now? Mangaka~ Still mangaka~ I actually wanted to make video games or do the concept art but I thought it was similar to making comics...for some reason...

🍰 what are some of your favourite sugary foods? Anything chocolate, anything with cinnamon, macarons, bubble tea

🍑 what are you obsessed with? Apparently Yamazaki Kento, but I don't think so! XD Probably recently, boys clothing...Sometimes I wish I was a boy (with the body of a boy)

💘 what happens to you when you’re stressed? I can't eat anything and I get lots of acne

😪 what are you sick of? Americans...specifically party people which are very present on college campuses (I live next to the dorms with the biggest parties on campus...)

🙀 are you an adrenaline seeker? Not at all! XD I get an adrenaline boost from dropping something

💥 what are some unpopular opinions that you have? Just a recent one. I don't believe that, for instance, your family is Japanese, but you grew up in America, I don't believe that you are Japanese. You are American because you grew up in that environment. So if you were to go live in Japan you are just as a much of a foreigner. Same for people who come from other countries to live in America. You aren't American, not unless you learn to understand the American perspective a deeply as possible. It isn't a bad thing, it's just an inevitable obstacle anybody has in trying to assimilate to another country. It's just like those sorts of people shouldn't be able to speak for Japanese if you did not grow up in Japan, or speak for Americans if you did not grow up in America. That's how we create more misundestandings.

☔️ would you consider yourself a good person? Yeah I guess so. I don't really do anything that other people would consider bad.

😊 what do you like to do as hobbies? Dancing and rhythm games

🎤 what’s the last song you hummed or sang by yourself? Chocolate Disco by Perfume

🐝 what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it? Shyness. Taking a leap of faith as much as possible.

🎨 what do you always doodle when you’re bored? Noses, faces, people's backs (usually because my back hurts)

🐻 what’s stopping you from chasing your dreams? Currently? Distance and visa paperwork/no job

🌷 what’s your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you? INFP. Because I'm a dreamer...;3;

🐶 send me 3 fictional people and I’ll choose my favourite!

👑 who are your favourite celebrities and why? Yamazaki Kento because he is so gorgeous. Yu Aoi because she is also gorgeous. Lesean Thomas because he is our lord and savior.

🐴 opinion on __? Lines and spaces...sometimes they are hard to find on various keyboards in games and stuff.

🍋 do you consider yourself an emotional person? Yep, definitely. That is the main word people use to describe me.

📚 share 3 books that you love and your favourite quote from them. Umm...Count of Monte Cristo x3...but I can't quote from it right now because time.

😔 what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help? Watch an episode of game grumps. It does until the episode ends...XD And then I have to watch the next one. It is seriously an addiction.

😌 what thoughts keep you going when you’re sad? Like positive thoughts? Depends on the situation. It's usually some situation to the problem I was having.

🌍 which country do you live in? America

🐧 describe yourself in 3 words Shy, loud, strange

🐵 which quotes changed you? Ughhhh I can't remember...a recent one I was like 'ohmaigawd wow' but I forgot it...

💭 do you keep a diary? I have tried but it always ended up going to weird philosophical places and then I'd stop.

💫 who inspires you? Lesean Thomas, John Ridley, Igarashi Daisuke, Urasawa Naoki, Hagio Moto

👻 do you believe in ghosts and why? Nope, but I like the stories they go with. 'cause I can't think of a single scientific possibility of how they could exist.

🎀 what’s your fashion sense like? My friend once said like a pageboy, which I can totally see. Like kodona with lots of browns and olives, lace, and cats.

🎬 what are some of your favourite films? City of Life and Death, Love&Pop, Love Exposure, Lord of the Rings, Castle in the Sky

🍦 what is one treasured childhood memory? When my class gave me a surprise birthday party because I had never had one before...;w;

🐼 if you could meet anyone, who would it be and why? Sakamoto Shinichi. I want to work as an assistant for himmmm...;3;

Finished with Application :D

The application I keep complaining about on here I finally submitted today〜

And I could be doing homework now but I haven't been able to sleep very much recently (parties next door and the application...) so my body hurts so much...and I keep losing internet on my laptop....I am ready to go to sleep but it is still too early to I thought I would post randomly on here.

So yeah I hVe been really busy with the application, i also had to add an extra class to my schedule becauss I had to change my major and if is a complicated annoying story. I am glad it is resolved, but I don't like taking a morning class even though it is a fun class (intro history class...which shouldn't be fun, but I am good with history).

But through all of this I accidentally forgot about my art projects being due so I can't relax as much,...but luckily the extra history class has no hw next week for some weird reason....we are talking about our research papers and how to write one...bruh, I have done tat in like every class. But most of the students are freshmen so it makes sense.

And so I haven't had time work on my webcomic or other homework, as said above. Now I finally have time but I need to catch up on homeworkkkkk

Maybe I will finally get into a good schedule where I can work on my webcomic...

I actually have a lot written for it, I just need to work on the panel layout more and the dialogue cause I am missing some important info and I need to redraw it all...

It is so weird. I thought me turning in my application would make me super happy and energetic, but I just feel even more exhausted...

Welp tomorrow and over the weekend I will get all my art projects together and maybe work on some other things...


Webcomic idea!

Sorry for so many posts this week...this is the only one that should be posted. The other ones are just me going insane...XD

I have been getting ready and packing for my last year in college!

It's been slow because I forgot how to pack for a year instead of a few months or a week....

This year is going to be weird for me because applications. Which I have complained about earlier. And all my class this year are ART CLASSES! HUZZAH! Now I sure do feel like an art major. I am excited to have my brain go into the zone better instead of being confused in frustrated. I know that'll happen anyway, but still. Also they all start in the middle of the day~ No morning classes~ Same building~

Then some of my friends from Japan are coming as exchange students and I finally get to see them again once I go back~ Excited for these things...

However I just got a message from one of my best friends that she won't be coming this semester because he parents got divorced and she felt it would be best to stay with them. Which is so sad, and I hate that that happened to her family because they were really must be terrible for her..

But on my end...she was the only one I could think of doing fun stuff with....;m; Now all my ideas for this year are out the window....TT^TT

This also means I only have 5 friends still on campus including the Japanese student....;m; This means I have to make friends I forgot how (which is totally not true since I made several friends this year) it's gonna be a scary and lonely year and I hope I don't bother the Japanese students too much...I hung out with one of them a lot when I was in Japan so I guess it'll be the same as when I was in Japan? XD


Anyway....As I was packing I found some weird a dead lizard in my candle holder (my friend tells me it is probably the circle of life going on in there...;m; )..

But I also found some of my notes about shoujo stuffs and ideas for characters and whatever...

And I have been wanting to write a simple webcomic that can go on forever that will be written simply mainly 'cause I don't have much confidence as a writer and I want to work on that. So the pictures won't be so great and just like sketches with panels and stuff...(inspired by One's One Punch Man by the way) But lots of updates. Like I should write a page a day...

I wanted to do some sort of action comedy and I have an idea for one, but I would like that to be well constructed and cleanly drawn...So I was trying to come with other ideas that might be interesting for an online audience that would be fun to draw every day and not worry so much about how it looks as well as allowing me to draw bishounens...

The stuff that comes easiest to me is shoujo manga just because I know at the dokidoki kyun moments. Whereas seinen or shounen stuff feels much more complex to me...

So here's my idea and please let me know if there is manga already like this or if it is at all interesting:

Everybody falls in love, but the duration for that love is random, some short some long. Some people have a connection that can last a really long time. Our main character has one person who is their true love meaning that their love will last forever. However she never knows when she will meet this person. She is given a special watch that tells her the time limit for her to meet this person before they are too far away to meet again. The watch works like a gps of the heart and the closer they are the longer the time limit.

So they can be physically far away, or perhaps that person is dating other people and becomes further away from the main character that way.

The main character struggles with her urge to find him or just moving on in life.

What do you think? Interested in reading a webcomic like this?

The idea is to have her try and figure out who it is who is her true love. This means they also like her but they may or may not have realized this.

I have always wanted to write a romance manga almost like a murder mystery so that is the inspiration for it. Because I think that is why I even like romance manga, because it's always the 'do the really like each other?' thing going on, especially when it's a love triangle then you are alike 'who is she going to end up with' just like 'who is the killer?' when there are two suspects. So that is also what I am going for. Murder mystery with more doki doki kyun, pretty boys, romance, less murder.

Yap so that's the idea. I will probably try and make myself write a few pages a day or something like that. It'll help with my own productivity and practice storytelling to where it becomes natural. It won't be in Japanese which is the only problem for me. Maybe I can translate it one day or something? I'unno...

Should I make it more realistic or add supernatural elements...that is something else I don't know...>3>

Welp I'll continue fleshing out this idea and maybe make it a plan for this year. I know I will be really busy, but it isn't so hard to spend just a day working on a page or two.

Thanks for reading~