hrm...you ever get that feeling where you think someone is better off without you? i get that feeling a lot lately, i think it's because i see him laughing and talking with the other people at work....and all i can garner out of him is a few lines, i dunno, it's weird, my mind really wanders at work when i see all this and then i go home and dwell about it, and then i'm put in a bad mood and all it's just a pfeh feeling, but i take things one day at a time, every day is a new day, i don't think on the things that's happened other days-most of the time-though sometimes i do catch myself thinking about back when we were really good friends and texted almost every day, sometimes i think it's better for me not to say anything at all and let him come to me...but, again, i have the feeling that if i don't say anything, then he'll never talk to me, i dunno, i'm in a weird stage of life right now, i'm wanting something more out of life...and i can't seem to find it because i'm shutting myself away from everybody at work, i'm staying lost in my thoughts all day, which lead people at work to think i'm mad, when i'm not, i'm just thinking too much, and then they all spread the word that i'm mad to the other people, and then it gets around the whole place up there, they just don't know when to shut up and mind their own business, also, a "friend"-i use that term lightly-of mine up there, told me that the one i like is going back to mexico this month, to fix a problem, of course, i asked the one i like about it, he said he isn't, but i have the feeling that he's lying to me, and i also have the feeling that i'm the problem, maybe it's just me, i dunno, i don't know what to do anymore......