I'm that person your mother warned you about being the super smart girl that sits in the corner planning the end of the world. Until of course she realises you need me to tutor you and I'm actually not the quiet. and only smart. not super smart. which comes as a dissapointment, but bear with me.
And then i turn out to be sitting in the corner so the teacher wont notice me drawing on my homework.
I hate art class because people tell me what to draw.
I hate art school because they want realism. not my personal style. But I love them for making me realise I need to expand my talent.
I laugh at stupid jokes like " A man walked into a bar, you'd think he'd seen it"
And I answer to things like "Old Fart" and "Lady" and things like that.
I'm as straight as a curvy line. But I'm not a spiral. YET.
I don't like self- inflicted pain. So here's some code for my journal
Doing something with hair that involves cutting it : Depressed
with the exception of " OH MAN, DUDE, I LOOKED AT SOME GIRL'S HAIRSTYLE, LOL, IT LOOKS SO COOL I WANNA CUT IT LIKE HER!!"
ugh its like...you know? : trying to surpress bad words. lol
and everything else is quite straight forward.
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People don't have to be pretty to be cool.
4 classes. sooooooooooooooo long. YOU CAN ONLY TALK ABOUT A SYLLABYS FOR SO LONG. THEN ITS JUST LIKE WTF MAN.
so pretty much i squealed my head off when i saw my beloved elle. <3
i sadly have no classes with my bestfriends. which sucks. i mean like, me and the twins have been friends since we were in a womb.
and.....anna's placed herself in another group of friends.
which does make me sad. but it was bound to happen. so anyway my mom is talking about how the forms you gotta fill out are retarded. WHICH THEY ARE. omgee u really really really just wanna read some manga right now. BUT I CANT CUS I GOT FCKING HOMEWORK. gaaaaaaaaaah.
and you know, the last 3 days before school, i get like no texts. AND WHEN SCHOOL STARTS EVERYONE DECIDES TO TEXT ME. IN THE CLASS WITH TEH TEACHER WHO BITES. HARD. and has super hearing so he can hear a vibration. luckily i was wearing skinny jeans today so i felt the vibration, not hear it.
and tomorrow is just another day of talking about syllabyses and rules, then a crap load of homework.
i'm so pissed at everything right now. i'm pissed at my friends for no reason, i'm pissed at mari cus she's fake and wasting her life out being fake, im so pissed at myself mainly tho. because i get so angry when my brother leaves. i get so angry that it affects everything i do. it affects my swimming,too. and im so pissed that my times are in the gutters again. im so pissed im going to turn 14 and i still haven't improved in freestyle. pissed that my 100 time was over a minute. pissed that i got a 30 + on my 50
pissed that i gained 7 seconds on my 200 I.M.
pissed that school is starting and ive done nothing over the summer.
but im happy. happy that i have friends to be pissed at. happy that mari is fake so i can see that and get over my depression. happy that i;m alive to point out my flaws and say "man, i fucked up on swimming" instead of "man i fucked up on life."
happy that my brother left because i hate it when we fight and we've become closer. happy that it's begining to teach me independence cus i dont got a safety net to fall back on when some asshole decides to mess with me.
happy that i didn't do anything over the summer so i will be more greatful when school comes around, and i can have fun with friends and not learn any shit until the night before a test.
i'm ashamed to admit that i turned to this blog to type out my feelings before turning to a friend and telling her "you make me hurt inside". ashamed that i act like i understand the world when clearly i dont.
however, i'm proud to be who i am, and i'm proud to say that i love myself. i'm proud to say that my pride hasn't consumed me so i can say that some decisions i make are completely horrible.
i'm also proud to say that i love you guys. you guys are awesome. and don't let any flaws that you have consume your mind so yo uthink "i ain't worth shit"
Britty darling, you're so cool. I'm so glad tyler is there to be ur happy do-da person.
Rachel, hun, you are really amazing. dont let anything your parents say to discourage u get to ur heart. what ur aiming for is so amazing. and wh ocares if society sees it as a "unofficial" job. as long as you love what ur doing, its fine.
and everyone else, you guys are soooooooo awesome.
if i knew everyone online we'd go on adventures and have twenty billion sleep overs a night. because we're so cool, and with our combined coolness, we could so do that.
BAI NOW.
stay supa supa fricky frick fresh. or something .... like....that...
well if you must know, being mindlessly bored in a house with nothing but couches and stuff.
OMMGGG we brought a tv with us to the house, but there was no cable. so we watched final destination. like shya.
them crazy policemen are crazy.
and my super awesome fanfic between harry and draco
harry: take meeeee
draco: gladly.
the end.
lolol. ill make a better one eventually.
oh mannnn
im so so so tired.
i should go do stuff.
i finished my summer reading. and because of that i feel like theres nothing in life to do.
doesnt help that ive had like no human interaction besides swim team and parents.
i miss alex.
soooo much.
no texts.
liz is a loser.
liz the sad loser.
oh shnap i needa go ask someone something that involves stuff dealing with things that may or may not lead to something called an adventure.
i lost 5 lbs. yaaaay.
thats the only good thing about staying in that house. theres nothing to eat so you can't get fat until the adult figure goes to burger king and gets you a sorry excuse for a burger.
nggggggh so yeah, here i am......doing absolutely nothing 8D
