I'm that person your mother warned you about being the super smart girl that sits in the corner planning the end of the world. Until of course she realises you need me to tutor you and I'm actually not the quiet. and only smart. not super smart. which comes as a dissapointment, but bear with me.
And then i turn out to be sitting in the corner so the teacher wont notice me drawing on my homework.
I hate art class because people tell me what to draw.
I hate art school because they want realism. not my personal style. But I love them for making me realise I need to expand my talent.
I laugh at stupid jokes like " A man walked into a bar, you'd think he'd seen it"
And I answer to things like "Old Fart" and "Lady" and things like that.
I'm as straight as a curvy line. But I'm not a spiral. YET.
I don't like self- inflicted pain. So here's some code for my journal
Doing something with hair that involves cutting it : Depressed
with the exception of " OH MAN, DUDE, I LOOKED AT SOME GIRL'S HAIRSTYLE, LOL, IT LOOKS SO COOL I WANNA CUT IT LIKE HER!!"
ugh its like...you know? : trying to surpress bad words. lol
and everything else is quite straight forward.
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People don't have to be pretty to be cool.
i actually really wanna come out of the closet to my dad about my sexuality.
but i know he wont like it.
i told alex but he's always saying that its just a phase and when im 18 and am still willing to say im bi then he'll accept me.
but with my parents......
my mom, well, shes passive about the whole gay thing....
but my dad. he doesn't like homosexuals. or transvestites. i was talking about a friend whos parents divorced because the mom was a lesbian. and he said that he didn't like homosexuals or divorce.
and he talked about how one of his friends had a sex change and he wasn't too happy about it.
but he just said "thats their lives and i only care about my family!"
and he usualyl says that when he doesn't want us to do something
for example-- my mom has a friend who's daughter is pregnant . and he was tlaking about hwo he didnt like that and hwo thats bad and at the end he said "well thats their lives and i only care about my family"
i dunno if its the same thing. but i'll....i'll....well i dunno.
i'll wait of course, like my brother said to. when im an adult. because i kno alot of people think im joking because im still a kid--barely a teenager! only turning 14. ill probably wait until im out of college and am working. ill find myself a nice person to date regardless of gender. if its a female i wont hide it from anyone.
but still, im really anxious of what my dad would do.
thats right. because STUFF happened. well, more like stuff didn't happen.
i wont go into details however. BUT
i'm still content. with whats happening. however i will miss ashtin, kim, and alex[the twin] dearly.
but its for the best and im not whining about it.
anyway~ ALEX[my brother] NEEDS TO STOP CALLING ME WHEN I WANNA SLEEP D:
because because because hes leaving for college.
extremely soon. like hes moving this week.he should have moved AGES ago. but who would want to miss out on awkward dinners with drunk relatives?
also, i need to draw/sketch.
NGGGGGGGGG. can't be btoehredtho. cus shooweeeeeeeer.
and now a really long post about my trip to PHILADELPHIA
Okay so it all began when i woke up at 5:25 and slowly walked to the bathroom to brush my teeth. but i didnt want to brush my teeth so i just washed my face and went back to sleep for 5 minutes. then i was woken up AGAIN so i was like OHMAN and i had to go brush my teeth.
see how boring paragraphs that start with okay are?
so moving on to the car ride there. 15 HOURS, MAN. that was torture. but never fear i slept like half the time lmao. the other times i was just playing air hockey on my ipod with my brother and talking about how disney characters are bad influences on children. totally. maybe ill elaborate later. maybe not. HOORAAAAH.
so we FINALLY got to philadelphia, and me and alex were so hungry we started taking street names and changing them to food names. like sanson, we named it sandwich. and it was a oneway street so i said oneway to my mouth 8D
and that went on until we saw a street that was named the last name of alex's boyfriend I MEAN BESTFRIEND and we were like HOMFGAARON.
and OMG finding a parking spot was TORTURE. THERE ARE NO PARKING LOTS FOR INDIVIDUAL STORES. which is a totally new concept to us cus we're floridians. and its kind of spread out here in florida.
so yeah. we got something to eat, cheked into our hotel rooms and went to sleeeeeep.
AND THEN WE WOKE UP AND IT WAS STRANGELY YET MAGICALLY SATURDAY.
in which we spent the whole morning looking around the city.
then we went to what we were doing in philadelphia to begin with--FAMILY REUINION SORTA. i met so many people i never knew i was related to, it was craaaaaaaazy. so we had lunch and alex and i just kept to ourselves.
and then i slept all afternoon while my mom and dad went to search the city for landmarks and places to go shopping.
then it was the dinner with everyone. so we went to this huge resteraunt and had dinner. a TEN COURSE dinner that is. by the fifth course i was about to cry there was so much food. and then after all the courses there was CAKE. with a bit that wasnt even edible. and of course i ate that part. WOOOOOOOO. im so special.
and so i pretty much gained back teh 5 pounds that i lost. BOOO. so i have to work for that.....AGAIN.
but that dinner was sooo awkward. we were basically having dinner with a group of people we never knew we were related to that didn't evne want to be there with us. not to mention i was put in the young adult table and i'm only 13. alex was okay since hes technically an adult now, but i mean....REALLY?
so basically we just watched our cousins get drunk. which was quite amusing. we even played the irresponsible buddy and told them where they could find more alchohol.
so the next day we went shopping. until like. 1:00 p.m. we were SUPPOSED to leave philadelphia by like, 10:00
so the drive consisted of sleeping and complaining and eating fast food.AND WE GOT HOME AT 4:00 THIS MORNING.
wooooooooo. so that basically was philadelphia.
i think ill go read my beloved manga. cus i havent had internet since idunnowen but it killed me. which proves im too attached to the computer. LAWLAWLAWLAWL its so true ;A;
i do think i did the right thing. although i know so many people will hate me now.
the ones who stay my friends i know are true, and thats why i do believe i did the right thing.
