I can't take it anymore. I'm tired of being told that I'm a dead beat because things don't just magically happen for me. I can't magically make someone call me for a job or follow up on positions because the crap is all done online. I can't make my old school's website magically re-open because it's down for maitenance. I can't make the new school send me an e-mail with my log-in information. I'm tired of getting chewed out for things as stupid as how much laundry two people produce over the course of a week.
I want to go home, because this place sucks. I'm being isolated in my own home by my parents and I just have to suck it up and deal because my problems are stupid and worth nothing to anyone. I never wanted to be here in the first place and I had no choice but to move. And now, I'm getting more of the same things I was getting back home, only ten times worse.
I can't even get out of the house to go on a walk, because I don't have a way to call for help if I get in trouble. So I'm stuck in the house and the way I entertain myself to make my life less stressful isn't good enough for my mother. Every problem that goes on is electronically-based. The video games are more important than your "insert BS here". "I work all day and what do you do? Nothing."
Get me out of here, please.
I'm so not excited for my birthday. No plans, no anything. You'd think the magical 21st birthday would be more.....Magical (lolredundant).
Oh yeah! How about the US soccer team? Granted we pulled it out of our butts, but we're going on to the Knockout Stage! I'm excited to see them actually win their group too, despite winning only one match (should have been two).
Probalby the most exciting thing that's happened in the World Cup for me.
Talk about upset week in the World Cup. Swiss over Spain? Serbia over Germany? Whodathunkit?
The past few days have been nothing but drama-riffic. Drama on theOtaku with the recent bans, arguments at home between my parents. My sister was hogging the phone because she's too busy arguing with her boyfriend that she's broke up with so many times it's a world record by now.
I don't like drama (who does?), but it's getting pretty ridiculous. The universal theme I picked up between all these arguments is that people dont' ever stop to see both sides of the story. Nor can people just let things be left alone when arguments clearly aren't needed. I just try to avoid it all, but somehow I get swept up in it.
In other news, I'm really on the fence about this degree thing. I found out that the schools over here don't offer my degree I've been working on for the past 5 semesters. I looked at the alternatives and none of them really interest me. But I'm at a crucial part of this because when I turn 21, I lose all my dependent status with the Army and I lose all the big things (medical, dental insurance). I'm not even allowed to go on base. Part of me is really resisting this, because I don't want to have to start all over on a degree that I have literally no interest on. So many people have told me "well a degree is a degree".
Right, because getting a degree in Criminal Justice makes you qualified to work on Aerospace Engineering. :|
I'm thinking about moving back to the US and getting my EMT certification, so I can have a steady job while I try to finish up my original degree. Long hours, but I'm sure that helping people and working on my degree at the same time is a win-win situation.