I had a particularly hard day today. Actually…no I can’t really say that. I’ve had so many hard days lately; it’s getting more difficult to distinguish which are “hard” and which are “just another one of “those days””.
You might be wondering if I’ve just updated this world so I can rant.
I’m here to say. No.
I will admit however, I happened upon someone’s world post in which they were ranting about how horrible their life was. To me, it was about as terrible as dropping your ice cream cone. ._. Not to say my problems are any more or less important than anyone else’s, we all have our crosses to bear, I just thought “I really wonder if it helps them to rant to the world like that…” When I see something like that, it just screams “Give me attention!” So it’s a little irksome when you yourself or close friends have problems that are much more dire… Yet to each their own. I can’t, you see. I’m just not the type of person to put all my most intimate thoughts onto a page for the world to see unless I feel that my experience might help someone in some way. I don’t even share in person unless you’re keen enough to see there’s something wrong with me. It’s a very long and boring story as to why I am the way I am, so I won’t go into it, but now you know. I know I’m not alone in this line of thinking, however, and for those who choose to come to me to listen to them rant or need a shoulder, I will always be there and do my very best to offer advice. If they want it, because truthfully, sometimes my advice is rather cruel and blunt. ^^’
Anyhow, after my original pondering on the post, I started to wander around into my old works around here, and eventually ventured back to Vixen. I saw it’s been almost a year since I posted and I feel terrible about it. In all honesty, I think I ran away at first, then just didn’t have the ‘time’ to get back and do something about all the time I’d missed. I want to try and post again and see if maybe it does ‘help’ to get some things out. I won’t by any means ‘rant’ though. I probably won’t even give many details. Yet right now, typing this out is giving me something to focus on, and it almost feels…good.
*pulls out a broom and ties a handkerchief on her head* Sorry for the somber tone in this “reopening” post. *bow* I’ll do some cleaning up and post something a bit more cheery next. Please don’t worry about me. I’ll endure no matter what. After all, Boku ga Kira da!