10:57 PMC
"This Is Twice Now" - Lydia

I can't really remember what led us to this point. I just remember the rain. How cold it was when it touched our skin. The morning felt ethereal. We were dry but he still smelled liked the rain, like new and earth and the sunshine in between. I felt like crying while I watched his steady breathing. Nothing could quite fix what we had done but I didn't think it mattered anymore.

I grabbed a sheet, wrapped it around myself and walked to the shower. The water just brought back the same fleeting images of the night before. Our arms wet and how his fingers would leave a trail of goosebumps when he touched me. The feeling was electrifying. When I walked out he was dressing. He bowed his head immediately and the action stung me even more than Cam's scolding.

"I'm sorry, Emmeline."
"Why?"
He merely sat there. I watched his face as he tried to come up with the right answer. I couldn't quite come up with one either. There wasn't really one. It was done.
"I... I have to go." He got up and walked out the room. I placed my hand where his body had lied. It still felt warm. I couldn't understand what I was doing wrong. Was I damned to live with a void; to have someone fill it somewhat completely then leave it empty again? Nothing made sense. I lied down in the space he'd occupied, regretting the shower I'd taken. My skin didn't smell like him anymore.

The days that followed were monotonous. I couldn't make sense of what had transpired since Cam and the others had exiled me. I thought I was getting back on track. School, work, friends, and him.

[this is a work in progress. i will work on it later. i had a brain fart, i'm sorry.]

Fiction: 10/27/09 | Posted By: blu moon | 0 comments | Personal