September 23rd 2008
Mood: Exhausted and Frusterated

Hello, I'll keep this short due to being tired and frusterated with life because of so many problems I have to deal with in my life. I am so tired of it. I'm a teenage girl and I deal in one week more then what an adult deals with in 6 months and I am just so fed up with the life I have been given. I am studying for exams and these problems are not making it better for me because I cannot keep focus on them because I have little things going through my head that bother me so much and it is starting to get to the point where I cannot stand anything around me and I get annoyed with everything because the stress has finally caught up with me.

I'm updating to try and figure it out but things do not looking good at home right now and to be honest things aren't good in other places as well. I am pretty good at delling with stress but right now I can't find a realive factor except for two things and I do not wish to take those measure (1.) Being I drink which isn't very hard for me to get some or (2.) Ask one of my friends for a cigarette. Note to all those out there I don't smoke nor do I enjoy drinking but to be honest, they sound really nice. I'm trying to do other things so I don't think about doing such things but its getting hard. I just want a day off from life. I want to have one day where its "Iruka's Happy Day" and for some sad reason I can't seem to find it right now.

This entire weekend has been enough stress for me for reasons I do not need to mention, then I have family problems, I have money problems, I have school problems because I am stupid idiot because I am not sure of myself in chemisty and my peers make fun of me for it. It hurts, I don't try to let these things get to me, but when you are being called stupid behind your back it starts to get to you. I want to be a nurse and I have done really well in school, but chemisty has never come easy for me but with the help of my professor I am understanding it more then ever; I am enjoying it!

I just wish people wouldn't make fun of others and I wish that all the problems I had I didn't have to deal with because I have two major exams tommorrow. I'm not sure but I am having I guess a nervous break down and I need help or advice and if you have any whatsoever, please, give me some because I could really use it.

I love you all....

~Iruka~

Life: 09/23/08 | Posted By: Iruka Sensei | 8 comments