Dear Otaku Warriors,
I did not introduce myself before and was away for a long time.
I went through a normal teenager life and going through a 'be like' an adult type of phase which I have been struggling to accept. The word 'adult' to me, meant, responsibilities (realised too lazy for this), maturity (nope, not in my life dictionary), independent ( sometimes confused with attachment), wise (knowledge is what I seek, but wisdom is what I experienced) and educated ( my education is what I have been taught and seek to learn).
Being an adult means owning a reputation for yourself on what you are going to do, this is what I thought, and respect people around you, for I believe is done by accepting people of who they are. Make choices for yourself and act with common sense which I was said, I lack. So yes, it is hard to be an adult. It is hard to live up to expectations. It is hard to accept the truth about yourself. A truth that is not believed by you as it is expressed by someone else who believes it.
It is hard to obtain what you want,
It is hard to change.
It is easy to be selfish and to do not care, but I guess we are not the type to be ignorant.
We are conscious,
We know what actions are like,
We have feelings,
We each have a mind and a heart.
We have a body that can be easily wounded and a soul that resides within.
It is affected by each and every time someone looks you in the eye and describe how you are. Less describe who you are and the only person who knows more than yourself is you.
My ears may be yearning for the compliments however my heart is the only one that I seek clarity and my mind the only one that I consult before I make my actions. I have to admit, this might be called stupidity. But I believe the heart is made to feel the heart of others, and if the heart of others have good for you, it is good only for your heart, however, if the actions are good, do we open ourselves easily to those people or just because behind those actions, it is actually the intentions that count?
I am still a child inside who doubts her hopes and dreams. Always gets beaten down for the sake to always being stronger. I make sure that my intentions reflect my actions. For I make sure if I have an evil intention, I discard it to settle myself in the absolute truth. Though my actions might be same to different people, these same actions are interpreted so differently.
So, with my actions and my people, what really makes me the 'adult me'without changing to others perspective but to become the right one not to the ones who say how I am to them, but to the ones who know who I am for them? At the end, reputation is earned on what you did, not what you are going to do!!!
(- Still did not introduce myself-gotcha!)
(Picture above is not one of my drawings, all credit go to the creator of this wonderful drawing)
