Random rants about whatever happens to come into my brain at the time. >_>

Birthday

Well today is my birthday. I am not sure if I feel older or not but I definitely feel tired. Could be the many nights I have spent playing Final Fantasy Online rather than working on my writing or my art. There is just something with that game that has addicted me.

Thanks to the many many people that have wished me happy birthday today. I didnt think people even paid attention to this kind of thing especially when it came to me so imagine my surprise when I logged on and got all these 'happy birthday' wishes. Thanks guys for making it a good day.

I will repay you all with art soon!

Competition

Finally got my act together and submitted something for the Heaven/Heck competition. I had the idea on paper for about a week but I was just so lazy in coloring it. Then once I got it colored leave it to my scanner to not pick up the colors. I think I need a new scanner. Of course I need money for that so its gonna be a while. But at least I got something new in my portfolio...

Ego Trip X: The RPG

Tonight I started trying once again to recruit some role-players into my rpg. Is it just me or are role-players harder and harder to find these days? Of course maybe my standards are just too high for these people. I want competant individuals who know how to follow the rules. It seems like every time I get a new role-player in my group they have no idea what role-playing actually is or they are just god-moders. Its frustrating sometimes. I love writing and I love role-playing. I dont want my group to die but sometimes it feels like its heading in that direction. Oh the suckage of it all.

If anyone is interested in checking it out it is a role-play game based in a Final Fantasy world. It compiles Final Fantasy 7,8, and 12 along with Yami No Matsuei, The Getbackers, and Kingdom Hearts. There are also created characters in this game as well. The settings are relaxed as is the game play. I accept new characters and if anyone wants to be a character already in play they are welcome to do so. Just check us out at:

http://games.groups.yahoo.com/group/egotripx/

Either join or comment here and let me know you're interested. The only downside (unfortunately) is that you have to have a Yahoo account. Of course it's free but I know sometimes opening a new account is more of a hassle.

Anyway, that is my advert in this World thingy. Maybe it will bring in some new business...

Distractions

I've been really distracted lately. Its a mix of stress and other things that has been keeping me from drawing anything decent. Of course the incidents of last week did not help to improve my mood either. You see, last week I was showing my art to someone and they told me that I needed to go back and learn how to do basic anatomy again because apparently I am no good at it. LIES! LIES I say!

Then she continued to tell me how much my art work was not like manga at all. To set the record straight I never said it was. I dont claim to be any genre. I just draw to draw and whatever it looks like to you then that is what it is but I never said "I am an anime artist" or "I am a manga artist."

It pissed me off. Who can really judge art anyway? This was the reason I did not like art classes in my school. The teachers tell you what to draw and then judge how well it is. Who are they to tell you what is art? Art has no rules - it has no laws or boundaries. That is what makes it so great.

Its people that try to put laws on things that upset me. And what really makes it worse is that the people that have NO artistic abilities at all are the one laying down these rules. Those type of people really dont know anything about art if they are trying to judge it. Idiots... leave me alone.

Good Anime Fans Are Hard To Find

What has happened to all the good anime fans?

When I first started getting into anime I realized there was more to it than the stuff they showed on television. In fact there was a whole world that was a lot better than what I was seeing on TV. As I started to invest in my craze I realized that the stuff they were showing on TV actually sucks. Why does television choose the worst animes to show? Granted there are a few that I have seen that aren't bad. Cowboy Bebop was an excellent anime that was shown on Adult Swim as was Gundam 08th. But these days we're seeing things like Naruto and Full Metal Alchemist. Those are okay but lets face it - they are kiddy shows.

Where's the real stuff? Where's The Getbackers? Samurai Gun? GunXSword? Where's the anime that makes you really focus and think about what life is all about? Why are we showing the crappy shit that creates massive fan-girls and annoying fanatics instead of the real deep meaningful anime that practically made it a household name?

Basically I hate fangirls. I hate the crazy fans that think they are "anime freaks" because they have seen every episode of Naruto on Cartoon Network. If you like that stuff, fine - but you're not a true fan until you've seen something that hasnt been displayed on a kid channel.