killmepleasealready
Hi, I'm Caitlin.
I'm seventeen and I live in New Hampshire, USA.
I pretty much hate majority of my life, but whatever.
I don't give a shit if you think how I am is bullshit, what you think doesn't matter.
I'm so fucking sick of fake ass people.
But whatever, life is life, I can deal.
Have a nice day everyone.
Anyone have myspace and/or AIM that'd like to get to know me or add me go ahead just tell me where you're from please.
MySpace - http://myspace.com/xxocaitlinx
AIM - xxoCaitlinXx

Just because I smile, doesn't mean I'm happy

pleasedon'thurtmeiwasonlytellingyouthetruthisn'tthatwhatyouwanted?

You just get stretched and stretched til you're torn to pieces.

I hate my dad.

He's so fucking pissy, it's annoying.

He's all pissed I wanted to mow the lawn and I asked if he could get the tractor to work since I got it out of the shed and the engine won't turn or whatever.
Now he's even more pissed I wanted my car out of the garage.
It was getting ruined more and more by the damn garage opener thing.
My cars damaged enough now it has more scratches that are worse.

He's mad I called my mom and asked her if it was okay to get it out of there.
She called the house hoping for my brother andmy dad answered and said not to take it out.

So she called my phone back and told me to get my brother Ben to call her.
So he moved it as my mom got home.
He won't stop yelling.

It's got a flat, the roofs got deep scratches. The thing on the trunk, spoiler? it's scratched. The spring scratched the side above the tire.
Shit he's going outside i hope he's not touching my car >_< My mom had my keys..... He's going over to it >_<
He might just be checking the rim....
My moms telling my to come get my keys cause he's in a bad mood.
He has his car on.. not started but on.
He might be getting stuff to change the tire.... I don't know.

If he fucking ruins my car I'll die.
I love my pretty blue Mustang =[

Nighttime pictures suck...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH >_<
I thought my mom would have more of a stupid problem with it I was shocked she was fine with it.
AHHHH >_

Mehh...

After a while...

You learn to care,
but act like you don't.
Paste a smile on the outside,
when inside it's tearing you apart.

You just learn.
Learn to suck it up.
To just deal with it.

Chances are..
It'll never be the same again.
You eventually get past it.
Or learn to seem like you do.
At least...

Eh.
You'll survive.
don't dwell on it so much.
Paste on that smile.
Try and ignore it all.

Maybe one day..
Life will get better.
Maybe one day..
it'll all be okay again.
But you gotta learn to deal first.

Welll.....

Hello there.
Fancy seeing you here, hm?

I don't feel good.
I had a massive headache that was getting worse and worse yesterday and made me uberly cranky after school.

I went to bed at like 7-730 since I couldn't bear to keep my eyes open any more.

Today, I actually woke up a minute or two before my dad came upstairs woke up my sister told me to get up and stole my dogs.
I was having an awkward dream..
They sent to to some psychiatrist and he was just... insanely awkward to match the rest of the dream.

Anyways..
I don't feel well.
My throat hurts, but it's getting better.
Maybe it was just dry?

Hah I'm procrastinating so bad my parents are gonna be mad.
I just really don't want to go to World History.
I never go cause I'm always late and I hate getting stared at because I rarely come in.

Blahhhhhh...

I had a good day yesterday though.
Except gym was uber boring.

Ah here comes my parents. bye!

Tsk tsk. ........... I feel lost and hopeless.

I'm bad.
I haven't been to school all week.

My dad got my make up work for english ROTC and biology.
I have so many papers for english!
Apprently we're starting to read Frankenstein as well..

I hate reading books for class!!!!!!!

I'm kinda torn up I didn't get to go to the budget meeting on Monday.
There was also a drivers ed meeting after school Thursday i could've gone to.
I doubt I'm gonna be able to even take it...

I think I'm don'e with painting my room.
One dark blue wall.
Two walls of light blue with dark blue stipes.
One wall of light blue.
And inside my closets a deep, dark red.
Oh I also painted the trim.

I need to paint the base boards, the molding, and perhaps the heater coverings.
Maybe do another coat of paint in my closet, or at least touch up a bit.

Half the outlet/switch/cable blahblahblah covers need to be replaced.
My mom was thinking about getting silver ones at least for the light switches.

Wash floors, windows, furniture. Blahblahblah.

I took everything off my bulliten board.
All the pictures, random things and such.
Allllllllllll it.
Instead of the big thick line of pink.
It's not a black silky material with metallic blue lips all over it.
Lips are kinda girly... but it's nice colors and It's oh so much better than that pink.

Yea/.... I don't know when my room will actually get done.
I haven't slept in my bed almost two weeks, and I haven't with my dogs for a week unless my dad lets them come down to the couch and lay on me trying to smother me while I sleep.

He was getting Jules to jump on me and bark at me trying to wake me around 11-12 earlier.
it was annoying.

Hmmmmmmmm...........

My moms stepdad has really high blood pressure. She said it was somethign like 205 over 115?
She said it's been like that all week... and he could have a stroke.
That'd be sad... my poor little Canadian grandfather =[
He's shorter than me >_<
He's only like... mid 60s too.
I don't want him to be the first grandparent of mine gone.. and I certianly don't want my grandmother living with me again.

My mom's tall.. ish and my dads tall.
My moms mother is like... 5'2"
My moms dad could be taller... only seen him like twice that i can remember in my life.
Once at my grandmothers old house when I was little, and another at my brothers confirmation when his son thats like a year older than my brother was getting confirmed as well.

My sister's complaining about Jules being in her bed -_-

I want my bed... I'd let them all sleep in here.
Or just my mattresss..... I don't like sleeping on the wood floor I didn't mind the carpet.
i think I might go see it I can pull out the trundle in the den. But my brothers furnitures in there.. I don't know.

I want my room back >_

Sorry...

Sorry but I just thought it was funny...
I was looking for a music video and this came up in that side thing like related search type thing.