killmepleasealready
Hi, I'm Caitlin.
I'm seventeen and I live in New Hampshire, USA.
I pretty much hate majority of my life, but whatever.
I don't give a shit if you think how I am is bullshit, what you think doesn't matter.
I'm so fucking sick of fake ass people.
But whatever, life is life, I can deal.
Have a nice day everyone.
Anyone have myspace and/or AIM that'd like to get to know me or add me go ahead just tell me where you're from please.
MySpace - http://myspace.com/xxocaitlinx
AIM - xxoCaitlinXx

Just because I smile, doesn't mean I'm happy

pleasedon'thurtmeiwasonlytellingyouthetruthisn'tthatwhatyouwanted?

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I can't believe he smokes.
I can't believe he changed so much.
I just can't...

He was the majority of the time nice brother.
Why'd he have to go and change...?

He was nicer then Ben to me.
Still could be a total jackass but at least somewhat paid any attention to me.
Aren't older rothers supposed to love their little sisters?

I changed my necklace this morning, and all I could think about was him.
I only changed it from the butterfly pendant to a star.
He gave me it almost a year ago.
A year ago the thirteenth.

He's been out of the house a year..
And about a week.

I had to walk to my mom's office after school today..
Did a lot of thinking.
Thinking about my brothers.
How Jonathan it was probably all bull shit or pity that he was nice.
Cause he sure didn't give a crap when I saw him earlier.
Didn't say one word to me.

Ben at least will talk to me.
And he's a lot nicer than he used to be to me.

Maybe Ben really cares more than he leads on.
But then again I doubt it.

I guess I really just miss my brother...
But he's not even my brother anymore.

And on top that, my mothers still as always and probably will be forever, ashamed and embarrassed by me.

What a cake topper.

Wth?

What the hell?

Another 20?

Who the hell would be looking at this.
Ugh...

Some bitch was talking shit about my friend during class today.
She kept saying melissa was a bitch and that she needs to get punched. Then she was like, "Oh, is that your friend?"
Stupid fucking cunt. I was like "Uhh yea."
Then we got into this thing and i told her to shut the fuck up and such. She wouldn't stop saying oh whatcha gonna do about it? gonna do anything bout it? and I just ignored her and then she was whispering That i needed to get punched and I was tempted to fucking punch her and/or flip her desk over. Since it's the kind the seat and desktop are connected. Ughhhh
Too bad the class is too fucking noisy.
And we were doing a review game so it was louder than usual.

The beginning of class her and these two other chicks were gabbing about and the teacher yelled at them
So maybe thats why the stupid little sophomore was trying to be a tough barbie bitch.

STUPID DAMN BARBIES

Hmm...

Been a while.
Like all my posts I think I've said lately.
Uhmmm...

Idk.
I got 15 view in a day. how the?
I'm never on and don't update why would people be looking?

Whatever, nothign else to say.
Schools school, lifes same.
Uhhhhh bye.

I've kinda like, idk removed myself from otaku.

Don't have friends on here anymore so I don't care much for it..
Just makes me think of friends I thought I had that are gone for good.
Oh well, supposedly i seem happier and betteroff with out her.

Woo hoo!...........=/

Bye.

so...

School's tomorrow.
Woooooooo!!

Excited... but nervous.
Sorta, anxious?
I suppose...

My dad's lost his job again.
Couple weeks ago.
Uhhh...

I did my usual.
Clean my whole room.
Organize everything.
Go through my backpack.
A million times.
Thing...
That I do every year.
Habit?

Schedule.
A-Caf Study, able to be up to a half hour late.
B-US History
HR-Homeroom. duh..
C-MST- Hopefully Health Science.
D-MST again
E-Still MST
F-Geometry
G-English III
H-Gym

MST. Manchester School of Technology.
Health Science.
By Wwest it's fine.
By there, they were overbooked.
Like.. 3 over.
my brother took it.
He sees her from time to time at work.
Her being the teacher, Mrs. Camarota, aka. Mrs. C.
Supposedly they're gonna drop the first year seniors though and hopefully there'll be room for me to take it.
Not much else to say about that.

Hmmm..
Not much else to say about school.
Oh but, I'm a tad more nervous than usual because i didn't have band camp I think.
It kinda got me into the swing of going to school... but
This year I'm not in colorguard.

Uhm.
Yea that's all that.

I got only some clothes this year..
4 jeans
5 shirts
about 20 pairs of socks.... I was addicted.
pair of DCs though I'm not exactly sure about them but they're okay and i basically like them.
I'm not sure if they're really a "me" sort of thing.
What else...
What else.

3 headbands
3 bras
some underwear..
Think thats it on the clothing side.

Uhm.
2 binders, one for West classes one for MST.
Paper..
single subject notebook.
five subject notebook.
Pans..
pencils..
highlighters..
sharpies..
geometry kit.
sharpener.

Yea basic shit.

Oh yea supposedly someone took off the m, e, m, and i off of Memorial high school across the city over by MST I think...

Oral High... hah.
I'm real curious as to if the really happened.

Also, did I tell you I got two wisdom teeth out?
The left side.
Still holes there.
Twas, two weeks ago tomorrow.
uhhhh....
yea.

The bottom was impacted so they drilled into the bone.
and it hurt like a bitch.
Bye!

Owwwwww.........

I fucking hate getting teeth pulled.
They had to drill into my bone some.. and I sucked up the little harsh pain I felt
when I should've told him it hurt
and they would've given my extra novacaine
but I didn't.....
and so my mom changed her mind and let me get the percocet or whatever they perscribed me.
At least the bleedings stopped for the most part =]

Oh time to take another antibiotic
I'll shut up now.