This is Cheeno...INVERTED VERSION!!!!!

At Alex's House

Hi guys! I'm at my friend's house! You know, Alex? He's awesome. Either way, we're taking a break from playing video games. We're playing Saints Row 2! That game's awesome. Well, gots to go! Later!

I'm So Frackin' Sorry!!!!

Hey guys, I'm sorry I haven't been online in awhile. I've been busy w/ some serious business. My dad's taking custody over me and my mom's pissed. I've been hanging out w/ her alot. She always wants me around her... Like I'm some sort of accessory... Well, yea. See y'all around!

LOLZ Saturday

Ok, so last week my friend and I were having a sleepover and we were SUPER bored. We were quiet for a while, and.... well, it goes like this:

Saso- Shit happens.
Shizuka- So does rape.
Saso- That's nice!
Shizuka- Yeah... but I'm not like that.
Saso- Ok, good...
Shizuka- Or am I?
Saso- Oh wow!
Shizuka- Haha! Just kidding.
Saso- Damn...
Shizuka- What?!
Saso- Nothing...

It was really awkward...

I HATE DOCTORS!!!!!

I just got back from the hospital. I felt horrible this morning, so my grandma drove me to the ER. I couldn't stop shaking and hyperventilating. They took my temp and checked my oxygen. Both were normal. I still have the flu though. But the reason I was so ticked off is because my grandma called my dad and he came. I hate my dad. He's so annoying! But when the doc came in, he said he'd have to do some tests. I didn't know he was going to do a BLOOD TEST. I started freaking out. I'm terrified of needles. My dad sat on the opposite side of the bed as the nurse and was telling me about shots in September. I started getting mad so I asked him to leave, but he refused. I watched them put some cream on my arm. It's supposed to numb me completely. But when they stuck the syringe in the fold of my arm, I went to screaming. It hurt so bad. I was begging them to stop because of the pain. I was crying like a mad baby.

Then they had to put me on the IV. Yet again, ANOTHER NEEDLE. That one didn't hurt as much as the blood work. I don't mind the sight of blood, but mine being sucked out really slow... it's scary. So I stayed on the IV for a total of 3 hours. Then I started complaining about pain in my neck/back. It's been hurting since Saturday, when I 1st got sick. So they decided to do a 'spinal tap'. A spinal tap is when they get spinal fluid out of your back-WITH A NEEDLE. So they rolled me carefully onto my side and had my back to the doc. He put the numbing cream on me.

After that, he put a needle in my back to numb me completely. It stung, and I flinched. He told me to hold still as possible. I agreed to do my best. I heard him squirt some water out of a tube, which made me sick to my stomach. I almost hacked. Then they stuck me in the spinal cord. It felt so weird. They took some liquid and tested it along with my blood. Both were clean, it just turned out I had a serious case of influenza. So, afterwards I went to sleep-which felt great because I haven't slept in 5 days. I woke to them rechecking my oxygen and blood pressure. The nurse gave me some pills for my fever, and I laid back down. When we got home, my grandma called my mom and told her. She, of course, didn't care. She's still mad at me because my dad's going to take custody of me-seeing as they never married. She asked me why we were doing this to her. I admitted that I hate her guts and I'm not safe around her.

She's abusive, bipolar, and insane. I went to visit her in Ohio, and on the 3rd day she got mad and started to hit me. I walked outside crying and called my best fried Laura. Also known here as saki 1234. I was crying and I told her what happened. She said to try and calm down. I couldn't because I was hysterical.

And lately, most of my school friends have forgotten that I exist. I usually handle my issues pretty well, but I was torn up so bad that I resorted to causing myself injuries. When my family found out, they sent me to a psychologist. I don't need one, trust me. I'm fine emotionally and mentally. But they think I'm crazy, but I'm completely normal as far as emotions.

Chow down!

CC and her pizza man.... I don't know how it doesn't screw up her physique...