Being a young adult

So, this morning (4.48 a.m.) I realized how hard it is to say no and don’t or do something your parents don’t agree with.
It’s hard for me personally as I was always a quiet child and did most of the time what was expected from me or what was told me.
Mainly I got to the point where my mom is still very protective about me (and I love her so much for that) and doesn’t really make me let my own decisions. If she ever sees a flaw or doesn’t like something she tries various ways not to make me do what I’d like to and it used to work but nowadays I just do my own thing or try to which leads to some arguments usually. So it’s quite hard to stay calm and prove a point, especially because I personally feel like I have to prove with my behaviour that I’m mature enough to make that decision so I try not to pout and be angry but instead just take it like a ‘grown up’ yet stay firm about my decision. It’s hard because at times I’ve not even been listened to and behaving mature is hard when you’re being yelled at or forbidden things even though those aren’t really some deviant things but the ones that make her worry for not much reason (as in traveling today or going out and such).
To some extend I find it somewhat insulting too not to be trusted with such things but I suppose parents can’t help but to worry.
Lately I’ve been dealing with it in a different way. I am not pouting or being deviant but I do what I wanted to do anyway (if I can of course).
So yeah, I’m not sure if this is the right way or not but I’ve to develop on my own and my parents really did a good job with me and should trust me more but I get that she worries. I will probably too one day.
It’s just that I really thought about it now and figured that it’s truly not easy to be an young adult and make your parents aware you are grown enough to make your own decisions but if you get stuck you’ll come to ask them for help or advice. It’s not easy at all to do your own thing and make them feel good about it. Parents are always be parents I suppose and it’s just hard on them too. So we should consider each other feelings before we start to fight (even though it’s not always possible).

I think that’s all plus I’ve to keep packing.

Take care and have a great day.

~Sasusaku

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