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I guess this is ill be my sort off personal blog type thing
About Me
Nicknames: Ell, Ellie Nationality: Welsh - British
Description: Short, dyed red hair, green eyes, knower of random facts, geek (and proud), quiet.
Likes: Drawing, (a lot of drawing) Anime and Manga, geeky boys, Doctor Who, Seth Green, music, chocolate, reading, history & Myths, drawing, computers, comedy shows, walks, nature and most importantly stars.

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30 day art improvement -+- Inktober -+- Sketch Marathon -+- OC world (inprogress) -+- RP World

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My Other Worlds =
Open Sketchbook -+- Animation Creations -+- Photo Album

Merry Christmas

I’m only drawing a few presents this year as I’ve been busy at home with studding, getting my application for university ready and my art animation project. I would of loved to have drawn more gifts, but I’ll get around to it eventually ^^; so they might end up being a random gift in the middle of April (jk)

I want to wish everyone a very merry Christmas and I hope you all have a wonderful day.
To those who don’t celebrate Christmas happy random holiday/pretty light time/people generally nicer time/random day in December!

Explanation + Markers

Just needed to change the last journal/post.

I just think I should explain a little now here,
I don’t like being a burden on people and I don’t like saying when there is something wrong with me or has made me upset, because I have such a distrust and fear in people that I don’t want to tell people what’s wrong and that I don’t want to be burden on any one or constantly moan and complain and generally annoy people, with updates filling up their messages. And so I keep it all deep inside of me, until sometimes it just has to come out.
I’ve suffered from depression since I was 12/13 years old and I have an anxiety disorder, thus meaning that sometimes things can get too much for me, but no one around me seems to notice. I try to stay as cheerfull as I can, but I can’t always keep it up. I try not to constantly moan, because I have to deal with someone like that at collage, who moans just for the sake of moaning and whose life is much better considering the lives people around them and with no consideration for other people, and I don’t want to be like that, and I hope I’m not.
So thank you everyone very much for being so concerned about me, it was really nice and touching. I hope I can get back to happier place soon and that I haven’t fallen to back into ‘it’
A lonely little wallflower forever stargazing

‘And now for something completely different’ XD
And now for a happy update :) I have gotten myself some copic markers, only skin colour though, but my friend Ari said she’d by me some coloured ones for my Christmas/birthday present :D
If anyone has any tips on how to use them it would be greatly appreciated :D
The colours I have are, Skin white, pinkish white, pale grape, blush, and Dull ivory
I hope to be able to practice them over the Christmas holidays :)

I hope you guys are having a good time at your end, and I’ll speak again soon :D

Secret Santa


This is my wishlist :D

Secret Santa
Secret Santa hosted by alphonse13 and MangaKid
Dear Secret Santa
I hope I don’t make things to difficult for you. If it wouldn’t be too difficult for you, could I have whichever one you chose.
1. Me and my oc Ozzy together.
2. My oc’s doing something wintery {LINK} Take your pic
3. A planetary moe pic {LINK}
4. Sirius B from planetary moe
5. Dewey and Jessie being a cute couple
6. Freckle and Ivy from Lackadaisy
7. Chubby or Nerdy America (Hetalia)
8. (I’d ask for a pairing from hetalia but I have to many XD) Fem!England X America is one

Thank you
Ellenor Mererid

Ozzy <- he's gignger, just to clarify

. . . . .

I don't want to go there again
I don't think I can come back from it again
I've lost grip, I'm sinking below the horizon
I'm slowly drowning and the pain inside me wont go
Slowly drowning into the abyss
Dear god please someone save me before it's too late. . .


Why should I move because of their cock-up?
Why should I move because it's an inconvenience to them?

Forgive me but I'm not in the best of moods and the whole thing is bringing me down a lot.

Because for some reason I have to move rooms, I know it seems very pointless to be getting so worked about but it means a lot to me that room does. I feel safe there, it's high up in the attic, I can look over the village, Ozzy's there, I made it my own place, I had some freedom to do some drawing up until the early hours and my mum didn't/couldn't check up on me and snoop. But because of some sort of cock up that they haven't told me, and my mum has tried to "reassure" me that it might only be for a few months or that I could still go up there which makes the whole thing pointless in the first place! And anyway why don't they close up my place when I've gone off to university and only open it up when I'm home but it seems to me that it's only me that's even thought of that! But I won't move, I will not move, I do not like the other room I do not feel safe there and I will have less freedom now than I did when I was 10! I've tried talking it over with my mum but she's on their side mainly because it doesn't affect her! She doesn't seem to understand how much it means to me and she doesn't understand me at all, she thinks that she scan win by bribing me, that has never worked on me, heck she never notices anything about me, she didn't even notice that I was depressed for a good 4 years!

I will not move! I will not move! They will have to drag me out of there kicking and screaming and swearing words you'd never expect someone like me would say. I will sit on my stairs like Arthur Dent did in front of the big yellow bulldozer! It may not be a very remarkable room by all means, but I'm sorry I happen to like it!

I've never had any temper tantrums or any of that moody teenage business either but I think I might have to have one if I wish to keep my room. I've always had to obey everyone else, listen them and so what they want and listen to their opinions and feelings and have my own trampled over and over again!