Hush, Love, Don't cry,
It'll be alright,
Hold me close,
As I administer the dose,
Listen to my lullaby of lies.
- Created By Mercury Dragon
Symmetry...
Mood: Confused...
Music: The Beatles "Happiness is a Warm Gun"
So, I haven't posted on here in a while. Actually, I've been neglecting the site for quite sometime, save for checking on my good friends' updates. Lately, I feel that the quality of theOtaku has...Well, to be frank, it's gone down. I've been a faithful member for a good 3 years now, and I've seen theOtaku go through some changes. Back when I joined, it was smaller, but there was quite a good deal of amazing art out there. Now, 3 years later, the site is much larger, but, not to insult anyone or anything, I feel the quality of the art has gone down. It's good that the site has grown, but I value quality over quantity.
And then there's all the drama with members like TwoFacedLullaby, AvariceTears, and Iruka Sensei. Now, I will admit that I was friends with TFL and AT. They seemed nice. I still talk to AT over on dA, and s/he is still really nice and has not once harassed/trolled/insulted me. I had been wondering what happened to TFL, and I found out last night that she was caught in her own web of lies. Back when the whole car-accident story came out, yeah, I was concerned. So it hurt to hear that I had fallen prey to a lie...I never knew Iruka...Anyways, the point is: where is the maturity? No, I am not going to run the moderators down. They did their job. They were professional about it. I applaud them for not giving in to any peer pressure. Here's the thing, though: While the internet does allow for some anonymity, shouldn't we all still act mature and try to be a community that gets along? We have enough drama in our real lives. We don't need it in a place we consider our haven.
Now, here is my inner struggle: I kind of want to leave the site. There are several factors involved in my train of thought.
I want to leave because:
~The site feels colder
~My fandoms have changed and involve subject matter too mature for the site's rating
~I feel like I'm only taking up space here
But...
~I have a good group of friends on here (Werner, Vacuum-chan, Mariel, Waffuru, Clozi, Pocky-chan, and DeidaraNarutoClan)
~I love how caring and willing to help the moderators are
~This was my first internet home
I'm at a loss as for what I should do. No, I'm not crying out for attention. I don't care about pageviews and member-ranking systems. I don't care how many people like my art. I was just here to show my art to the world. I can't really do that as of late, due to the subject matter of my recent art.
I'm not going to make any rash decisions. I'm going to keep my account here and lurk, commenting on things occasionally, but I won't be as active as I used to be in the submissions field. If you want to check out my art, you can find me on deviantART here, Y!Gallery here, and FFN here. If I do, by chance, draw something site-appropriate, I'll upload it here, but I make no promises.
Well, thanks for a good 3 years, Otakuites, and remember to stay classy!
Excel~
~~Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep...~~
Love Game...
Mood: Exhausted...
Music: Ai Otsuka "Cherish"
So, it's been a while since I've posted. I've been busy working with Housekeeping here on campus. I get up every morning (Monday-Friday) at 5:30 so I can go in at 6:00. I work until 2:30 in the afternoon. I usually don't go to bed until after 10:00 because I wait up for Daku to call me. This week, I've been waking up every morning with a sore throat and I can't shake that feeling of exhaustion. I spent Wednesday night with my Sako-nee (off campus) because it was storming and there was a chance of hail. At the moment, I'm the only one in my dorm building and I don't handle storms very well when I'm alone...Anyways, today I woke up at 5:30, had the sore throat, and felt completely drained of energy, so I called my supervisor and told her I wasn't feeling well and wouldn't be coming in today. I then went back to sleep until about 8:30. I tried going back to sleep then, but I couldn't, so I got up for the day. My sore throat went away, but I'm still exhausted...
Daku left Nebraska yesterday. He stopped in Kansas to visit his friend (the one that will be joining soon to guest post in my cosplay world) for today. He'll be leaving Kansas early tomorrow morning and I'll be going to his house to spend the rest of the weekend with him. I'm so excited!! It's been a long and lonely summer without him, but I'm proud of him for doing the research internship.
I've been slacking on drawing and writing fan fiction lately, largely due to the job...I need to draw at least two more pictures to sell as prints at A2F V!! And I need to add another chapter to my "Kingdom Hearts" fic, as well as finish my "Labyrinth" fic...And I need to finish reading Christopher Paolini's "Eldest" and Anne Rice's "The Tale of the Body Theif". At least I got that book read for my Education and Growth class...I'll have to read it again during the semester, but I read it before classes started so I would be able to understand it better...The guy who wrote it is really wordy, much like J. R. R. Tolkien...
Well, not much else going on. Classes start on August 25, so I'll be getting back into the grind of schoolwork then. Until then, I'll be working with Housekeeping. I hope I can keep that job when classes start. Of course, my hours will change to Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, from 6:00 am to 11:00 am. I'll also be tutoring my friend, Lissa, in Art History. We'll have that class together.
Stay classy, Otakuites!
Excel~
~~You're such a bidoofus!~~
So Far Away...
Mood: depression...
Music: Toy Box "Superstar" (doesn't really fit my mood, huh?)
Okay, so I figured I'd update you all on my life at the moment. I've got 3 more days of Maymester work, and then Friday we're taking a field trip...I'm glad it's almost over...It's killing me...Although it IS keeping my mind busy and off of a certain subject that I'll be discussing shortly...Then Saturday, my friend Kells is coming to help me move from this apartment building to another apartment building...After we're done moving, we're gonna hang out. I haven't seen her in quite a while, so it'll be fun to do that. Next Monday, I start my community service work...3 weeks, 15 hours each week...That means about 45 hours total...Then on July 1st I start my work-study at the special day care...I'm ready for that...I love those little kids. They're absolutely adorable! I'll work there 20 hours a week (at least, hopefully more) until the Fall '09 semester starts, which will be sometime in late August. After the semester starts, I might continue working at the day care, but my hours will have to be reduced...
Okay, so the reason I'm depressed...Daku left yesterday morning for Nebraska. I made it from his house to campus without crying, but the second I crossed the threshold into my room, I broke down...I cried for a good 40 minutes...He's so far away, and I can't call him just anytime I want because he's working on research, and I can't text him anymore because his parents shut the text function off on his phone plan, and I can't see him whenever I want like I'm used to because he's 8 FUCKING HOURS AWAY!!!!! Long-distance sucks...We did it last summer, but I got to visit him once a month, at least...He'll be in Nebraska for 10 weeks, and the most I'll get to see him is MAYBE one weekend...I really, really, REALLY fucking hate this!! I need to just get somewhere alone and have a breakdown right now, but I can't, because I'm supposed to be working on what's left of my Maymester assignments...
And to make matters worse, our professors chewed us out this morning, saying we were "acting immature, not showing a servant's attitude, had bad attitudes, and letting the estrogen levels get out of control". Well, what the FUCK do they expect?! They're putting so much damn pressure on us, we're bound to be grumpy, grouchy, and be immature. And we can't control the estrogen levels because all 6 of us are GIRLS!! Humans have no control over their fucking chemical balances!! Especially since one of the other girls started her monthly this morning...She REALLY can't help it...I feel bad for her...I really want my professors to just go fuck off right now...I really, really do...
Well, thanks for reading through my little rant, if you did...I congratulate those who read this line...
Stay classy, Otakuites.
Excel~
~~...Attempting to give a damn...Attempt failed...Try again later...~~
I feel your pain, buddy...I feel your pain...
Shiney Teeth...
Mood: sleepy...
Music: Nothing...Celeste's watching something on her computer...
So, no time to update, really. Just wanted to say that my contest, Cure Angstemia and Emoitis, is now officially OVER!! There were so many great entries, so check them all out! I got a laugh out of them. The winners have been declared:
~In first place, we have l33t with YAY LIFE! l33t did a great job drawing the characters' emotions and fully illustrating the theme of the challenge.
~In second place, we have cookiebunbun with Sit Still! cookiebunbun did an absolutely amazing job with the lineart and the coloring, even giving the characters dialogue!
~And last but not least, in third place we have DeidaraNarutoClan with Weirdly Cheering Up! DeidaraNarutoClan illustrated the theme with such a macabre sense of humor that the piece begged for the viewer's attention.
Thanks to all the participants! While I could only declare three winners, I believe all of your entries were simply wonderful! Great job, everyone!
Well, stay classy, Otakuites!
Excel~
~~Cure your Angstemia and Emoitis today!~~
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