Hush, Love, Don't cry,
It'll be alright,
Hold me close,
As I administer the dose,
Listen to my lullaby of lies.

Meet My Maker...

Mood: Ecstatic!
Music: None...

So, I have an update for my Sophomore Review........

I PASSED!!!

I'm so excited about that one! My professors were actually impressed with my work! I'm thinking about posting a gallery specially made for the Review pieces...I don't know...

I have most of my papers and other assignments completed for my Education and History classes. I've got maybe 2 or 3 more things to do. Also, I will have a job beginning July 1st! So I think I'm just going to remain on campus for the summer. During the month of June, I'll probably just do community service to get free summer housing. When I start that job, it will be work study, so I should get free housing for that, too.

Unfortunately, I've only got two more weeks of classes, and then May 11th begins Finals Week...Ugh, the dreaded Finals!! Hm...Let's see, I know I'll have to take the Yoga final (some of which contains Sanskrit), the Theories of Human Learning final, and the World Civilization 2 final...The Families and Students in a Diverse Society final is optional, but you do have to take it if you want an A in the class, so I'll probably go ahead and be an overachiever and reach for that A...Besides, if I do poorly, it can't hurt my grade...In both Sculpture 1 and Figure Drawing 1, I will only have a final critique, so no pressure there.

The day after Finals are over, I get to move into the on-campus apartments! And then that Monday, Maymester begins. It'll be 3 whole weeks of nothing but Education classes...I'm actually excited about it because I'll be working side-by-side with an art teacher at a junior high school. I've already met her and she seems really fun!

Oh, and at Room Selection on Tuesday, Celeste (my roommate and self-proclaimed twin) and I got into the on-campus apartments! It's a big thing because they're MUCH nicer than the dorms...In the apartments, we will share a bathroom with only 2 other girls, who we both know and love! And our other neighbor will be Mantha, whom I've known and loved since 8th grade. The apartments also have a full kitchen! The dorms only have a tiny, crappy, useless one...Anyways, we also opted for the 7-meal-a-week plan. We plan to take full advantage of our culinary skills and that full kitchen...We're also going to learn to buy in bulk...I'll probably end up just finding my way to the nearest Sam's Club and signing up for a membership card. My mom's got one, so I'll talk to her about it more later.

Speaking of my mother, I don't think she's too thrilled that I want to stay here for the summer. She's always had a bit of a problem with me being independent. But I'm 20 years old, and I think it's time to continue cutting on that umbilical cord! I began the process 2 years ago when I came to this university, which is a 3-hour drive from my house...At least it's in the same state! Well, I do feel bad about not visiting my parents very often, but this is how life goes! Parents have child, child grows up and learns from parents, child moves off from parents to lead an independent life. I'm at that third and final step of being a child...Though, I still plan to visit my parents over the summer. My mom's having that "empty nest" syndrome. I'm the oldest of 2 kids. My younger (I don't say little because he's bigger than me...) brother is a Senior in high school this year. Fortunately for mom, he's planning to attend the local community college for the first 2 years, meaning he'll be living at home. Then he's transferring to a state university. I'm currently attending a private university...Anyways, yeah, mom's got the "empty nest" syndrome...But she'll be fine. She'll come to enjoy the peace and quiet...Not to mention the amount of control she'll have over the remote control! My dad's a trucker, so he's only home on weekends...

Okay, now, for a complete and utter change in topic! I'm going to an anime convention this weekend! My boyfriend, 2 of our friends, and I are all leaving tomorrow afternoon, around 2:30 or so. I'm utterly ecstatic!! My fiance and I were going to go as male and female Ranma, from "Ranma 1/2", but his wig still hasn't come in, and if it doesn't come in by tomorrow, he's going as Kakuzu, and I'm going as Sasori, both from "Naruto". One of our friends is going as himself, as he is a character all his own. Our other friend will probably borrow whichever costume I don't use, as she's relatively the same size as me.

Oh, by the way, feel free to color my latest lineart!

Well, that's it for now! Stay classy, Otakuites!

~Excel
~~Laughter is always the best medicine...Unless your ribs are broken...~~

Mutter...

Mood: Hungry (but I gots Spaghetti-Os!)
Music: Hellogoodbye "Here In Your Arms"

Okay, yeah, you don't REALLY have to read this, but I'd appreciate feedback...

Does your body ever tell you things? Like, you know, do you ever get weird feelings and then suddenly go, "Where the HELL did that come from?!" Yeah, I get one of those feelings quite frequently...

I WANT TO BE A MOTHER!!!

I mean, it's not such an overwhelming feeling that I tackle my fiance in true cave-woman fashion and go, "I CAN HAZ UR BAYBEEZ NAO!!! RAAWRGGGH!!!!" But I do have the feeling...It's like this: I'll be sitting down, watching tv with Daku, and suddenly, inside me, my body says, "Hey. Hey, toots. Don't you tink it's time ta get a bun in tha oven yet? Yeah, tell 'at pretty boy ovah theyah ta strip 'is clothes off and stick it in yah! Yous guys is gettin' ta that point, ya know..." Yes, it says it just like that, Brooklyn accent and EVERYTHING!!!

WE'RE NOT FINANCIALLY STABLE ENOUGH TO PROCREATE!!!

We're still in college! We've got 2 years left! We're only 20! Geez! I mean, yeah, we're engaged, but it's still kind of a huge secret, seeing as he hasn't talked to my dad yet...But he will this summer...So yeah...I'll let you know how that one goes after it happens...Anyways, we can't get married until we graduate, and even then, it'll be at LEAST 4 years before he'll be able to start his career!! He's planning on getting a PhD or an MD...Either way, he'll be Dr. Daku...Neither of us really wants a kid until we're both comfortably situated in our career paths...But my body keeps doing that to me...

Do all 20-year-old women get the urge to yield offspring? Do YOUNGER women have those urges? I saw a post card on PostSecret a few weeks back that was sent in by a woman my age who had these feelings. It shocked me to read it because I thought I was alone...Gah, I hate this!! Why won't my body and my logic assimilate?! Why must they contradict each other?!

Well, stay classy, Otakuites.

Excel~
~~Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted counts~~

If The World Stops Spinning, Read That Writing On the Wall...

Mood: Sleepy...
Music: None...

So, things are starting to get pretty hectic. I had a stressful weekend this past weekend. Something happened that was beyond my control, and it really pissed me off and made me worried sick at the same time. It's a horrible feeling to have...If I could've prevented the event from happening, believe me, I would have! Unfortunately, I couldn't. Of course, everything has been worked out, and things are much better now.

The end of the semester is drawing near, which means that I'm going to have to write several papers and do some projects. Then of course, Finals Week...You know what? Let's just not go there...Anyways, I've got Sophomore Review to deal with on April 17th. It's something all the art majors have to go through here at the good ol' U of O...

My Education advisor has thrown out another option to me to help broaden my career choices: Preschool-8th grade certification. Right now, I'm working on an Art major and a Secondary Education major, and with the Secondary Ed major, she told me it would be VERY easy to get P-8 certification. Basically, I think I'll only have to take one more class than I would have...Unfortunately, that class is a State History class...I'm going to talk to that advisor on Wednesday at noon about this option. Both Daku and I believe it would be a very good idea. I probably need to run it by my parents, too.

Then after this semester is over, I'll get to jump right in to Maymester! That's pretty much just a bunch of Education classes rolled into one 3-week-long journey of learning...So I won't really get a break until June 5th. Of course, then I'll be starting a summer Work-Study job. Hopefully, I'll be working at the local special-needs preschool. I'm going to talk to the director Thursday...I really hope I get that position! I'm currently observing there, and I absolutely adore the 4-5 year olds! It's a dream job...See, back in 6th grade, I began working with the 3-6 year olds' Children's Church class at my church, and since then, I've gained a ton of experience working with children. I consider myself an amateur babysitter, as I've babysat many children during that period. So, yeah, that would be a dream job for me.

And May 30th or 31st, Daku will be leaving for Lincoln, Nebraska. He's doing a summer internship at UNL for 2 months...That's part of the reason I want to stay here over the summer. I couldn't stand living back at home with my parents during that time...I'd go absolutely nuts!! Not that I'm not already a bit insane anyways...But yeah, the summer Work-Study will help me make it through. I'm also considering doing an online course at a local Tech college. That'll help me be able to graduate in the next 4 semesters...

Well, I guess that's it...Stay classy, Otakuites!

Excel~
~~One ring to rule them all, one ring to find them; one ring to bring them all, and in the darkness TAKE THEIR COOKIES!!!~~

Predictable...

Mood: Beyond furious; worried sick
Music: Good Charlotte "The Truth"

Have you ever been so extremely close to someone that you thought you knew everything about them? Well, how would you feel if they did a complete 180-degree turn in character? Yeah, I'm there. See, Daku had to leave yesterday for a Tri-Beta convention. It's a school-sanctioned event...Well, I don't trust the people he had to go with, and last night, my fears were confirmed. They convinced him to do something that he swore to me he'd never do. For one, it was illegal!! Secondly, it's against school policy, meaning it shouldn't even happen on a school-sanctioned event that's held off-campus!! Thirdly, he's showing an utter disregard for his health!! Fourth, he's showing an utter disregard for his future!! And finally, he's showing an utter disregard for my feelings!! Ever since I called him last night to say goodnight, and he told me what was going on, I've been crying off and on. I'm worried sick about him, and at the same time I'm beyond furious with him!! I expressed my concerns to him today just before lunch, and he simply brushed me off, telling me that my "train of thought is irrational and illogical".

I'M NOT THE ONE DOING ILLEGAL SHIT THAT COULD FUCK UP MY FUTURE IF I GET CAUGHT!!!!!

Quite honestly, I've got half a mind to go to Daku's academic advisor and inform HIM of what's going on...Unfortunately, I have no hard evidence, so it would be my word against Daku and the other Tri-Beta members' words...I feel like I'm trapped...I love him so much, but if he keeps showing such a disregard for my feelings and breaking my trust like this, I'm gonna leave his ass...And that's what hurts the most. I don't even know if I could continue living without him!

I feel so utterly lost and hopeless...

Please, I need advice...I don't know what to do...

Excel~

Dirty Glass...

Mood: Ugh...
Music: The Killers "Somebody Told Me"

So, Spring Break was okay. I got home and found out I no longer had access to wireless interwebz in my room. Somehow, the neighbors found out that "someone" was stealing wireless interwebz from them, so they got a password-protected wireless interwebz...It made me sad. And maybe a bit frustrated...So, rather than wrestle with dial-up, I made friends with my World Civ 2 reading, which was a book called The River Between. It's by some Kenyan guy...I think it's fiction, but he used it to describe how Kenya was colonized and stuff. I'm about halfway finished, and it's due tomorrow at 10 am, along with a Study Question, which basically says to write the NEXT chapter for the book! I'm pretty sure that if the book's already published, the Kenyan dood doesn't want another chapter added....

Anyways, I also made friends with the living room couch and the tv. Thank Jeebus for DirecTv! And CSI...I watched a lot of CSI...Including both CSI: New York AND CSI: Miami! :D

On Monday, I got to hang out with Kytten, Mantha, and KitKat. We got to see Kytten's new apartment. It's small, but it's cool. Me and Kytten made plans to go to Memphopolis on Tuesday, but my mommy said no...Actually, she said, "It's too dangerous. Plus it's going to storm on Tuesday." Lo and behold, it stormed on Tuesday. But the storm didn't come until AFTER Kytten and I would've been back! >.<

I got to play Kingdom Hearts 2...But I couldn't figure out how to hook my PS2 up to the big screen tv in the living room, so I had to borrow my little brother's PS2, as well as his tv and his room. He was at work, so it was okay. I gained a newfound hatred for Roxas whilst I played...Seriously, I hated him the first time I played through, and now I hate him even more!! The kid can't do crap!! I wanna get Sora back...Unfortunately, now that I'm back at college, I virtually have NO time to play....Sora will have to stay sleeping in that bubble...

Friday, I came back to Clarksvegas. I unloaded my car, checked the interwebz from which I'd been deprived, and then grabbed a few things and headed to Daku's. The two of us got to have MUCHO alone cuddly time at his house. His parents and little sister were on a cruise. His other sister was at her nurse's house...She's autistic. Anyways, I can't disclose any of the events that took place...It was just a bunch of cuddling...And movie-watching...We saw "12 Rounds" on opening night! That was a kick-ass movie...And last night, he decided it was a good idea for us to watch "Quarantine" together...He was wrong...We stopped it about half-way through...I'm sorry, but the idea of UBER RABIES does not appeal to me...Neither does watching an old lady bite a chunk out of a policeman's neck...He did buy me a Kingdom Hearts 2 t-shirt from Hot Topic, though...

I got some good quality skin-color markers yesterday at Hobby Lobby. They're Prismacolor. I got, like, 5 skin shades, a random stone shade, a new black marker (my old one is running out!), and a colorless blender. I can't wait to use them! They were 30% off...I love sales! XD

So, now I'm here. At college. In my room. With quite a to-do list. Seriously!! Here it is:

To-Do List
~finish The River Between
~write the Study Question
~read assigned chapter for Families & Students presentation
~draw self-portrait for Figure Drawing
~pick out 11 works for Sophomore Review
~"finish" works (i.e. mount them)
~write artist's statement for Sophomore Review
~finish 2 commissions for a couple of people on campus
~work on entry for jamo's OC challenge

I dun wanna do it!! TT^TT Oh well...Guess I better get to it anyways...

Oh!! The Twi-Tards are out of hand...Seriously, check out this link. I mean, I know "Twilight" is an "international sensation", but COME ON, PEOPLE!!! IT'S NOT WORTH MAKING AN ASS OUT OF YOURSELF JUST BECAUSE PEOPLE DON'T AGREE WITH YOU!!! I think the Twi-Tards may have caught the uber rabies...

Well, that's it for now. Stay classy, Otakuites!

Excel~
~~Uber Rabies: The Musical! *"Thriller" begins to play*~~