Gah! So sorry it took so long to put my post up! Been cray-cray!
I wondered why Erela wouldn't like BrokenTear if he basically lets everyone do whatever they wanted. Except leave. How long would I be here before the not leaving would seem like a prison rather than a sanctuary?
I thought about what I knew of BrokenTear. I had only met him once. And briefly. "You know, I don't even really know BrokenTear. Does everyone pretty much do their own thing here? Might you never run into each other if that was what you wanted?" I asked.
Ethan nodded. "The who grounds is all of our homes. If you never wanted to leave your rooms, that is your choice and no one is going to stop you. And it is fairly large, so I have gone a few days just roaming several rooms before running into anyone else."
I nodded my head, taking what he said into consideration. I usually hated being trapped in one place for too long. I loved traveling and moving about. Thankfully this place was big enough where it would take me awhile to explore before I'd grow bored of it.Then again, maybe I'd never grow bored of it so long as I was with Ethan.
"Do you ever miss the outside? You know, being able to travel and seeing new places?" I asked Ethan, resting my head on his shoulders as he wound his arm around me. "If we had met on the outside, I would have taken you to so many different places and shown you wondrous sites and beautiful cities. I have a condo in almost all of my favorite cities. Which are now going to get awfully dirty since I don't have anyone cleaning them for me."
The thought of all my beautiful furniture dusty and rusting made me sick to my stomach. I had worked so hard to acquire the condos.But if I never got to leave this place, I guess it wouldn't really matter. No one would know where to find me either. I'd probably be better off that way.
Sorry it's so short!
Sorry for having taken so long. Between school and my own distraction, it's been hard to get creative again.
I hummed in acknowledgement when Brokentear told me about Alyssa and Lilith, and giggled at the remembered panic he displayed. I felt happy for him, for the remembered moment when his own daughter came into this world, but something deep inside me - somewhere dark and forgotten -hurt for both of us. I pushed the feeling down and ignored it, and turned another blinding smile to him.
"I'm glad they both made it okay," I hummed, turning to look out to the forest again. My eyes felt suspiciously wet and I blinked the moisture away, turning a keen eye to the sunlight. The forest was getting darker, but still light enough to see, and I could still see the mansion clearly just ahead of us. Slightly surprised, I surmised we had unwittingly walked into a circle and chuckled silently. I looked back at Brokentear and was bowled over by an idea.
"Ne, Brokentear, lets play hide and seek. It's dark enough to create extra hiding spots, but still light enough that we could still find each other," I proposed, grinning madly at him. Brokentear looked hesitant about it, eyes roaming between me and the forest, and I took a guess that he thought I would run for it. But I had no reason to. I doubted I would ever run from him and his mansion and the others.
"You can hide first. But I warn you, I'll win every time," I told him, smiling mock graciously, and smothered giggles at his little glare. I had dangled the bait, and even silently reassured him I wouldn't run. Now, would he take the bait, I wondered.
"I want to savor every moment with you." Forever told me, and my heart was both warmed and wrenched sharply by his words. It had been a long long time since I had felt this happy about something concerning my predicament. The emotional balance in Forever was awe-inspiring, and I felt the need to reward him for his silent achievement.
Leaning forward, I pressed a gently but long kiss against his lips and nibbled lightly on the bottom one before leaning back with what I could feel was a goofy grin. "It's been a long time since I've heard someone say that. You can't imagine how happy I feel, even about something like this," I told him, carding my fingers through his hair slowly, making sure to trace the back of his wolf ears teasingly.
Forever smiled beautifully and snuggled into my chest again, big eyes looking adorably up at me, and I brushed my fingers along his cheek to distract from the sheer cuteness. "I will always remember this. I won't let a single moment with you fade to black in my mind," I murmured, promising him this with everything that I am coloring the words.
When Forever blushed adorably again, eyes still roving over my face, I decided to do what he was doing and savor him. I brushed my fingers through his hair, over his cheeks, along his hidden forehead, over his nose and eyes. I traced along his mask and stopped briefly over his hidden lips and then moved on to his neck, ending at his shoulders before reaching up and doing it again. The feel of him under my fingers was a good sensation.
Sorry I took so long to post here. Stress and laziness is not such a great combo.
I listened as Akane told me about her rebellious teenage years, both fascinated and a bit saddened that her parents didn't accept her abilities.
"So, tell me about life with you and Erela. What was life like before you met me?"
"Erela and I were pretty close as kids. We were our only best friends. A lot of other kids were afraid of us. Which was reasonable considering that Erela would throw a tantrum if she was made upset and I would scrap with anyone who did so." I smirked at the memories.
"When Erela and I were bonded, I think our parents just kind of forgot that I still existed because I wasn't able to be conscious until after Erela had escaped from the mental institution. However, I was watching things unfold from her point-of-view, like I was dreaming. She fought the doctors a lot and was very stubborn until they gave her medication. Then she would become a zombie and I would have to convince her to do things besides lay in bed." I felt oddly sour and bitter thinking of my sister, how unlike herself she was those days.
Akane and I continued walking, and though I wasn't much familiar with this part of the castle, I didn't feel lost.
"But once we came here, to the manor, I was able to reveal myself on occasion and it's been this way since. BrokenTear and I don't talk much but he doesn't seem to have problems with me. Erela on the other hand, isn't very fond of him for whatever reason, but I think she just really loves it here enough to deal with him."
I stopped talking to look at Akane. Smiling, I awaited her response.
"Were you there when Alyssa had Lilith?" Yuki asked. My eyes widened at the sound of their names.
"I'm only asking out of curiosity. You don't have to answer me if you don't want to." She added. I acknowledged and smiled inwardly at her kindness for giving me an escape from the question if I needed one.
"Ah, yes, I was there. It was around 4am and I woke up because I felt Alyssa shaking me awake and trying to tell me "it's time!"" I blinked, remembering her panicked eyes but calm voice.
"She kept her cool much better than I did, despite her being the one pushing a baby from herself." I laughed a little, "We had decided to have a home birth because the people at the hospital in the city weren't very fond of us. But we did have a nurse who lived with us, so she was a big help." I tried to picture the nurse in my mind, but it had been so long ago that I had forgotten her face.
"Alyssa suddenly blurted out the name Lilith, and it just stuck." I ended my ramble with that statement.
"But I cannot assure you it won't, and I do not want to hide this from you." Setsuna explained his dilemma to me, and I felt very broken and confused.
My Setsu would find himself in a coma-like state, and it's a touch worse than death. I didn't want him to die, but I certainly didn't want him to suffer, either. I felt very torn, but my emotions would not impact his predicament.
I decided to accept things, and hope that I could make his time still with me worth his while.
I sighed softly and smiled somberly beneath my mask. I took a long gaze at him, making sure to note at his every detail. I refused to leave any part of him undiscovered. The feel of his hands over mine and his lips against mine and his arms around my waist.
Wordlessly, I pulled a knee on my bed and leaned into him, burying my face in his chest. Backwards we fell, me on top of him wrapped in his arms. Warmth buzzed in me and comforted my emotional pain.
I looked up at him, "I want to savor every moment with you."
I thought for a moment. Ethan wanted me to tell him something about myself. Life before Ethan. It was hard to image that only a few days ago, I had been pimping myself out to make money. A part of me didn't want Ethan to know that part of me. It was embarrassing. I had acted so immaturely.
"Well," I started as we stopped to pause at some of the different decorations that were strewn about the castle. It was a lot cooler here, and my arms were beginning to get goose bumps. "As you know, I can shape shift." Just to demonstrate that I could, I shifted into a fire nymph I had befriended years back.
My skin was more orange than anything, and the skin radiated heat, warming me up and probably Ethan, too. I was shorter now, barely five feet, my hair turned a fiery, brilliant red as it tumbled down my back in waves. My yellow eyes turned to Ethan to see his reaction.
My shifting always seemed to take him a bit by surprise, but he never appeared scared or repulsed by the morphing phase. It wasn't always pretty watching one face morph into something completely different.
Ethan nodded. "How many different forms can you morph into?"
I thought for a moment as the different people flashed through my head. "Countless. All I have to do is touch a person, and I can morph into them. And that includes animals, so I can do a lot of different people. After my parents kicked me out, I traveled around a lot to try and find the most powerful beings to have in my arsenal. I needed to find a place to call my own, away from my family." I pulled Ethan to another statue.
"Did your family not understand your ability?" Ethan asked gently after a moment of reflection.
I nodded my head, my hair falling over my shoulder. I tucked one side behind me ear. "Not at all. They feared it actually and became weary of me because I could literally be anyone. But what broke the straw on the camel's back was that I was kind of a rebel."
"You?" Ethan said with mock surprise. "No!"
I smiled and punched him lightly on the arm. "I was just tired of people hating me for an ability I couldn't control growing up. I'd just sneeze sometimes, and I'd change into the last person I had touched. I was tired of getting rocks thrown at me and getting beaten up after school. I wasn't getting the best grades in school because I was too busy hooking up with the football team to give a shit about anything else. They'd pay me to shift into the hottest girls in school or the town and sleep with me." I shrugged. "Not my proudest moment. But I used the money for my travel money. My parents couldn't handle the fact I never listened, so they kicked me out. I dropped out of school, I just walked."
It had been years since I had talked about my life growing up, but it was surprisingly therapeutic to talk about it with Ethan. I was beginning to understand just how much he was really good for me. "So, tell me about life with you and Erela. What was life like before you met me?"
I thought for a moment on what to ask, what I didn't know about Brokentear, what I wanted to know, which was everything he'd be willing to tell me. I was stumpe though, not too use to wanting to know about others, not used to the attachment. Finally, I thought of something. "Were you there when Alyssa had Lilith?" I asked, keeping my voice soft when I said their names. Brokentear paused slightly when I asked, so I turned to look forward again and kept my ton neutral.
"I'm only asking out of curiosity. You don't have to answer me if you don't want to." I gave him the out if he needed it and retreated into my own head while he thought it over. I wasn't sure about my own birth, but my Father had been there when my Mother had Angel. He'd been filled with pride and happiness when he'd seen her, or so he'd told me later. I wondered if Brokentear had been proud of his own daughter and then mentally slapped myself. Of course he must have been. My own aside, weren't all fathers happy for their kids?
I could hear myself rambling in my head and shook the thoughts away and focused on counting our steps, waiting patiently for y companion to speak.
Forevers soft plea pierced a hole into my heart and twisted. I felt happy that he valued me so much, yet angry that by cultivating this attachment it would hurt him when I became a veggie. Which reminded me, that I needed to let him know about that.
"Lovely, lovely Forever," I murmured, kissing each knuckle softly, watching when he raised his head to watch me with teary eyes. I smiled bitterly and kissed the backs of his hands. "I'm sorry that my choices will hurt you, dearheart. Had I known my decisions would lead me to you, I might have chosen better. As it stands, I am between a rock and a hardspot." I watched his hurt and confusion and slight happiness war in his eyes an sighed lightly.
"When I say that I'm dying, it's a bit...more than that," I paused to absorb how little sense that made and then pressed on, "you have to underhand, I've been around for a long time. There were a lot of times I was desperate for distraction. There are whole decades that are giant black holes. These holes on memory have put me in a bind. I've made many people mad over time, and someone finally got back at me. I have demons, Forever, little bastards that have been transplanted into me and will, eventually, eat my heart. And because I am immortal due to my nature, I won't die when they do. I'll fall into either a coma, or go vegetable." I told him. I gave him a moment to absorb my not so kind past and then continued.
"I don't know when it'll happen. The attacks are irregular and unavoidable. I don't think it'll happen anytime soon, I don't think it'll happen while I'm here. But I cannot assure you it won't, and I do not want to hide this from you." I told him seriously. I watched Forever absorb what I had told him and smiled when he looked both thoughtful and relieved.