Lost Inside

I remember once when my surroundings were dark.
I tried to walk away and search for my light.
In the end I just ran straight into a wall.
I tried and tried but it was contained inside.
Within these walls I noticed that light was shining.
Through a small hole in the sky getting wider,
until eventually there was enough light to see.
I saw the walls, painted well, with all my memories.
That time when I thought I was alone,
was the time when my past held me firm inside.
Not letting anything out choosing to let me die.
I buried myself in my short stressful life.
Then I thought and spoke aloud.
"when did I change?"
I never thought I had followed the wrong path.
Screaming from my heart "please let me out".
Right then I saw the knife I had gotten for good luck.
I cut through my chest and tore it out.

Feel

"why?"
"I don't know... it just feels"
"feels like what?"
"like someone threw themselves at me.."
"what do you mean?"
"ever felt like someone's life was on your hands?"
"I don't understand..."
"when I feel like letting go.."
"of what?"
"their hand and letting them fall and die."
"what are you talking about?"
"myself and my feelings"
"I don't understand..."
"one day you will and then I'll let go of you"

Lo Que Yo Entiendo

muchas cosas nunca voy a entender.
muchas ya las entiendo de ti.
eres alguien muy simple
pero en realidad te gusta esconder
todo lo que tu tienes dentro
los sentimientos que me das.
pero yo tambien dedico a esconer.
simple yo? no soy tanto
pero mis sonrisas son gritos
gritos de mi corazon,
diciendo que me saques de aqui.
pero me di cuenta de que nunca e tenido
un corazon adentro pero tu me das ese
ese sentimiento muy bueno para mi.
paresco drogadicto sin tu voz
pero te busco i siempre te encuentro.
i estas ahi donde va mi corazon
te copiaste dentro de mi.
i todo tiene sentido

Friendship

The first poem of friendship by me,
I hope it won't be the last
and neither my friendship

The way the words are said have a certain feeling to me
I don't seem to understand how many will see and feel
these words that move throughout this page
only an explanation by someone will be enough to understand
the meaning of all this will come clear to certain minds
even clearer to me though these are my words

the value of this i always seemed to seek
someone worth talking to for longer than a week
my mind was going to collapse if this never occurred
this was a blessing really and meant so much

i was able to look towards a new path rather than that one
the one i was warned not to go through yet i was a fool
i went and i was alone for almost the whole way
then i came to a certain depth and i knew
it came to me in a flash behind my eyes

not a single time i was alone except time made me lose control
i lost track of all those i met along the way
so i went to seek help from a friend
which had began to accompany me toward my path

the idea of a group came to me and i accepted it with desperation
so i asked who are these strangers i met along the path?
she told me 4 names and of those 3 listened to my words
of those 3 one had to go and take care of their own stuff

then there was only 2 left and i thought i had it done
but to the extent of my mind the unexpected occurred
one i lost track of and never seemed to find again
the other had a very pretty name which i could not forget

my reasons were quite simple though a little ambitious
along the way i lost my ambitions and only wanted one thing
if i couldn't have what i wanted i only wished for this
the only right to have true friendship and that's it

now i look for you everyday and i try to tell you everything
you gave me something important though not mentioned
for the first time in my life there is something real
this friendship i learned to trust has to be real

the things i was taught from talking to you
yet somethings you never realized i was thankful still
and i'm thankful now because such commitment is reliable
and i admire commitment and i realized that now

I can finally admire myself
committed to being your friend
and like you helped me
though you seem to be better of than me

I promise to help you when i am able to
and to try to make things better when i can't help

Atmosphero

Falling from the sky
my petals are shaped like spirals
My wings are losing the feathers on them
and I keep going and going
all down and my world is falling
my life is falling down into the water
the ocean is ready to take me
Just before the surface
everything stops
My eyes are white
i'm not here i'm just in my mind
and the storm in my mind is starting
the rain is enough to drown
and deep inside my heart
the storm is made by my tears
no crying involved
just plain tears alone
and the survivors are none
and with this
before i die
in my last will you're entitled to my heart
it's blue with shades of black
it's so heavy yet you're the only one
the only one who can lift it up
into the sky and the colors come back