HI there I'm Cynthia
I won't really have some specific thing to post about
I'm really just going to use this as a blog.
I'll probably have random updates of the most amazing thing thats happened
or an update about the worst thing thats happened.
I like comments. I like reading them.

TheO ftw, ap and minitokyo not so much.

When you think of toddlers swimming in the pool you don't expect them to be very good at it,however you do expect that overtime they will be better. Likewise there are various websites that allow one to publish their works in hope of acknowledgment and development as an artist. But not every site is as welcoming as TheO, they instead crush the artist hope for development and acknowledgment for their art.

I remember first hearing about this site called anime paper where serious artist gathered. I shrugged at the idea of joining, but nonetheless I gave it a try. After I submitted my first submission to anime paper I was anxious to see if it was accepted. Ding! New message. I'm sorry your work could not be accepted because it does not fit our guidelines. At first I felt a wave of sadness wash over me, it gets worst, after knowing that my wallpaper had gotten rejected I had been given -100 papers. I didn't know what papers were used for but the negative sign wasn't a good one. I haven't returned to that site since in fear of my work being to simplistic and not worthy.

I then heard of another site called MiniTokyo I thought why not give this one a try it looks different. In order to avoid the same mistake as last time I submitted a wallpaper of mine that was very popular on TheO. This time it was submitted and was on the site. I saw the notifications go up of people adding it to their favorites and thought to myself "I like this site". Four hours later I receive a notification saying my work has been quarantined because it was too simplistic, or there was already a wallpaper like mine in the gallery and other reasons that I forget. Once again have I been crushed by another site that is not accepting of my work. Too simplistic ran through my head, I like simple things but I didn't think my work was TOO simple it was just right in my eyes. What I don't understand is how works that are even more simpler than mine are submitted and not quarantined.

In summation, not only do these sites crush the hopes of artists like myself, they also try to conform us into a typical "style". This style takes away the uniqueness of the art and also the artist themselves.


So I'm watching code geass r2 and Up to episode im like yea this is getting really good YEA goo lelouch and yea that's badass and stuff and now that I'm at like episode 22 I'm just like WTF is going on?? WHY IS HE DOING THAT? Has anyone watched the second season? I mean it ends in like 3 episodes and they've introduced a WHOLE new plot. WTH.


I'm just a kid in this god forsaken town.
I'm on a journey to overcome my fear.
This burning sensation eats at my heart everyday.
Will this be the end?
These repressed feelings are sure to emerge.
Will my strength alone be able to permanently seal them?
The world is made and focused on pairs.
I see examples of it everwhere.
I still search and wonder, where?


Angel sorry I haven't been commentingg your really the only one whose otaku site I comment on so this is directed to you.

I'm really sort of in a bind. I was looking at photoshop tutorials and I don't know if I should try and switch to illustrator or not. I want to see how it's like but then I don't know. I've been also looking at some photoshop tutorials. I was looking at one web page design and I LOVED it, it was just genius so well created and it was so simple. And I have no idea how...but I was trying to add the link here and it says it appears to be broken, thought I was just on it like 10 minutes ago oh well. If you ever want to look it up it's called " tutorials interface create magic night themed web design scratch photoshop site:psdtuts.com"

So yea. Well also in my wallpapers I'm taking more of a different turn. I'm doing more abstract looking wallpapers becaues those are orignally what I like. The only thing I really like about decorating a wallpaper with an image is you have something to surround all these cool designs with and it seems easier then an empty canvas.

I wish

There was a category where we could submit avatars. I like making them and I'm going to start using my own ones that I create. Like this Tsubasa one I have.