After exam

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*sigh*

Sorry for the latest post. I went fucking nuts trying to study my brains out and doing so much work. I am feeling better after the exam and making a two page geologic history report (from now to 1.7 billion years ago) in 3 hours. I just needed to blow off some steam...ok alot of steam. Family being a pain, friends being a pain and having tons of problems of their own, seven shitloads of collage work, very little me time, etc. I do like helping my friend with their problems but when you know several of them that have problems every single damn day and you caring about them it take one hell of a toll. I still try to help ether way.
I do hate "drama", I prefer unfeeling numbers. You know, life as a system and equation and not something to think about and worry about jack shit. I am not emo; right now I suppose I am in a “don’t give a fuck” mood

I got more work to do, essays and exams, but I am going to go play some games, drink, eat, and sleep for 10 hours. If you didn't know I neglected my body and mind health for a week to catch up with work.

To Jamo (sorry for singling you out) but I doubt the world would be different without me. It’s not like those "I wonder what life would be like without me" thing, I mean a lot of people don't exist and they probably wouldn't make any significant difference. I do also hate the thought of attention grabbing; probably had some because I posted but I didn't think anyone would read let alone comment. But in all seriousness it was really hard not to kill myself, I fought myself hard not to, like fighting gravity.
Oddly enough it was kind of like me standing next to the edge of a big drop; I always have the feeling of jumping off; as if gravity is pulling me off the cliff no matter how hard I try to resist. I could be afraid of heights or something, I just keep away from edges. I would be lying if I said I didn’t want to be dead but it has gone from close to going insane and killing naturally to “bullet through my brain please, haha” (as in joking about killing myself but not really caring if I live or die; it’s a good thing)

I would like you all to forget of what happened recently.

In other news I think I did ok on the exam (60% maybe), I found out I had an essay due yesterday and spent from 9PM to 12 midnight trying to make the essay (it was due midnight and I got out of the exam at 9). Just 30 min ago (a few hours in this post) I found my car door was not completely closed, the door wasn’t locked. Not good, I hope the white stuff near the cup holders was coffee; I also hope nothing was stolen or put into the car or anything. Oh and my car battery is dead. I have grown more in body mass; being I am bigger and consisting of only 7% fat (in the athlete range).
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Long time.

I remember that while ago I would post more. 3 months or more later I post again. Well I am depressed and in pain, thats the jist of it. I am currently confused on whether I am wanting to kill others or myself. Alot of internal things and external things are troubling me; I wasent thinking about posting here but what the fuck. I was having a very hard time trying to prevent myself from killing myself; one very powerful urdge, stronger than hunger, thurst, sex.

I really think I am going to fail my next exam; I know nothing about it. I am also conflicting on the solution to loveless life. I wish I had a final solution this this trouble of life. So many problems would be fixed by killing vast amounts of people; does this make it a good deed to kill or bad. Killing people to save other people or things is good but killing is also bad. It dosn't matter in the end; everything that was and ever will be will turn to nothingness. What difference would it be to proporgate the human race or set it aflame; everything will return to zero. God has never existed in me, only the demon that is myself. Hollow.

Maybe I will be given kindness and return to my carefree shortsited self. I should return to studying; see you next forever.

My site.

If you can actually look here and care then go visit my actual site.
http://www.myotaku.com/users/darkwolfdemon/

F U

Fuck you new MyO. You ruined the old MyO.

Today plus movies

Hey.
How are ya?
Mood: Confused
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This post was constructed over a few days so…yah.

Guess what. This is a momentous occasion on in the life of Darkwolf. I met my lover, Wolftrest, and was over at her house for a few days. And while there I kissed her!!! My first kiss ever. ^///^
Hey darkness can love too.

I saw two movies recently and am going to do a short review on them.
The chronicles of Narnia: PC I say is a low 4 out of 5 movie.
It is pretty good (and wolves are good now. ^^) and it is pretty. The story is also interesting. The bad parts is that I think it moves too fast at the beginning and sometimes is confusing.
Indiana Jones and the Crystal skull.
4 out of 5.
The movie is somewhat like the old ones, Indi looks older and as you can see acts older (part of the movie). I think its better than the temple of doom (or the same) but not as good as the arc and not close to the holy grail.
I also saw Iron man and it is 5 out of 5. Great movie and funny in parts.

I have some things to talk about but they have to wait till later, so later.

Movie

Questions for Darkwolfdemon (thanks for the questions):

Questions for you (from me):
Any questions for me?

Good luck and God bless.
*howls and runs into forest*