Hello lovelies, how is everyone? I just wanted to let everyone know I'm doing better for the most part. if you don't want to read about the dream, stop here and look for next bold text I feel like I can talk about it now without breaking down. My dream was about my grandparents (on my mother's side) being alive again. The dream didn't go into detail much but eluded to it being my doing. I however, had no memory of it. I could tell there was something up though...like it was really them but they did small quirky things that they had never done before. They felt different too but didn't know why.
Things kept getting worse and finally they questioned me about it. Them questioning me made me remember and I panicked and ran to my mother who shunned me and made me tell them what I had done. Once I told them...I had to watch them die. That really messed with me. Then we went to bury them again and their bodies disappeared...because I wanted them back, they disappeared permanently. Soul and everything. They were doomed to nothingness...it REALLY got to me and I ended up crying. A lot.
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Besides that putting me in a delicate mood, works been getting worse. (Forgive the air gear analogy here) I felt my eye patch completely switch today. I'm DONE with being nice and I'm actively looking for a new job. You can only take do much crap before looking it and, I think I hit that point today. I don't even want to stay because of the residents anymore and you guys know I love them.
-sighs- Sorry ^^;; I'm done being salty now. Let's talk about something nice shall we? Halloweens coming up fast! Anyone dressing up? I'm dressing as Alice ^^ I'm going for Cheshire cat next year or maybe lunatic Alice. If you guys would like to see let me know ^^ I'd love to know what everyone else is dressing as or your plans for such a fun evening. I'm just giving out candy with Okami.
