Mood:Broken hearted and jealous.
listening to:Pray for Plagues by Bring me the horizon
Hey.....
Yes I'm broken hearted and Jealous No he didn't dump me...not yet...
But yet again...My best friend I thought Jon is just playing around with my emotions...which sucks because I'm in tears and No not really playing around with them.....Just hurting them alot....
For one he hadn't talked to me in forever...and I was beginning to get over him......But yet again...I had fallen again....I was soaring but I fell back into the pit that suffacated my own mother and made my heart toxically wasted by all.
Yes I know that sounded very very depressed but right now I am.'
So I got a PM from Jon today saying Hi little one whats up?
I said Little one?hey I'm not that little!but nothing really just hurting...
Inside I didn't say really why I was hurting but I said because I was being yelled at and I was depressed but really its because he actually pmed me about nothing really.....and I really wish he'd live closer to me...that way I could say the truth and everything would be all dandy...Psh Please Bitch you've got to be kidding me if I really thought that but I did You know what around the time I realized wow...he really seems not to give a Fuck Some Bile rose in my throat which scared me alot because this is my best friend even if hes a man-whore....just one who is nicer...but I actually fell for him and he asked if I loved him in a different way finally I said yeah...But The thing I dreamed of then never happened I never got to see if he was pure or anything I wanted to know I trusted got busted and broken but what the hay its happening again...
Honestly I'm about to turn into something I'm not and start hating my parents enough to keep me quiet I've been caring to those I hate and love I got soft and got really pathetically in love found out it was nothing really got broken again...
Honestly I'm saying Fuck you all that hurt me.Nice choice of words huh?
well honestly you all haven't seen my really bad side which is a bitch Oh well but seriously stop hurting me...I never did a fuckin' thing and I will not bow down and do whatever the hell you want because I am a human not a pet or a fucking slave!!!
As long as you don't piss me off your all fine...when you do well your life will be Hell :P yay for you.
No I'm not a christan....nor am I religious really but still I believe and I'm not goth...nope nope more like Emo or too depressed and I hate my life and I live just because I can't stand to hurt those with me....
I've heard "If you die I die with you" so much....that I really can't believe the things I've heard....
I've tried to be there for everyone of my friends in their times of need I sat through they're made spells did all the stupid shit you can do to make them happy just to see them happy is enough to make me fake a smile...
When I see them get hurt I'm after your ass gonna get revenge for them...
I've never fought because no one messes with me unless I get too pissed off or if they do...
I've had my heart broken many times I've been a curse to some guys.I've broken hearts I've broken arms I make people love me I make them hate me...
When you don't speak to me well hell your really not a friend but I still think you as one but please if you PM about whats up say your sorry for not talking to me in so long because it'll make me smile and really say"hey its okay I dun care"
This is just a rant because I have a broken down fate and I don't give a damn.
::Amber Heartbroke::
::Amber::
Life: 06/29/09 | Posted By: Blood Moon Wolf | 13 comments | Personal
