That's right! Your's truely is a high school drop out. I feel so stupid. But I had to, my mom can't work, and sister is too young... I'm to only one who can work in my family. SO for the best for my family I dropped out of school. I'm waiting to hear back form all the places I've gone to. Hopefuly I'll have a job by next wednesday.

But I feel so crappy. I might have lost my best friend because of this. She's so upset that I dropped out. She won't speak to me, when I text her she anwsers back with one or two words. I was hoping to have her to lean during this hard time in my life, but now that I need her most I can't find her. She thinks I wanted this to happen. But she doesn't understand... I've cried myself to sleep all week, both at the loss of her friendship and the end of my education.

I'm scared and I'm alone, I can't talk to my mom about any of this, she feel's so bad all ready. I need my bestfriend, I can't stand by myself... This storm is too strong for me to face alone- but she won't help me. When push comes to shove- I am alone... and it hurts to know that she hates me now. What can I do? I have to help my family, I have to be the adult, I have to because no else can. I'm not ging to stand by as everything we love falls apart- I'll do my part, even if I'm alone- no matter how bad it hurts that she now looks down on me. Another day, another friend who's turned tail and run when my life comes crashing down as it so often does.

I don't know what will happen in the next few years- but it will forever change my life. I can't see if this if for the good or bad-only time can show that. I hope that one day she can see to forgive me, that one day she'll understand that I had to... I'll always love her, I'll always care about her, I'll always pray for her to have a good life. I hope one day she can do the same thing for me.

Until next time...

Life: 10/24/09 | Posted By: Kitsune24 | 0 comments