Lay your head back shed the fear +let the tears crystalize

Song: Sound is Vibration
Artist: Atmosphere

So... SRV convinced me to stay. Although he'll be gone in about a month I haven't even been up early enough to talk to him, but I wanted to say thank you to him and that I really do appreciate the friend he gave me :D
OH! and i hope you find yourself when you go to find a career or what ever you said you wanted to do as of the reason you were leaving theO. I'll miss you! And I'll miss crawling into your pocket and being all cute and junk but YOURE NOT LEAVING YET! so i'm not going to say my goodbyes yet. XD

Anyway ... My recovery is going well. I have another consultation for another surgery this coming tuesday for my stomach.
Wish me luck on that. it's my last surgery for this summer (HOPEFULLY)

sincerely;
Meryl Michelle

P.S. this is me at the hollywood dance.
http://photos-d.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs117.snc1/4720_1114619269854_1358100658_30487987_7899909_n.jpg
I went as britany spears hah.

never knew that silence could cut so deep or that you could twist the blade now I curse all of your

Song- The last three letters
Artist- Alesena

I've decided that I'd leave theO.
In a way i have a strange feeling like this just isn't the site for me.
Or maybe i should quit going on to the chat.
Hell, it may be hormones speaking; but being ignored? Yeah, doesn't sit well with someone like me.
So Peace out until further notice.

Im a notch in your bedpost but you're just a line in a song

So i have surgery tomorrow i'm kind of nervous.
and I kind of maybe like my friend. But he's far away from me, so I'm not getting into it. I'm writing a manga and i think i left my sketchbook at pandabearluvs house....my sims 3 doesnt work on any of the comps at my mums house.
so i guess i'll have to do somethin bout that
anyway ill talk to u guys laterrrrrr.
byebye and wish me luck if ne of u even read this.
idk lately it seems like nto many ppl from theO like me, BUT oh well!

I'm a hopeless romantic... you're, just, hopeless.

Song: Hopeless Romantic
Artist: The Bouncing Souls

so this morning i woke up and there were 3 random guys in my home....and i was alone... i freaked out. but GOOD NEWS! they were only for the air conditioning. XD they weren't there to kill me! ... anyway I didn't get that dress I wanted because I missed one patch of the lawn when mowing. wow, great. And my mom finished it before I got outa the shower so she could cheat me out of my money AGAIN.

So as maybe some of you know when I was younger I had a weight issue I weighed about 296 lbs. Within 12 months I lost 125 and made the front page of the Washington post and was on Rachel Ray for Louis Kids or what ever...

Well today I was depressed. I felt hideous, as I usually do. Today there was no hope in boosting the little bit of an ego I had left and I figured "hey when I get the dress...I'll prob feel better" But that obviously wasn't happening now.

So I took the whimp way out of depression and ate a bag of chips. My mom came down stairs, and she already knew I was in a pissy mood and she goes "Why are you doing this? why are you eating a bag of chips?" like, SERIOUSLY!? I'm never going to be good enough for that selfish bitch. Excuse my language but it's true... I'm sick of her being my mother, and I sure as hell don't want my crazy-ass birth mother back either!

My whole life I've had to fucking raise my self. I realized today that the only reason I'm a hopeless romantic is for the soul purpose of wanting to be held. SHE NEVER HELD ME. She never showed me any affection. And you know what? I'm some what grateful for that because guess what;

when I have kids... I'll treat them so, much, better. Much better than I've been treated.

Anyway... i forgot to mention today is the first day of summer vacation. I wanted to do something but was too depressed and too angry to do so.

OH AND GET THIS;
HAHAHA SHE TRIED TO MAKE UP FOR CALLING ME FAT; BY GETTING ME ICE CREAM.
WHAT A BITCH.

anyway that's my rant...
I'm going now.
Peace and love to you all; i hope ur day was better than mine.

Oh, the webs we weave...

The title is from
Band: Escape the Fate - Song: Webs we weave

So today was the moving up ceremony. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Last night was the freshman-senior dance, which is a dance the freshmen throw for the seniors....the theme was hollywood so i dressed as britney spears from her 'hit me baby one more time' video. i looked exactly like her. hah.

Though I def cried my eyes out like all hell and my eyes were puffy this morning. hah, anyway! my real close friend Brendan is graduating (im so proud) but I'm going to miss hugging him every single morning and every time i see him... *sigh*...

BUT I'M OFFICIALLY A SENIOR! and my daddy is treating me to the sims 3!!!! because it'll keep me occupied during my recovery from surgery....

Anyway I'm off to go see a movie with pandabearluv, we're going to try to see startrek AGAIN! live long and prosper!!! tee hee. spok is sooo adorable in the movie! like, I WANNA DATE HIM hahahah. anyway. peace out kids.