juss flat out crying

well i was at tashias today i got so i got so close to her i kissed her face and neck but she wouldnt let me kiss her lips. idk y *sigh*i kept trying later on but she still rejected me.not to scare anyone but at tht moment...i wanted to feel a gun to my head and a loud bang.i want to love her but i was so scared bout her being with jazz i cried right there.*sigh* i juss want to love her.but idk wat to do but I WONT GIVE UP!!!!! IM GONNNA LOVE HER IF IT KILLS ME!!!!!

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