loosing hope

i was at tashias again..it was going so well i was gonna kiss her and she was gonna be suprised till i made a joke bout light(death note) looking at porn. i asked y cant u do u do tht for me and juss as i was leaning in she goes cuzz i got a gf i love. Then my hope was completely crushed.I was gettin tears i held back so she wouldnt notice. So then i wrote how i felt bout her saying"i love you more than life itself and i want to protect you". Then she showed me a love story bout mello going on a bussiness trip but matt wouldnt let him go. They would kiss and then it was yaoi from there but their word they would say i wanted to say those to her. Then mello left anyway and matt followed him. thts how much matt loves mello. My eyes had started to tear up cuzz i love tashia tht much but there would probly be no happy ending. Instead she would go with someone who falsly loves her. My heart and feelings were blown apart in tht instant. And as i was gonna leave i told her to hold her hand out and i gave the piece of paper to her and took off running. Now here i am typing this hell im thinkin bout tht love story is makin my eyes teary. plz people if u see it in ur hearts plz help me on this fight to stop jazz.

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