well this story is bout somethin tht happened to me not too long ago.....Well it all starts off bout a year ago. I had met a beautiful girl named Tashia she had got me into anime in no time. When she discovered i lived right down the road from her she kept inviting me over to her house almost every single day. I didnt mind at all i was always ignored till i met her. Anyway she has an evil girl named Jazz she has been Tashia's gf for years. But then bout half a year ago Tashia started calling me less and inviting me less. I thought nothin of it at first but then when she got word Jazz was moving ishe sounded so happy. But i could tell she wasnt happy at all her voice was starting to sound less cheerful and it almost sounded like she could cry at any moment. then 2 months ago Jazz didnt have any control over our local anime club and Tashia is usually the one to take charge and we listen to her. But now tht Jazz has moved in i KNOW tht Jazz is using Tashia to get control not only over the club but also to get everything she dosnt deserve. I keep trying to wake Tashia from this nightmare but she's too brainwashed by her gf to see how much i love her. I told the anime club and almost all agree with me they all encourage me to do my best. I give special thanx to xXHaseos GirlXx who has made 2 music videos for me and Tashia i thank her from the bottom of my heart. But unfortunatly Tashia is ignoring me either cuzz her gf told her not to or she's too damn scared to face the truth i tell. Truthfully i think Tashia would've broke up with her a long time ago cuzz i got my 1st kiss form her and she said she has a crush on me. But the only reason y Tashia's still with Jazz is cuzz Jazz fights drirty always threatening to kill herself if Tashia broke up with her she's also a drama queen and knows how to throw a fit to get Tashia's attention. I dont want Tashia the girl i love more than anything in the world to be used for the rest of her life so anyones got any ideas to help me plz tell me as soon as possible. Im crying juss typing this this plz help me. Some people say to find a new girl. But....when u find someone thts saved ur life many times tht she'll ever know u cant juss give up people who read this letter tell all the people u know to give me advice. I WONT GIVE UP TASHIA.....AND JAZZ ....I WILL NOT FAIL!!!!!!!

loosing hope

i was at tashias again..it was going so well i was gonna kiss her and she was gonna be suprised till i made a joke bout light(death note) looking at porn. i asked y cant u do u do tht for me and juss as i was leaning in she goes cuzz i got a gf i love. Then my hope was completely crushed.I was gettin tears i held back so she wouldnt notice. So then i wrote how i felt bout her saying"i love you more than life itself and i want to protect you". Then she showed me a love story bout mello going on a bussiness trip but matt wouldnt let him go. They would kiss and then it was yaoi from there but their word they would say i wanted to say those to her. Then mello left anyway and matt followed him. thts how much matt loves mello. My eyes had started to tear up cuzz i love tashia tht much but there would probly be no happy ending. Instead she would go with someone who falsly loves her. My heart and feelings were blown apart in tht instant. And as i was gonna leave i told her to hold her hand out and i gave the piece of paper to her and took off running. Now here i am typing this hell im thinkin bout tht love story is makin my eyes teary. plz people if u see it in ur hearts plz help me on this fight to stop jazz.

hurting heart

Its chad again everyone juss putting another post up schools fast coming and my heart is starting to ache so much. This year all my friends have gone to a diff school i'll be alone this year. Somehow i get this feeling tht they moved to a diff school to get away from me. I wanna cry but the tears wont come. I'd rather be coughing up blood laying helplessly on the floor. Plz help me wake Tashia up and end this pain.