broken and in tears

well this story is bout somethin tht happened to me not too long ago.....Well it all starts off bout a year ago. I had met a beautiful girl named Tashia she had got me into anime in no time. When she discovered i lived right down the road from her she kept inviting me over to her house almost every single day. I didnt mind at all i was always ignored till i met her. Anyway she has an evil girl named Jazz she has been Tashia's gf for years. But then bout half a year ago Tashia started calling me less and inviting me less. I thought nothin of it at first but then when she got word Jazz was moving ishe sounded so happy. But i could tell she wasnt happy at all her voice was starting to sound less cheerful and it almost sounded like she could cry at any moment. then 2 months ago Jazz didnt have any control over our local anime club and Tashia is usually the one to take charge and we listen to her. But now tht Jazz has moved in i KNOW tht Jazz is using Tashia to get control not only over the club but also to get everything she dosnt deserve. I keep trying to wake Tashia from this nightmare but she's too brainwashed by her gf to see how much i love her. I told the anime club and almost all agree with me they all encourage me to do my best. I give special thanx to xXHaseos GirlXx who has made 2 music videos for me and Tashia i thank her from the bottom of my heart. But unfortunatly Tashia is ignoring me either cuzz her gf told her not to or she's too damn scared to face the truth i tell. Truthfully i think Tashia would've broke up with her a long time ago cuzz i got my 1st kiss form her and she said she has a crush on me. But the only reason y Tashia's still with Jazz is cuzz Jazz fights drirty always threatening to kill herself if Tashia broke up with her she's also a drama queen and knows how to throw a fit to get Tashia's attention. I dont want Tashia the girl i love more than anything in the world to be used for the rest of her life so anyones got any ideas to help me plz tell me as soon as possible. Im crying juss typing this this plz help me. Some people say to find a new girl. But....when u find someone thts saved ur life many times tht she'll ever know u cant juss give up people who read this letter tell all the people u know to give me advice. I WONT GIVE UP TASHIA.....AND JAZZ ....I WILL NOT FAIL!!!!!!!

Created By XXXchad

tears

ok...i was at tashia's...sadly i was too scared to kiss her im too scared she's loyal to jazz...and jazz was waiting for me to leave she was staring at me with beady eyes...im scared right now...scared about tashia...tht i wont save her...one thing tht makes me depressed is tht well...i've wanted to be loved since i was 13..im 17 now..it feels like all hope is lost...i havent felt love in so long tashia used to hug me....hell she kissed me for crying out loud tht tells what she trully thinks of jazz!...truthfully i'd rather be in never mind...my heart hurts so much...i feel like crying even as im typing this...i havent had a hug from her in a long time or with anybody as a matter of fact...im terrified tht i'll loose her...and well it seems like all the people i fell in love with truely the deepest of my heart are always used...and every time i try i fail...it always leave a scar in me....SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!

sad

hey guys its me chad *sigh* i got some good news and bad news the good news is tashia invited me over to see her the bad news is jazz was there so i didnt go i didnt want to go but the reason im sad is cuzz i was thinking if i failed im heart hurts so much i have tried my heart at trying to get a gf since i was 13 years old but truthfully...i dont think i was ment to love i've been put down by guys who truthfully wanna use the girls i love for their bodies i dont know what im doing wrong but *sigh* im juss sad.people can ya help me?

one more thing

oh and one more thing tht totally pissed me off beyond all belive all the people last year hated tashia so much tht someone set her up by writing "death shall come soon" on the walls of the school then they all blamed it on tashia!!!! but tashia moved cuzz jazz talked her into moving which tht also pisses me off. but i will wake her i will kiss her and I WILL WIN!!!! I WONT LOOSE TO SOMEONE LIKE JAZZ!!!!!!