well this story is bout somethin tht happened to me not too long ago.....Well it all starts off bout a year ago. I had met a beautiful girl named Tashia she had got me into anime in no time. When she discovered i lived right down the road from her she kept inviting me over to her house almost every single day. I didnt mind at all i was always ignored till i met her. Anyway she has an evil girl named Jazz she has been Tashia's gf for years. But then bout half a year ago Tashia started calling me less and inviting me less. I thought nothin of it at first but then when she got word Jazz was moving ishe sounded so happy. But i could tell she wasnt happy at all her voice was starting to sound less cheerful and it almost sounded like she could cry at any moment. then 2 months ago Jazz didnt have any control over our local anime club and Tashia is usually the one to take charge and we listen to her. But now tht Jazz has moved in i KNOW tht Jazz is using Tashia to get control not only over the club but also to get everything she dosnt deserve. I keep trying to wake Tashia from this nightmare but she's too brainwashed by her gf to see how much i love her. I told the anime club and almost all agree with me they all encourage me to do my best. I give special thanx to xXHaseos GirlXx who has made 2 music videos for me and Tashia i thank her from the bottom of my heart. But unfortunatly Tashia is ignoring me either cuzz her gf told her not to or she's too damn scared to face the truth i tell. Truthfully i think Tashia would've broke up with her a long time ago cuzz i got my 1st kiss form her and she said she has a crush on me. But the only reason y Tashia's still with Jazz is cuzz Jazz fights drirty always threatening to kill herself if Tashia broke up with her she's also a drama queen and knows how to throw a fit to get Tashia's attention. I dont want Tashia the girl i love more than anything in the world to be used for the rest of her life so anyones got any ideas to help me plz tell me as soon as possible. Im crying juss typing this this plz help me. Some people say to find a new girl. But....when u find someone thts saved ur life many times tht she'll ever know u cant juss give up people who read this letter tell all the people u know to give me advice. I WONT GIVE UP TASHIA.....AND JAZZ ....I WILL NOT FAIL!!!!!!!

juss flat out feelin worthless

hey its been a long time since ive posted on this world well what im posting up with has nothin to do with jazz but my sister heres the story she was supposed to take me to borders to get some new books but when i told her to drive caefuly she smirked at me in an evil way tht i could tell wasnt good and i got too scared so she took me home and juss basicly dissed me so much i cried she called me a "big ass pussy" and kept saying "fuck u chad i could've been at 2 christmas parties but no im here with your srry ass!" i cried for about 30 minutes or so i juss felt completly worthless and this is my sister tht said this man im so shooken up *sigh* i have to keep myself from crying as i type this my mom says to apologize to her but i can picture her saying "its a little too late for apologies bitch!" then being punched in the face. so idk i juss feel sad

hole in my heart

hi everyone *sigh* its been 4 weeks since i heard or seen tashia im worried bout her its not like her to to this now i fear jazz has told her never to see me again as it says in the title its like there's a hole in my heart i tell my mom but she tells me to give up but the more i think bout it she always tells me to give up on things but i wont give up it feels like everything i love goes away no matter how hard i try but when tashia came it was then i felt love from her times when i'd cry in her arms and always smile at me i felt like she acctualy loved me till jazz moved in idk what to say now but someone help me.

alone

i hate to keep makin myself a burden but well tashia called but jazz was over and she had one of her pawns over so i didn go but every time i hear jazzes name it strikes fear in me tht tashia will really choose jazz *sigh* i also took an online test to see if im depressed and acording to the result i am and i know why and but if anyone want to hear the full story of how me tashia actually saved me juss pm me k? laterz

sad

hey guys its me chad *sigh* i got some good news and bad news the good news is tashia invited me over to see her the bad news is jazz was there so i didnt go i didnt want to go but the reason im sad is cuzz i was thinking if i failed im heart hurts so much i have tried my heart at trying to get a gf since i was 13 years old but truthfully...i dont think i was ment to love i've been put down by guys who truthfully wanna use the girls i love for their bodies i dont know what im doing wrong but *sigh* im juss sad.people can ya help me?

other reasons

Here r some other reasons why jazz is bad, this was back in like march but i heard from my friend tashia tht they're going to a convention on my b-day. I was so excited i thought i'd be going,but jazz decited to replace me with someone who's already gone to the same convention. And on my b-day all i wanted to do was cry and not to mention as hard as this may seem for 12 strait years in a row something bad has always happend on my either 11th or 12th b-day i nearly got stuck by lightning i could tell cuzz when the bolt flew over my head all the hairs on my body stood strait up. And juss when i thought my b-day was gonna be a good one this happend. My guess is the reason y she didnt invite me was cuzz she knew i was the only one who could wake her up. And not to mention when they 1st started the relationship Jazz threatened to kill herself if she broke up so it sounds to me tht she forced tashia in the relationship. And as much as tashia says she loves jazz i think she's forcing herself to love Jazz. Since we call each other by death note names jazzes nickname is matt tashias is mello now i cant look at matt pics ever the same cuzz they remind my of jazz and how shes using tashia shes a year older than tashia so she knows how to do tht to her. She even made tashia have sex with her when tashia was 13. *sigh* my heart aches so much for her. plz can everyone find anything to help me? *gets on knees and begs* plz...