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steady as she goes

dearest krissy, myself four years ago.
please listen to what i have to say.

four years is a long time, and a lot happens in the time between then and now.

part of the fun of growing up is not knowing what sort of obstacles you're going to be presented with, but also part of the experience is the difficulty of those obstacles that you face.

some will be personal.
some will involve others.
some will be painful for you.
some will test your faith in yourself.

the important thing to remember is that all of the obstacles you will face will be learning experiences. no matter how bad things get, no matter the outcome, you must remember to walk away knowing you learned something. you grew as a person because of what you experienced and therefore you are more prepared to take on the things that come to you later on in life.

i know this is so vague, and i know that that will annoy you. but as i said, half the fun is the surprise, so please forgive me. however, i will tell you some things to keep in mind, things that might give you just enough forewarning.

don't waste your time being bitter. it won't do you any good.
don't change for anyone, and don't let anyone do the changes for you.
don't give up on yourself, even if all avenues are bleak.
have some faith in others. most of the time, they won't let you down.
appreciate your friends. remind them that you love them. make sure they know it.
learn everything and learn it in context. apply it and don't waste it.
forgive but don't forget. but also don't hold it against them. allow them the chance to prove themselves wrong.

and i feel this is most important, so please remember this if nothing else:

don't be afraid of change.

i know that you don't much like it, but it's not always a bad thing. sometimes, without realizing it, you need the change more than you know. allowing things to happen as they will will let you find that you can come to terms with what you percieve to be negative change much easier than if you fight it.

please take these words to heart. i know that, at the point you're at currently, you might not realize what you're in for, but i promise you it will be a grand adventure. you just need to know that obstacles are there for a reason, heartbreak isn't permanent, and you are stronger than you think.

most sincerely,
krissy, myself as i am now.